The Final Frontier
10-10-2018
, 01:46 AM
hey fate thanks a lot i appreciate the post. i 100% agree with you. it's just difficult because I've always thought of myself as a guy who will run through a wall for one of my friends or family. I've lost a couple friendships because I had the feeling that it was not mutual between us, and that's a big quality I look for in my friends.
In the past when friends have lent me money it's been like my utmost priority to get it paid back, and I feel a lot of anxiety about owing people. Often when I paid it back I would toss on a little interest. Anyways, I guess all people are not the same
In the future I'm just going to be saying no more often, and when I do help it will be with specific terms etc
In the past when friends have lent me money it's been like my utmost priority to get it paid back, and I feel a lot of anxiety about owing people. Often when I paid it back I would toss on a little interest. Anyways, I guess all people are not the same
In the future I'm just going to be saying no more often, and when I do help it will be with specific terms etc
10-15-2018
, 02:04 AM
Welp there goes another hard fought Sunday. Brought my best self in every aspect in regards to game play and routine. Sometimes you win, most times you don't.
https://www.boomplayer.com/29026487_0749E2F185
This one was a little bit painful against jaimestaples. Oh well, good for him and grats on the score. Gonna hold back a little whine here about the cold RNG in massive equity spots in the last year or so and replace it with some type of more uplifting post.
Let's talk a little bit about something other than poker? Life's going pretty well guys I can't complain. I've been getting back into the gym somewhat regularly, making much more conscious decisions in regards to diet, been building some great relationships, and enjoying the process a lot along the way.
I guess it's somewhat of a combination of the work I've put into meditation, learning to understand behaviour and mindset, and mostly just consistently working to improve my thought processes in everything. It also helps that whenever I've stuck my neck out and taken risks lately I seem to have positive experiences and therefore reference points which help reinforce putting myself out there.
In summary, life is going pretty good right now. Things aren't exactly how I want them to be but they're progressing in the right direction and I'm enjoying/learning along the way.
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Now is that awkward time after the Sunday grind when it's nearing time for bed yet I'm not quite tired enough. Generally, this is where I write some stupid ramblings in here...and tonight will be no different
Here's a few things that I've had paradigm shifts about (in no particular order or categorization) in the last few years...maybe some will agree/some won't...just my points of view:
1. Hunting is not actually cruel (in the sense of hunting for food). The general population seems to think that killing animals is cruel and barbaric. I'm actually convinced that in most cases hunting for food is much more healthier/natural than purchasing meat from stores. You avoid hormones/antibiotics/steroids/poison, you do what humans have done for centuries, shooting the animals is usually quick and painless. Have you seen the deaths that those animals die in the wild? Talk about cruel. Not to mention people who eat meat from grocery stores/restaurants often the things done to that meat are 100x more cruel than being hunted in the wild in the animal's natural habitat. We've all seen videos of slaughterhouses or truck loads of chickens all ****ting on eachother (imagine if that was dogs people would go NUTS). The abuse that animals go through in factory farms is absurd. I've never hunted/killed an animal (nor would I want to), I just think it's way healthier/fair than people think.
2. The S.A.D (Standard American Diet) is actually extremely bad for people. There is clear evidence that governments/food companies have fixed laws/lied/falsified studies to get people to believe things. Look at the food pyramid? IMO people should be eating a diet based primarily on healthy fats, vegetables, fruits, meat, legumes. This is the stuff we grew up with in our environments for thousands of years and the foods that our bodies are extremely efficient on. For the most part sugars, grains, fried stuff, additives is all really bad for humans in any dosage outside of moderation. Look at photos of people even just 40-50 years ago...nobody was fat. There's something major that shifted in our diets and it's obvious to see.
3. It's not actually about accomplishments, money, looks etc...Have you ever noticed when people try to self-qualify themselves it comes across as cringey and try hard? Like some guy wants to prove himself so he brags about his net worth or his car or w/e. Assuming it will get him respect. However, there is an aura that successful people have about them that is usually accompanied by confidence/leadership/good social skills/emotional intelligence that often makes them much more attractive people.
4. The Law of State Transference: Forget where I heard this but...it basically implies that whatever you feel other people will feel. Obviously sort of a blanket statement but it's fairly true. If you go into social interactions happy and with high energy other people will feel it. If you go in feeling miserable/sad they will often feel the same.
5. Finding a good relationship is about finding/searching for the perfect person. I've learned that finding a great relationship is about working on yourself and becoming a great dating partner that you would want to date (saw it in a quote once). I also don't believe everybody can wait around and date 2 people in their lives and find the perfect person. IMO relationships are a difficult thing that take practise/experience/variety. You need to experience failure/success and get to know different people before settling down. I could go on about that in some whole other tangent but will save it for another time.
6. Good poker players run everybody over. I used to believe this when I was a weak reg/noob/newer to poker. The elite regs often make their money by exploit folding and just play very solid fundamentals and are aware of when to manipulate them.
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Anyways, I was actually gonna go on a bit longer but I'm tired and beginning to not make any sense probably. This week is going to be a lower variance night grinding type week. Flying to Vegas for a few days next Monday. Hope y'all have a good week
https://www.boomplayer.com/29026487_0749E2F185
This one was a little bit painful against jaimestaples. Oh well, good for him and grats on the score. Gonna hold back a little whine here about the cold RNG in massive equity spots in the last year or so and replace it with some type of more uplifting post.
