Hey everyone , my name's Harry but booby also works and I'm 31 years old from Rochester NY. I'm starting this blog in order to document my experience with Poker Detox, a coaching for profits team led by Nick Howard. I recently graduated from their "trainee" phase and got the green light for 100nl.

Some background on myself and my poker journey:

• It's 2003 and the WSOP airs on ESPN. I watch Chris Moneymaker win the main event, and decide that my dream is to become a professional poker player, run up a million dollar bankroll, play against the best in Bobby's Room, and travel the world playing high stakes. I'm 12 years old.

• From 12-17, all I do is play and think about poker while reluctantly participating in school and sports. Online, I run up a ton of bankrolls, with the largest topping out at $150k before losing it all back. The losses hurt, but I know it's just training for when I'm older and can legally play under my own name. It's not about the money right now.

• I finally turn 18 and over the next four months grind up a $500k bankroll. I'm still in high school, but can no longer pretend to care about it for the sake of my parents or teachers, so I drop out and hop a flight to Vegas. I'm officially a professional poker player now [✓] and it feels amazing.

• By the end of summer, I lose everything but $17k and get emergency mental game coaching from Tommy Angelo, fly home, then run it back up to over $1m [✓] in about a month. From there I start traveling the world playing high stakes cash and tournaments [✓], meeting many of my childhood poker heroes along the way. At 21, I sit in the 300/600 PLO game in Bobby's Room [✓] and ship a $150k pot vs Sauce. I ****ing made it.

That was 10 years ago. I accomplished everything I dreamed of when I was a kid, and it looked great on paper. But my reality felt like a nightmare. Let's rewind a bit.

• At 19, I'm involved in a scandal where I lose my Pokerstars account and even worse, my reputation. I'm devastated, and handle the situation poorly. A few months later I fall terribly ill and spend a month in the hospital with a high fever, almost dying. My body is covered in painful, grotesque lesions while my face swells like a balloon and most of my hair falls out. I'm diagnosed with an autoimmune disease called lupus, which basically means my own cells are attacking me from the inside. It takes over two years before I can physically recognize myself in the mirror.

• As I'm recovering, Black Friday happens and the $1.1m I have online, which represents 95% of my bankroll, vanishes overnight. What the hell is going on? Will I ever get this money back? No one knows what's happening. I feel angry, hopeless, and trapped in a body that is falling apart. My relationship with drugs progresses from casual to "it's complicated," then all the way to happily committed. Numbing myself becomes top priority.

• Without poker to focus on, depression and drugs begin to dominate my existence. Before it can get too bad, I decide it's time for another joyride and create an account under the screen name "P0krparty!". I have a blast, and go on some pretty big runs before Stars shuts it down. I lose a bunch of money, but this time I knew the risks. Once again, it wasn't about the money. Now with nothing to distract me, I finally take the steps to look inward, to comfort and acknowledge my inner child who is feeling lost, frightened, and abandoned by me.

• Just kidding, I go straight to heroin. After an overdose, I check myself into rehab where I finally have the space to look at my behaviors, thoughts, perceptions, and beliefs, and begin to consciously choose what kind of person I want to be moving forward. I start pruning away the toxic people, places, and other aspects of my life that no longer serve my highest good. I move back in with my parents and start practicing what I've learned.

• Poker becomes a part time gig, more of an intellectual hobby like most people view chess, but I'm happy with the direction my life is going in for the first time in over a decade. Slowly but surely, I feel myself evolving.

For the 5 years that followed, poker continued to take a backseat as I made amazing strides within myself, the kind that can't really be explained, only felt and embodied. In that time, a lot changed in poker. Solvers with GTO strategies took over and completely changed the way the game is played. I had a lot of catching up to do, so I read books like Mathematics of Poker and Applications of NLHE, and immersed myself in videos and courses on theory. After a while, everything just sorta clicked. My passion was reignited and my love for the game grew stronger than ever.

I was fired up and started grinding, but struggled to put in serious hours. I no longer had a clear "why" behind my grind, or any poker friends who took the game as seriously as I did. I needed a new challenge, something I could get excited about, and I was tired of doing it all alone. So when I came across Poker Detox with their emphasis on community support, mindset, and personal growth, I knew it was the perfect opportunity for me.

The contract is for 600,000 hands and has a pretty cool structure in place:

You start at 100nl, or "D1".
Win 20 buy ins there, move up to D2.
Win 30 buy ins at 200nl, move up to D3.
Win 35 buy ins at 500nl, move up to D4.
Win 40 buy ins at 1000nl, move up to D5.

