Borrowing my flatmate's account. This is z0mgtiltz (I've self-banned myself for 2 weeks to put in the volume).
Yes, I've gotten out of my downer.
Thanks for not forgetting about me haha.
January completely sucked.
What I realised was that I was a huge tilt monster.
Why?
The reason was because I thought everything had clicked. My mental game, and my poker game. Therefore my confidence got the better of me and because of that I lacked discipline and studying all through December till January. You guys reading this should take this into account, and understand that playing your A-game and achieving that is always a moving target. Your A-game will always be changing and improving so you should always be working to strive towards that.
Probably not just in poker but in all forms of sport and even your work.
I didn't run bad during those months. I was just too much of a fish to realise that I was making a mistake: thinking that I had complete mastery of my tilt when really it was still in the state of conscious competent (learning).
I'm still working on my game and mental game as of late.
Bankroll is on $50k now, and I'm back at 1kNL. Have been starting tables again lately too so my confidence is pretty high (although I always remind myself that when I put in a good session it's going to be due to a decent % of rungood).
January was swingy. Lost $20k near the start of the month, almost rostucko'd to -$2k by the end. 130k hands in total and winning after rakeback.
Hopefully February goes much better.
Maybe it was Chinese New Year that turned my rungood around...