25nl online day + rebuilding confidence after downswing
As you probably know, I've been on a 4.2k downswing recently at LLSNL (3k at 1/3 NL then 1.2k at 2/5 NL), and whilst I'm still confident that I'm a winning player at those stakes, it's nice to take a short break after a huge losing streak.
Phil Galfond once talked about how he was winning on one particular site and losing on the other site. Logically, he knew that both sites were equally soft and he knew that neither of the games were "rigged", but it just so happened that he was upswinging on one site and downswinging on the other. He said how towards the end, he started looking back at some of his hand histories, and he found that he was actually playing better on the site where he was upswinging. This is because subconsciously, everytime he played on the site where he was downswinging, he started his sessions almost expecting to lose, and that affected his play. He had been conditioned to believe that he would have a losing session on one site and a winning session on the other. So he said that, despite the seemingly irrational mindset of avoiding putting in volume on one site when the games were just as good, sometimes even better, it was better for him psychologically to only play in the particular environment that he happened to be upswinging in. He said that it was better for him psychologically to change his environment anytime he started to go on a bad downswing, even if he was able to logically recognise that the environment wasn't actually the thing causing the variance. We need to respect and acknowledge our subconscious thought patterns.
For that reason, I think that when I happen to downswing at one particular format, I should take a break from that format for a little bit. Even though logically, I know that I can defeat a downswing through putting in more volume, the subconscious mind is still a powerful force that controls us more than we give it credit for.
Thus I will be playing only 25nl online today. I have been upswinging a lot online, and downswinging a lot live, so I can feel the subconscious force telling me to put in more volume online, at least for the near future. I do plan to return to live poker in 1-2 days though. I'm still committed to getting most of my volume in at LLSNL, but it's nice to use online as a way for me to rebuild my confidence after a horrible live downswing. This is the worst live downswing I've currently been on in my entire poker career, but I know that I'll get through it. I just need a little bit of time and a little bit of volume online, then I'll be fine.
So anyway, here's some hand histories from my quick online warmup. There'll be many more HH's to come tonight:
Hand 1: Pretty gross spot
$23 effective
Hero opens $0.60 UTG with Jh Js
CO calls $0.60
SB calls $0.60
BB calls $0.60
(only has $15 stack)
Flop ($2.40, 4ways) 8s 6d 4h
SB checks
BB donks $5
Hero calls $5
CO folds
SB calls $5
I'm already pretty uncomfortable facing a 2x overbet in a 4way pot with just a weak overpair. I called with the intention of folding if anyone else raised the flop.
Turn ($17.40, 3ways) 8s 6d 4h 4c
SB checks
BB jams $9.60
Hero rejams $17.40
I'm kind of hating life here, but I guess the 4 on the turn is one of the best cards I could ask for. I'm just praying that both players have hands like 86/55/77/87/76/65/99/TT.
Hand 2: Priced in I guess?
$25 effective
CO limps $0.25
BTN raises to $1
SB calls $1
(only $5.15 stack)
Hero calls $1 BB with J9ss
CO calls $1
Flop ($4.00, 4ways) 9d 6h 5s
SB donk jams $4.15
Hero calls $4.15
CO folds
BTN raises to $20.60
Hero folds
Again, this is pretty uncomfortable facing a slight overbet in a 4way pot with 2 players still to act behind. I had the same plan as hand 1 though: sigh call the flop, then fold if anyone else raises.
Hand 3: Might've missed value here
$26 effective
Hero raises $0.60 MP with A6ss
SB calls $0.60
BB calls $0.60
Flop ($1.80, 3ways) 5c 4c 2h
SB checks
BB donks $1
Hero calls $1
SB folds
Turn ($3.80) 5c 4c 2h 7h
BB bets $1.50
Hero calls $1.50
I thought about raising the turn here as a semibluff. I feel like villain would bet bigger for protection if he had a set or straight, so maybe I can push him off a FD or 1pr hand. Ultimately, I took the low variance route though and just called.
River ($6.80) 5c 4c 2h 7h 3d
BB bets $1.75
Hero ???
(We have $23 behind)
I really struggled in this spot. I had no idea how much to raise to. Is it an overkill to just jam here? I want to stack a 5 high straight and I also want to get hero called by weaker hands like 1pr hands. What's the best sizing to pick here?
So yeah, expect plenty more 25nl zone hands to come tonight.