If you hit a stoploss threshold, you move down and win 10 buy ins at the previous limit before moving back up.


Profit splits happen every 20k hands and there's a 60k hand requirement per quarter.


I played my first hand of D1 on June 1st and I'll catch you up on how it's been going in my next post.

Lastly, I just want to say that I really appreciate anyone who took the time out of their day to read my story. It was a tough one for me to tell, and I did my best to shorten it while not leaving out too many relevant details. I'm still working on the full length version that I may publish one day on a separate blog, but for now the majority of my focus will be on reaching D2

This is a catchup blog for the days prior to when I made my first post yesterday. I want every day of my Poker Detox journey documented so that I can grow as much as possible from the experience. Future posts will be one day at a time.

Day 1
Hands: 1,595
Results: +$950

It was super exciting to start off my first day so well, but I didn't really keep up the momentum...

Day 2
Hands: 579
Results: -$132


Day 3
Hands: 1,353
Results: +$64


Day 4
Hands: 383
Results: +$94


Day 5
Hands: 241
Results: -$183


Day 6
Hands: 444
Results: -$8


Day 7
Didn't play, just studied a bunch and took care of non-poker things.

Day 8
Hands: 2,553
Results: +$1,118

Got some momentum back! Feeling great.

Day 9
Hands: 6,184
Results: -$931

Got overconfident and added way too many tables (12-15) which resulted in me playing weak and missing tons of spots. I should've quit or at least dropped tables, but I wanted to see if I could do it and pushed through. I thought I had the right idea at the time, but ever since this session my confidence has been shaky.

I also played for way too long which messed up my sleep schedule and set me back health wise, which is like playing with fire if you have an autoimmune disease. Somehow, that never stops me from doing it at least once/month. I can't help it, I love staying up super late when the rest of the world is asleep. It's when I feel most comfortable in my own skin and with my thoughts. This effect is amplified by the fact that I live with my parents, so there are massive inner peace incentives for being awake when they're asleep. It's going to be a tough habit to drop, but I have to figure it out if I'm going to achieve stable health for myself.

These ~24 hours straight of wakefulness were frustrating, disappointing, and felt like a big step backwards in many areas of my evolution as a player and person. But I'm probably being too hard on myself.

Day 10
I used this day to recover, study, and get non-poker stuff done.

Day 11
Still needed to recover from playing too late the other night, and still felt sad about that session. Studied a bit, then worked like a maniac on my best friend's birthday presents. I go hard when it comes to presents

Day 12
Took most of the day off for the birthday celebration but did a 3hr+ database review in the morning which I really needed after the beating I took on day 9. Felt more clear afterwards but not as confident as I'd hoped, with a lot of lingering anxiety about my next session.

Day 13
Hands: 1,376
Results: -$186

I tried to keep a bunch of adjustments in mind going into today's session, like that I needed to be more reasonable with my multi-tabling until NL is as automatic and natural as PLO is for me. I thought that meant 9 tables max, but even 9 felt like too many and I was behind the action at every table which worries me. Mentally I just wasn't there today. Could I still be recovering from that late night? I really can't let that happen again.

I'm trying not to dwell on the day and just write it off as a low energy "bleh" day, but obviously the doubts and worries are swirling around my head while I sit here and write this. Really praying for a sense of renewed mental and physical energy tomorrow morning. Can't write anymore, but in my future updates when it's just one day at a time I'll post some of the interesting hands.

Total Days: 13
Total Hands: 14,708
Total Results: +$787

Very excited to follow along your journey- I remember railing the P0krparty! games- those were some amazing swings and legendary battles.

in for a great thread, I also remember railing your epic runs as P0krparty!

A very interesting story, sorry to hear about all the **** you went through, but it seems like you're on the right path now

Nice, lets gooooo!

Hey guys thanks for following! Syndrome nice to see you hopped on over here for the follow really appreciate the support.

Excited to follow this thread, gl!

Pretty awesome into to a blog. In the nicest possible way. GL with the journey . Following

Quick question here but do people actually think coaching for profits are worth it, i imagine most of them are a get rich quick scheme for the coach ofc lol. I mean the coach has 0 risk involved and the player has all the pressure. I mean you could choke multiple times in a session and make a dumb blunder (similarly to missing a extra point field goal in football). Also you could punt randomly because well lets face it tilt is a real thing too. I do think 600k hands is hell of a long contract too i think a fair split would be like 75/25 you/coach regardless of profit.

