Ty for the responses guys, was slightly worried I was gonna get flamed. Self excluded for 24 hours and try as I might I haven't been able to stop thinking about the last few days. Two things...
Firstly, the hands I posted were bad beats (as pointed out some not so much, some very much so), but I've realised that I'm either very naive or a total ***** artard to believe that I dropped 40 BIs due to variance and bad luck. As someone pointed out, I should have stopped way way way before I was down what I finished being down. Live and learn, I'll not do that again. If I had stopped after 10BIs I wouldn't have cried myself to sleep 3 nights in a row (just kidding... maybe).
Secondly, and most importantly, when I get back to playing, I won't have the mindset of wanting to get those 40BIs back; I have to let it go. If I was to try and win 40BIs ASAP I'd be wanting to have $1k days etc which I don't think is anywhere near doable (maybe for the elite 50nl zoomers out there, but I ain't one of 'em).
Also I said that if I dropped 10BIs I was done, but the thought of going back to sitting at a desk and clock-watching 8 hours a day and taking 20 minute toilet breaks just to get away from working fills me with the fear. I'll grind through this and beyond. Thanks again for the responses, I appreciate em
Oh and Elpirato, if you are who I think you are, I had aces man, how was I to know they weren't good there?!
Last edited by GazzyB123; 05-26-2014 at 10:21 PM.