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Originally Posted by DooDooPoker
Hey man nice blog.
I'm re-reading some of your posts and in one of them you say there are a lot of people who "don't get it/sort of get it" when it comes to poker and then very few who actually "get it." One of them is Charlie Carrel.
Have you checked out his new website (it's in the beta stages atm) epiphanypoker.com?
I'm not really a fan of his from his twitter persona (although he seems rather harmless) but I think I could learn some thing's from him.
Hey buddy, thx
I actually joined the Elite membership thing for $57 a few weeks back when I needed a distraction from some life tilt. For me, the idea behind it was to immerse myself in someone else's thought process who is far removed from the Detox and GTO-player logic, to get back to my roots and kick these mental squatters to the curb. I think it's helped a bit, and at minimum has helped my confidence thru osmosis bc if there's one thing we can say about Charlie, that dude is bursting w/ confidence. And it's only been accelerating the past few years, or maybe mutated is a better term, as he's grown that super niche audience which provides him w/ a cozy confirmation bubble at every turn regardless of how abrasive he is. I guess they don't mind? Or maybe they don't notice. This was def the most tedious part of the immersion experiment, but luckily he wasn't so extreme at the time he made the course videos as he is now. Still, I found myself needing to power thru a lot of moments and man am I glad I did bc I gained so much at a profoundly deep and personal level. Beyond just receiving the desired dose of (brain)-muscle confusion to help clean out the toxic ways I've been approaching the game, I got to see just how much he
misses in-game due to his lack of theoretical knowledge. I now understand the value of those long dark 8 years I spent in the GTO dungeon hiding in shame from the world that knew me as a "crusher" (you must have me confused w/ someone else), desperately learning all I could about theory after the poker community's wave of solver idolization (and my not knowing better than to take their word for it) shattered every bit of belief I had in myself. I went from a place where I was exploding with confidence in every area of my life, to completely riddled with fear and doubt. It was an almost decade-long waking night terror where the scene looked perfectly calm on the outside but the plot of a horror-thriller movie played on the inside. I can't put fully into words how amazing it feels to able to look back on this period of my life with appreciation instead of resentment, thru a genuinely empowering lens knowing full well how much better I am as both a player and person for having gone thru it. I will forever be grateful to Charlie for sparking this aha moment of realization and giving me the gift of being able to reframe that period of my life once and for all.
Now that feelings of pride and accomplishment have replaced the shame and doubt, some truly fantastical goals and dreams have begun to take shape in my mind. I'm not ready to share them publicly yet, but when I am you'll be the first to know
. It's just a matter of getting all my knowledge and skills to fit together in just the right places so that they can do their job and power my rocket ship to the moon. We. Are. Going. To. The. *****. MOON
For now, here's the bankroll update and my plans moving forward w/ the rest of April:
The plans are big. I won 2 seats to the Venom PKO (it's a ***** PKO yo!) which starts in a few weeks, and the roll is big enough now to buy into 630's on ACR w/out sattying (like the $750k this Sunday)
. Sick. I changed the graph to show total profit instead of total bankroll so that cashouts won't skew it.
$36,212 profit + $5,000 starting roll - $3,072 cashout - $4,000 cashout
= $34,140 current bankroll.