Also i understand its not about the money, but what happens if you want to back out and don't play 600k hands after like a month of coaching i can't imagine the dude is going to send somebody to come see you lol

Day 14
Hands: 1,098
Results: -$4


I capped myself at 6 tables today and felt MUCH more confident. Gonna do the same tomorrow, and hope to see a happier redline or else I may have to set some time aside later in the week for an extensive database review to figure out what's happening.

Hand #1: "He can never call a shove here" was apparently NOT true. Whoopsies.

BTN: $102.70 (102.7 bb)
SB: $114.64 (114.6 bb)
BB: $125.02 (125 bb)
UTG: $519.64 (519.6 bb)
UTG+1: $100.00 (100 bb)
MP: $146.67 (146.7 bb)
Hero (MP+1): $101.23 (101.2 bb)
MP+2: $234.10 (234.1 bb)
CO: $102.09 (102.1 bb)
SB posts $0.50, BB posts $1.00
Pre Flop: (pot: $1.50) Hero has J Q
3 folds, Hero raises to $2.50, fold, CO calls $2.50, 2 folds, BB calls $1.50
Flop: ($8.00, 3 players) 8 A 5
BB checks, Hero checks, CO bets $4.00, fold, Hero calls $4.00
Turn: ($16.00, 2 players) 7
Hero checks, CO checks
River: ($16.00, 2 players) 7
Hero bets $4.86, CO raises to $9.72, Hero raises to $94.73 and is all-in, CO calls $85.01
Results: $205.46 pot ($2.76 rake)
Final Board: 8 A 5 7 7
Hero shows J Q: (One Pair, Sevens)
(Pre 15%, Flop 29%, Turn 18%)
CO shows A A: (Full House, Aces full of Sevens)
(Pre 85%, Flop 71%, Turn 82%)
CO wins $202.46

Hand #2: Felt like villain was trying a little too hard at telling their story.

UTG+1: $106.20 (106.2 bb)
MP: $115.64 (115.6 bb)
MP+1: $122.02 (122 bb)
MP+2: $521.20 (521.2 bb)
CO: $100.00 (100 bb)
BTN: $152.90 (152.9 bb)
Hero (SB): $100.00 (100 bb)
BB: $234.10 (234.1 bb)
UTG: $201.32 (201.3 bb)
Hero posts SB $0.50, BB posts $1.00
Pre Flop: (pot: $1.50) Hero has A J
6 folds, BTN raises to $2.00, Hero raises to $9.00, fold, BTN calls $7.00
Flop: ($19.00, 2 players) 6 9 2
Hero bets $5.77, BTN calls $5.77
Turn: ($30.54, 2 players) 3
Hero checks, BTN bets $11.00, Hero calls $11.00
River: ($52.54, 2 players) 5
Hero checks, BTN bets $26.27, Hero calls $26.27
Results: $105.08 pot ($2.76 rake)
Final Board: 6 9 2 3 5
BTN shows J T: (High Card, Jack)
(Pre 31%, Flop 20%, Turn 7%)
Hero shows A J: (High Card, Ace)
(Pre 69%, Flop 80%, Turn 93%)
Hero wins $102.08

Hand #3: Here's an example of what might be going wrong with my redline. Even though I'm bluffing a lot, the trend I see is that the bets aren't big enough. 75% otr here might've done it.

BTN: $219.63 (219.6 bb)
SB: $131.97 (132 bb)
Hero (BB): $136.97 (137 bb)
UTG: $120.89 (120.9 bb)
MP: $100.00 (100 bb)
CO: $147.40 (147.4 bb)
SB posts $0.50, Hero posts BB $1.00
Pre Flop: (pot: $1.50) Hero has 7 8
UTG raises to $2.50, 4 folds, Hero raises to $11.50, UTG calls $9.00
Flop: ($23.50, 2 players) T A 3
Hero bets $7.14, UTG calls $7.14
Turn: ($37.78, 2 players) T
Hero checks, UTG checks
River: ($37.78, 2 players) 4
Hero bets $11.48, UTG calls $11.48
Results: $60.74 pot ($2.76 rake)
Final Board: T A 3 T 4
Hero shows 7 8: (One Pair, Tens)
(Pre 22%, Flop 5%, Turn 0%)
UTG shows Q Q: (Two Pair, Queens and Tens)
(Pre 78%, Flop 95%, Turn 100%)
UTG wins $57.74

Hand #4: Need to shove river.

