I have been playing poker on-line for around four years at full tilt and poker stars. I'd only be kidding myself If I told you I'm some great player. Fact Is I have been a raging donkey. Believe It or not I honestly believe I have what It takes to turn everything around.

I want to use this thread to show everyone that It Is actually possible for a losing player to put his hands up, be totally honest with everyone and turn It all around.

With my own self discipline and the right 2+2ers who actually care and would like to see this become a success story, railing this thread hopefully I can achieve this.

I said I'd be totally honest with you so here Is what I'm working with.

Full Tilt.

Cash:



Tourneys:



Poker Stars:

Cash:



Tourneys:

I cannot display this at the moment as I have to opt in by sending shark scope a few cents they require from the poker stars client, and the balance is $0. I will however edit this thread and disclose this information before I do anything with my poker stars account.

Summary:

Full Tilt: I've had this account the least amount of time. I play only at this site. I've built up decent bankrolls from barley nothing a few times yet to play in stakes beyond my means and get the variance hit then play like a fish. Had some successes In tournaments as you can see from the graph. I also have a rake back affiliate.

Poker Stars: My longest running account. I have played little or no poker here for about a year. As you can see I've played In shark infested waters and been severely bitten.

There you have It I'm not hiding, I have put myself in the spotlight and everybody in the poker community now knows everything. Screen names (not sure this is a great idea?) and exactly how much I'm In the hole. I'm quite ashamed of this to be honest and It took a lot for me to stand up and create a thread In this fashion. I will be doing everything and anything to correct these statistics, and turn myself into a winning player. If there was an Ideal outcome to this It would be turning my poker career around here through this thread and becoming a success story here at 2+2.

Reasons

I would be stupid If I didn't know how I have got here. So here are some of the reasons I think so far has been a car crash.

Playing behaviour -

Basically just firing up the poker software and playing at any and every opportunity. Possibly not in the correct frame of mind or environment.

Nothing else outside of poker

All I ever do is play poker at every opportunity, I have no hobbies. When I go busto I play football manager till I get rake back or reload. I'm basically stuck to my computer 24/7. I hate my call centre job (of which I'm also sat at a pc all day).

Mixing limits and games

I obviously play out of my bankroll chasing lost buy ins. I play other games Limit Hold em, PLO, Razz etc, which I clearly have not studied. And should be sticking to my strongest game NLHE.

Studying

Whilst I'm constantly playing I'm not learning more about the game. I am honestly struggling to find the resources which can take a mediocre player to the next level. I'm crying out to put everything behind me and turn myself into a next level winning player.

Basically I need to find all the resources available to me and exploit them, trouble Is I don't have any people to network with or around me to tell me what I can be doing to add layers to my game.

I'm sure there is more, hopefully this thread will expose them.

What happens next?

This will only be a very bad ending to the story If I continue down this road.

Tomorrow I will purchase Hold-em manager and along with a $60 bankroll I will begin my new journey at 2nl.

I will focus heavily on verneers "moving on up through uNL"

http://www.groene-appel.nl/moving_th...10_verneer.pdf

(thanks for the inspiration verneer if you ever happen to read this)

I'm not sure what the forum rules are on blogs here but around two months ago I started a blogger account. I am in no way advertising It as I Intend to make no money from It whatsoever. It was purely designed for me to focus more on my poker, and detail my journey. since then I have still failed. That's why I have turned to 2+2.

http://confessionsofapokerdegenerate.blogspot.com/

I would like to know what people think of this and what direction I should take It.

Finally

Thanks to anybody who actually read this, sorry If I ranted on at all. I am just so frustrated, I love poker and want to make this a successful journey. Please help me turn this thread Into one which can prove a player like myself can turn this around and become a 2+2 success story. If nothing else a thread of hope for others in the same position now and In the future.

I welcome any ideas or constructive criticism, for this thread, my blog and most importantly my future In poker. from any 2+2er with a good attitude towards this. I would also love to be able to network here with anyone who has cracked this before.

What ever I gain in knowledge or financially In this journey will certainly not be taken for granted. I fully Intend to "pay everything forward"

Thanks ever so much for your time, and thanks In advance for any responses, advice, help and guidance.

Nasher.

Any reason why I cant edit the title of the thread In this part of the forums?

