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Originally Posted by noobis
So sick sir,so sick!!!!
Thanks Noobis!
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Originally Posted by PreacherCasy151
Nice work!
Maintaining the ability to think clearly under volatile conditions - and in the face of runbad etc - is the single most critical attribute that a poker player can have.
It sounds like you've made serious progress in this department. Well done!
Thanks for the compliment, and to the second part even though those are very kind words I'm honestly gonna have to think that is furthest from the case I really started having a reality check and decided things will need to change.
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Originally Posted by Apoccd10I
ilir is terrible indeed
whats ur sn? pm if u want to share
glgl nice thread
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Originally Posted by pontylad
Ilir posts on 2+2 a lot btw but not my place to out his sn.
Cool to know that. I got over it though, really need to stop having those bad mentalities and shift my attitude.
Reality check...
I've come to learn a lot this following week, and its in the face of my eyes every time and I lie to myself often, this 6 hour a day thing 30 hours a week is not attainable for me. My mind just doesn't work that way.. thinking after a session just the pressure gets to me of must having to do that before I go to sleep. The fact that I don't play on Monday and Tuesdays is just in correct for my current state in Poker. I don't like what I'm doing, my excuse is that I'm coaching doing yoga, and boxing.
Lets break it down...
1) coaching : I only do it 2-3 hours a week.
2) yoga : 1 hour a week (lets say two for walking back and forth) and I like sitting and thinking into thoughts and things start appearing after an amazing Yoga session.
3): Boxing: This one is totally understanding even though its only 1 hour a day except Saturday and Sundays it can equate to 3-6 hours depending on how I'm feeling I really push myself and take a huge mental toll.
4) Poker : 16 hours a week thats equivalent to almost 2.5 hours a day.
Still outside of that, I still generate so much time and have so much available and find my self searching and doing the most random and useless things.
I don't know, I lost the passion for the game clearly, but this approach towards it is just not gonna work.. I think I really just need a change. Ever since I started cutting down days I just don't seem to be consistent anymore with the hours. Hours was never a problem for me back then, EVER EVER EVER, despite even though I didn't really "love" poker even back then. What differentiates that now?
Well I'm gonna be honest, I think that's what I haven't been deep down inside I know the truth. I just need to start playing more, I started backtracking to those days where I just put in relentless amount of hours. Burn out is non existent, its just a mentality. I don't recall once when I was on the come up doing short of 200 hours, ever. I didn't complain about burn out. I played at arbitrary hours just grinding it out, because its all I ever wanted to do. Now that I got it I don't appreciate it and still don't reap the rewards of earning more money when I have the power to do so..
In retrospect and when interacting with so many other people it just seems silly. I know people who do poker part time who play more then me, people who don't do it for a living who play more then me. Let me get this straight, this is my job yet other people are surpassing me in hours, commitment and work ethic.
A shame really. I need a change, its just obvious how my brain functions its not very good with doing multiple things. I always generate one excuse to another, its something that has been bred deep down inside me and I know it. A middle finger to the face of Burn Out. **** you! I'm just gonna play whenever I feel like it and just start pumping in hours and feeling good. I notice this uneasy feeling every single time I jump in before a session "AGH have to do this much hours, oh you did 1.8k hands that looks good lets quit for the day". I am the KING of quitting, the best in the business and the worst at starting. **** this, its gonna change. I will keep my smart things bankroll management, stoploss I'm probably gonna take out from the equation in my normal stakes and still include it in my higher stakes. Time to get the ball rolling.
From now on I will also just start posting how much time I have been putting in by the end of the week. And just start writing about whatever crosses my mind for the day.
I'm just gonna experiment this for the week and just see how much hours starts being generated, but it got me feeling good, I'm just gonna start writing times of schedules outside of poker that I have to do and anytime I got time hopefully I will start feeling good and grind.