BB: $110.48 (110.5 bb)
UTG: $136.17 (136.2 bb)
CO: $101.22 (101.2 bb)
BTN: $131.69 (131.7 bb)
Hero (SB): $100.00 (100 bb)
5 players post ante of $5.00
Pre Flop: (pot: $25.00) Hero has 3 5
Flop: ($25.00, 5 players) 6 2 J
Hero checks, BB bets $5.00, 3 folds, Hero calls $5.00
Turn: ($35.00, 2 players) A
Hero checks, BB checks
River: ($35.00, 2 players) K
Hero bets $24.00, BB calls $24.00
Results: $83.00 pot ($2.76 rake)
Final Board: 6 2 J A K
BB shows 8 J: (One Pair, Jacks)
(Pre 64%, Flop 81%, Turn 91%)
Hero shows 3 5: (High Card, Ace)
(Pre 36%, Flop 19%, Turn 9%)
BB wins $80.00

Hand #5: Awful river bet by me, wish I found the check.

UTG: $191.71 (191.7 bb)
CO: $213.23 (213.2 bb)
Hero (BTN): $111.00 (111 bb)
SB: $128.98 (129 bb)
BB: $122.75 (122.8 bb)
SB posts $0.50, BB posts $1.00
Pre Flop: (pot: $1.50) Hero has Q J
fold, CO raises to $2.00, Hero calls $2.00, 2 folds
Flop: ($5.50, 2 players) 8 J 5
CO checks, Hero bets $2.56, CO raises to $9.00, Hero calls $6.44
Turn: ($23.50, 2 players) K
CO bets $17.62, Hero calls $17.62
River: ($58.74, 2 players) Q
CO checks, Hero bets $28.34, CO raises to $143.76, Hero folds
Results: $115.42 pot ($2.76 rake)
Final Board: 8 J 5 K Q
CO wins $112.42

At first I hated bomb pot tables because I felt lost but I think I figured out how to navigate them and now they're my favorite . Hoping to get 6 of them going again tomorrow, and for a green number at the end of the day.

Total Days: 14
Total Hands: 15,806
Total Results: +$783

Thx for the kind words and the follow

I think different people find CFP's appealing for different reasons, and for me I do think it's worth it but it may not be for you or someone else. 600k hands seems like a lot but a guy from my trainee group already finished his contract in just 2.5 months because he's a multitabling animal. I could MAYBE pull that off if it were PLO but I don't have the confidence in NL to play more than 6 tables yet.

The intro seriously reads as a movie, if it wasn't for the people remebering p0kerparty I would never believe this

😂

Hey Harry

I remember you from 2m2mm. I recognised the name right away, you said on the show the plan was to not have a plan but it looks like you have found your plan in Detox.

I would wish you luck on your journey but I know you will beast it and luck won't be needed. Thanks for sharing your story I am sure in the not too distant future this will be an inspiration for a lot of people.

Will be following.

P.S. did you ever stop 4betting 84o/53 suited?

This sounds fun. In. Good luck!

Wow! Thanks for the vote of confidence and lovely words 😁 I hope to prove you right 🙂

Thanks mark!

interesting story, gl will be following

ps: wait.. you been on 2 months 2 million? do you mind telling us a little xd I remember watching some episodes of that show a while back before I even was really in to poker

Lol sure what do you want to know?

In for the ride.
Really looking forward to tagging along for this one. Good luck OP.

(Days 15 and 16 update)

Day 15
Hands: 1,032
Results: -$121


Another lackluster showing in the day's hands and results, but my game felt better which is really all that matters. I was more level headed but also daring, and that’s a great combo. I’m still not giving myself enough raw hours at the tables in order to experience those inner “aha” moments that spark a blast-off in my results and confidence, but I’d like to think I’m taking baby steps in that direction.

Hand #1: Good example of not being scared to go too big for value.

Hero (BB): $102.70 (102.7 bb)
UTG: $218.46 (218.5 bb)
CO: $145.14 (145.1 bb)
BTN: $432.95 (433 bb)
SB: $106.71 (106.7 bb)
SB posts $0.50, Hero posts BB $1.00
Pre Flop: (pot: $1.50) Hero has 7 7
2 folds, BTN raises to $3.00, fold, Hero calls $2.00
Flop: ($6.50, 2 players) 4 7 9
Hero checks, BTN checks
Turn: ($6.50, 2 players) 8
Hero bets $4.82, BTN calls $4.82
River: ($16.14, 2 players) 4
Hero bets $29.72, BTN calls $29.72
Results: $75.58 pot ($2.76 rake)
Final Board: 4 7 9 8 4
Hero shows 7 7: (Full House, Sevens full of Fours)
(Pre 54%, Flop 94%, Turn 91%)
BTN shows 8 9: (Two Pair, Nines and Eights)
(Pre 46%, Flop 6%, Turn 9%)
Hero wins $72.58

Hand #2: Villain earned the fancyman label from this hand and others like it. If he's going to raise my overbet he needs to shove for me to consider folding value otherwise he should bluffcatch or fold.

