Today is officially 3 months clean & sober for me! It's an amazing feeling that I am constantly finding new ways to appreciate every day. I am forever grateful to have been given this opportunity to change my life around, and I'm intent on continuing to do this well. Even my worst days sober are still better than my best days drunk. Words can't describe the freedom I've come to know and love. <3
Good news about my sister, she seems to have found a place to live in Tennessee. Unfortunately, no one knows who this person is so we won't know how safe she's gonna be.
It's funny in a not so funny way how much she reminds me of myself. It's like i know exactly how she feels even without talking to her much. I truly am wishing and praying for the best, but with the knowledge of how the real world works, I fear for her.
I went to the doctor today for some blood work and tests, will be going back in a couple weeks to see her again. The visit was much easier this time, as I feel as though I prepared for it mentally and intently focused on happy thoughts!
I had forgotten to mention that on Tuesday I went to play the 5/5 PLO at Gretna. This session was short (40 minutes) and quite a disaster in terms of variance. I wound up -$1000 in only 3 hands before I left.
The first hand was UTG with KdKcJc9s, I open to $20 and get 3 callers (UTG2, MP1, SB. Flop falls AxAc8c. I bet pot, UTG2 repots, MP1 all in for less and SB folds. I tank for a bit, then starts talking myself through the hands that UTG2 would repot me with, obviously I put him on an Ace, but can't put him on A8 with the preflop call, I decide that my flush draw is ahead of his range and eventually make the call for the rest of my stack. Turn falls Tc river Qx. As I turn over nut flush, he turns over AJT9 for a boat, and the kicker here is that MP1 turns up TT62 -_-
Obviously I rebuy another $500.
I go through the blinds and decide to straddle $10 on the button. SB calls, BB calls, HJ calls, I look down at AAKKhh. I pot to $40, call, fold, call. Flop falls 783cc, goes check, check, I bet $150, SB repots, HJ all in for less I tank fold. Knowing my over pairs without a redraw is dead. They run it twice, HJ rivers flush, and boats on bottom.
So very next hand button straddles $10, SB calls, BB calls, UTG2 calls, I have AA6h8h and decide to just call with the intention of getting it all in if button pots, so button pots to $50, SB calls, BB calls, UTG2 folds, I repot to $200 with $90 behind, Button thinks for a sec before he calls, then SB takes a bit longer than he does and eventually calls. Flop comes like KJ8 rainbow. SB checks, I dump my last $90 into the pot, button thinks for a sec a calls, SB folds. Button turns over K9cc, board getting running clubs.
Pretty standard, I'm not sure I would have really played those hands any differently. I was kind of caught off guard by running so bad and losing 2 buy ins so quickly. I'm aware that PLO has higher variance, and I'm alright with that most days, but this session just pissed me off. I'm ok now, and I've come to terms with the loss.
I've thought it over a lot and talked with a friend that grinds the 2/5 NLH in Jax and for now I think I'm gonna take a break from PLO and focus on 2/5 NLH cash, and maybe some more tournaments.
Unfortunately the poker room here doesn't offer a beatable NLH game, but I'm more than happy to drive over to bestbet to play for the weekends
So till next time hope everyone is well!