It's not the most fetching title, and since looking at It again I feel It doesn't do this thread justice.

Mods: Is there any way I can change It?

gl bro knock em dead

I'm amused that no one has replied. Is everybody on this forum really so greedy??

Much appreciated.

do you have a deuces cracked cracked membership?
if not get on that ****

Awesome OP, good luck

I will deffo look into some kind of training on-line once, I have a few bucks.
It's not that possible at the moment when I'm shelling out $115 for a 2nl bankroll and Hold em manager.

Is your opinion deuces cracked Is the best out there then?

Thanks

Thanks very much brother.

DC does it for me its all personal preference tho
card runners has a $100 sign up fee dc does not
you can do a 7 day trial on both of them before you are charged anything so i recommend doing that.
also if you are apart of a training site they have deals for HEM

alsoooo

''Nothing else outside of poker

All I ever do is play poker at every opportunity, I have no hobbies. When I go busto I play football manager till I get rake back or reload. I'm basically stuck to my computer 24/7. I hate my call centre job (of which I'm also sat at a pc all day).''

this don't let your social life be affected by earning 2 dollars at the micros

Go outside and play some sports with friends or just chill away from poker for some down time.

I suggest getting Harrington on HoldEm and maybe check out deuces cracked or http://www.thepokerbank.com/strategy/ for basic strategy.

You have a job and even though you're down..you can still come back from that amount. I wish you luck and I hope I see you playing Phil Ivey HU4ROLLz and partying at Tao NightClub with the bigshots.

cheers mate, I'm not playing another hand before I get hem anyway.

Thanks mate, definitely going to introduce sports and or fitness into my regime soon. fit body fit mind and all that.

harrington on holdem series for cash and tourneys will probably be the next few things I buy.

thanks for the poker bank link I'll check right away.

Hopefully that's where the thread ends ... being half as good as Ivy.

Its obviously a massive Issue which needs sorting out asap.

this could never be your goal, your goal should be to be as good, or even better as Ivey.

Imagine if New-Zealand's goal would be to get to the finals in the world cup 2010. Imagine they made it to the finals, they'd lose all the motivation to play simply because they achieved their goal.

GL.

Thanks for your inspiration dude, I totally agree with your statement. But I don't want to be here on 2+2 telling everyone I plan to become as good or even better than Ivey, with my poker statistics.

np man, gl.

I recall myself grinding playmoney stakes 1.5 years ago, now crushing HU sng's.

why thank you, I appreciate the time you spent here man. GL bro.

Nash3r you stack off with with ATC tbh and thats at 2nl, you call your gshots to the river, although i played 2nl with you like a month ago, youve got a long way to go, although anythings possible if you put your mind to it.

GL.

Gl mate awesome thread! U sound like ur from UK?

Grunch

Seriously man, stop f***ing around making blogs about how you're gonna do this and gonna do that. Sure it's great to have a plan, but it seems like you've spent an awful lot of time making blogs and the like.

That time could have been spent more productively reading the sticky's, reading and re-reading verneers thread.

You're destined for failure if you're all talk and no action.

Just my 2cents. Anyways good-luck and I wish you well.

Just remember that it's not about making blogs or posts about your plans, it's more important to put those plans into action. GL

Stack off atc? Do you mean I'm shoving in this position pf? If so that is not something that I advocate even where I'm at now,

Yeah as for calling down gut shots, this is probably due to the fact that I don't not completely understand pot odds and implied odds.

Thanks for your comments, I appreciate them.

Hopefully I'm much better the next time you play me

Im also a uNL donk too much of the time who's trying to turn things around. slightly more experienced and played higher stakes than you but tilted proportionally.

I'm going to get 130$ rakeback and try rebuilding myself as well starting this weekend, so I know where you come from.

My advice would be read, analyze, practice. in that order. dont do the classic mistake of just jumping into action and forgetting to study the game. Go read 1-2 COTWs in the uNLfr forum , or strategy guides in uNL6max , take some time to think about what you rad, review your previous session (if you already have HEM and started playing) and then take a session where you're concentrated and thinking about your game.

gl!

Yes brother, I'm from cardiff in wales.

Thanks I honestly appreciate your comments mate, do you think I should knock it on the head?