UTG: $110.11 (110.1 bb)
MP: $122.31 (122.3 bb)
CO: $107.44 (107.4 bb)
BTN: $137.87 (137.9 bb)
SB: $228.75 (228.8 bb)
Hero (BB): $109.71 (109.7 bb)
SB posts $0.50, Hero posts BB $1.00
Pre Flop: (pot: $1.50) Hero has 6 7
fold, MP raises to $2.25, 3 folds, Hero calls $1.25
Flop: ($5.00, 2 players) 6 8 9
Hero checks, MP checks
Turn: ($5.00, 2 players) 6
Hero bets $3.32, MP calls $3.32
River: ($11.64, 2 players) K
Hero bets $16.59, MP raises to $39.00, Hero calls $22.41
Results: $89.64 pot ($2.76 rake)
Final Board: 6 8 9 6 K
MP shows 5 5: (Two Pair, Sixes and Fives)
(Pre 53%, Flop 13%, Turn 5%)
Hero shows 6 7: (Three of a Kind, Sixes)
(Pre 47%, Flop 87%, Turn 95%)
Hero wins $86.64

Hand #3: This one got my heart pumping. I felt that having two diamonds and the Qd was good enough to go for it.

UTG: $164.31 (164.3 bb)
MP: $101.50 (101.5 bb)
CO: $109.93 (109.9 bb)
BTN: $136.37 (136.4 bb)
SB: $226.17 (226.2 bb)
Hero (BB): $144.78 (144.8 bb)
SB posts $0.50, Hero posts BB $1.00
Pre Flop: (pot: $1.50) Hero has Q 9
2 folds, CO raises to $3.00, 2 folds, Hero raises to $12.00, CO calls $9.00
Flop: ($24.50, 2 players) 2 A K
Hero bets $7.44, CO calls $7.44
Turn: ($39.38, 2 players) 8
Hero bets $26.19, CO calls $26.19
River: ($91.76, 2 players) K
Hero bets $99.15 and is all-in, fold
Results: $91.76 pot ($2.76 rake)
Final Board: 2 A K 8 K
Hero wins $88.76

Day 16
I played zero poker today, and spent the whole day thinking, writing, or talking about the topic I address below.

I’m not proud of last night, but I think I should write about it in the hopes that by doing so it will help me change the pattern. Yesterday I woke up, meditated for an hour, ran on the treadmill and ate healthy throughout the day. I studied, played some poker, organized some things, and the day looked headed towards a strong showing in terms of lifestyle and creating healthy cycles.

Then things backslid into “fk it” mode. I finished half a bottle of wine during an impromptu but compelling 2hr+ conversation with my mom, which led to sloppy decision making for the rest of the night. Coffee at 10pm is one example, as well as many instances of suboptimal late night snacking while binge watching Star Wars. I finally got to bed around 6am and woke up at 4pm today. My first thought was "oh great, this again..." and immediately felt rushed because the day was cut in half, leaving little time to put towards my goals - an all too familiar place for me.

Anyone who’s looked into performance mindset might have some guesses as to what’s going on here. One solid theory is that it’s self sabotage, driven by fear and past trauma. And this does resonate for me, that I may be scared of putting in really long grind days because of what happened the last time I dedicated myself to poker in that way. It might even be as simple as “fear of self-identifying as a professional poker player.” We’ll call that the trauma theory for what’s wrong with my motivation.

But yesterday I watched an Andrew Huberman podcast on YouTube that opened my eyes to a second possibility. It was about dopamine and our internal/subjective reward mechanisms. Here are two bullet points from the pod that have me reconsidering the trauma theory:

1. When we expect something to happen we are highly motivated to pursue it.
2. Over time with self-programming, you get to decide your own internal rewards system. The key is to make the effort itself the reward.

The reason these two points speak to me relates back to when I was playing on P0krparty, where I had no issue waking up and getting right to the tables and in fact, I couldn’t get to them fast enough. There was nothing else in the world I’d rather do and I had no self doubts. “But what if I lose today?” I didn’t care because it didn’t matter in the long run and I knew that at my core. In other words, I was highly motivated to pursue it because I expected to reach high stakes. With that expectation and supreme self confidence, effort itself was intrinsically rewarding. The internal logic was probably something like this:

• I have 100% certainty I will reach high stakes.

• Therefore every hand I play brings me closer to this inevitability/every moment at the tables brings me closer to my goal.

Some corollaries:

• Daily variance is inconsequential.

• Time invested in playing is banked as units of confidence, which of course accrue compound interest.

• (Eventually) all my confidence comes directly from the time I invest and not from results.

I would give anything for that sense of certainty again. Huberman describes how to get to that place, and it’s unglamorous but effective – you have to force yourself to show up when you don’t want to, then do it again, and again, David Goggins style. No wonder I’ve struggled with this for so long. Discipline and the skill of “grit” have eluded me all my life. I’ve never allowed my dopamine baseline to reset itself, always chasing more and more of it. Even though the risky drug stuff is behind me, I still struggle with socially accepted addictions such as caffeine, overeating, binge watching, etc, all things I experienced last night. I deeply admire a guy like Goggins, but when it comes down to actually make the changes myself I always find a logical “out,” some excuse as to why my structured plan isn’t good anymore and should be modified in some way before I continue. In other words, I’ve made a habit of breaking promises to myself ☹

So how will I use these new insights to finally break the cycle? For the first time in my life I’m going to set and stick to a daily schedule. Now that I’m aware of the science behind the dopamine-reward mechanism, I feel empowered to take on those uncomfortable moments of mental dullness. If I feel incapable of thinking clearly but am scheduled to play poker, I can now embrace that situation with an attitude of grit and persistence instead of looking for a way out. “I’m just going to sit here and suck at this for the scheduled time” will be my new mantra, because I know that’s where the real growth is. Building personal integrity is now priority #1

See you guys tomorrow 👋

Total Days: 16
Total Hands: 17,091
Total Results: +667

What a profound and exceptionally articulated post about the mental struggles of playing poker. You laid out everything I feel a lot of the time with regards to poker and procrastination. I'd been meaning to post some well wishes but I got sidetracked doing my own thing which is basically your journey now but started a year earlier.

Looking forward to following your rise back to the mountain top. Also it's pretty cool to get to talk to a living legend. I too remember the pokrparty days. I remember you 12 tabling mid stakes for days and then playing isildur a few days later I think? Idk it was something crazy and legendary. Anyways gl man. Can't wait to see what other jewels of wisdom you will post for us.

Good luck man, I wish you the best in your poker journey. I may try to jump in the 6 max streets just to mess around with you. I too have been playing poker since 2003, I saw the WPT on the Travel Channel in spring of 2003 so I started a little before you . I was 16 at the time and taught all my friends how to play and we played during lunch/after school.

Bomb pot tables are so much fun. I've noticed a tendency for players to bet 1/2 pot or more when they're strong and 1/4 pot or so when they are weak on dynamic boards where top set is the nuts and vulnerable either to a straight or flush on the turn.

Another move I've added to my bomb pot arsenal is to min bet instead of check from the SB. It thins the field way more than it should. I don't do it all the time, I tend to check if I'm looking to check raise because I think the min bet gets raised less often than a check even though it should obviously be treated as a check.

Also you can steal a lot of bomb pots with pure air if and when it checks to the river. Let's say it checks down and there's a four card straight on the river and it checks to you on the button. Bet 1/6 pot and you take it down at least 20% of the time, probably way more.

Here's a fun example of mixing it up in the bomb pots.

Day 17
Hands: 980
Results: -$227



I became overstimulated and got my ass kicked by the day. Overstimulation is a death sentence for my productivity because it starts an anxiety snowball effect that is irreversible, so the day is usually shot. I did my best to salvage it though by paying extra attention to how I was feeling and what I was thinking throughout these moments all day long where I couldn't focus, kind of like turning it into an active meditation. I have ADHD, and sometimes the meds hit me harder than I want and cause this. I'm eager to get off all medication but the autoimmune thing has my natural energy levels in the toilet, so the meds are my crutch for the time being. I'm starting work with a nutritionist at the beginning of July who's had lots of success with autoimmunity so hopefully things begin trending in the right direction after that.

No hands today, mentally exhausted. Will respond to everyone tomorrow after some rest.