Let's talk a little bit about something other than poker? Life's going pretty well guys I can't complain. I've been getting back into the gym somewhat regularly, making much more conscious decisions in regards to diet, been building some great relationships, and enjoying the process a lot along the way.
I guess it's somewhat of a combination of the work I've put into meditation, learning to understand behaviour and mindset, and mostly just consistently working to improve my thought processes in everything. It also helps that whenever I've stuck my neck out and taken risks lately I seem to have positive experiences and therefore reference points which help reinforce putting myself out there.
In summary, life is going pretty good right now. Things aren't exactly how I want them to be but they're progressing in the right direction and I'm enjoying/learning along the way.
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Now is that awkward time after the Sunday grind when it's nearing time for bed yet I'm not quite tired enough. Generally, this is where I write some stupid ramblings in here...and tonight will be no different
Here's a few things that I've had paradigm shifts about (in no particular order or categorization) in the last few years...maybe some will agree/some won't...just my points of view:
1. Hunting is not actually cruel (in the sense of hunting for food). The general population seems to think that killing animals is cruel and barbaric. I'm actually convinced that in most cases hunting for food is much more healthier/natural than purchasing meat from stores. You avoid hormones/antibiotics/steroids/poison, you do what humans have done for centuries, shooting the animals is usually quick and painless. Have you seen the deaths that those animals die in the wild? Talk about cruel. Not to mention people who eat meat from grocery stores/restaurants often the things done to that meat are 100x more cruel than being hunted in the wild in the animal's natural habitat. We've all seen videos of slaughterhouses or truck loads of chickens all ****ting on eachother (imagine if that was dogs people would go NUTS). The abuse that animals go through in factory farms is absurd. I've never hunted/killed an animal (nor would I want to), I just think it's way healthier/fair than people think.
2. The S.A.D (Standard American Diet) is actually extremely bad for people. There is clear evidence that governments/food companies have fixed laws/lied/falsified studies to get people to believe things. Look at the food pyramid? IMO people should be eating a diet based primarily on healthy fats, vegetables, fruits, meat, legumes. This is the stuff we grew up with in our environments for thousands of years and the foods that our bodies are extremely efficient on. For the most part sugars, grains, fried stuff, additives is all really bad for humans in any dosage outside of moderation. Look at photos of people even just 40-50 years ago...nobody was fat. There's something major that shifted in our diets and it's obvious to see.
3. It's not actually about accomplishments, money, looks etc...Have you ever noticed when people try to self-qualify themselves it comes across as cringey and try hard? Like some guy wants to prove himself so he brags about his net worth or his car or w/e. Assuming it will get him respect. However, there is an aura that successful people have about them that is usually accompanied by confidence/leadership/good social skills/emotional intelligence that often makes them much more attractive people.
4. The Law of State Transference: Forget where I heard this but...it basically implies that whatever you feel other people will feel. Obviously sort of a blanket statement but it's fairly true. If you go into social interactions happy and with high energy other people will feel it. If you go in feeling miserable/sad they will often feel the same.
5. Finding a good relationship is about finding/searching for the perfect person. I've learned that finding a great relationship is about working on yourself and becoming a great dating partner that you would want to date (saw it in a quote once). I also don't believe everybody can wait around and date 2 people in their lives and find the perfect person. IMO relationships are a difficult thing that take practise/experience/variety. You need to experience failure/success and get to know different people before settling down. I could go on about that in some whole other tangent but will save it for another time.
6. Good poker players run everybody over. I used to believe this when I was a weak reg/noob/newer to poker. The elite regs often make their money by exploit folding and just play very solid fundamentals and are aware of when to manipulate them.
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Anyways, I was actually gonna go on a bit longer but I'm tired and beginning to not make any sense probably. This week is going to be a lower variance night grinding type week. Flying to Vegas for a few days next Monday. Hope y'all have a good week
10-19-2018
, 05:05 PM
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Glad results are turning around a bit lately, keep it up. I enjoy the introspective posts, hope you continue with them. In terms of the being taken advantage of thing, that's always going to be a tough line to walk imo. I tend to be the same way as you in that I try to go out of my way to show people I care and help them when they need it. Sometimes that's emotionally and sometimes that's financially. Most importantly I think is to never to overextend yourself and lend someone more than you are comfortable with never seeing again. And then imo from my experience I just pay attention to how the person treats the situation. I'm lucky to be surrounded by a lot of good people and friends but I've still had some moments where it's been annoying because I've had to go out of my way to get paid back for something. When that happens I just note it for the future and don't do favors for that person anymore. No need to feel bad for not doing something for someone who will show no appreciation for it or who wouldn't do the same thing if the situation was reversed.
10-28-2018
, 12:41 AM
YO
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TRIP UPDATE
Hope you guys have been well. I got back late last night from a semi-last minute Vegas stint. Aside from being sick for 2 of the 4 days I definitely had a blast. Saw 2 cirque du soleil shows, Grand Canyon hike, drank copious amounts, and just had a grand ole' time.
As good of a time as it was, I'm making the decision not to go back to Vegas on pure recreational terms if possible. Every time I go there by about day 4 the thrill is gone, the S.A.D (Standard American Diet) catches up with me, I'm tilted by the terrible service everywhere (and everybody wanting a tip for everything). To be honest, I have so much gambling in my face as it is, I don't need to go on vacation to a city that survives on it. So yeah, outside of going for the WSOP, I'll try not to go back for pleasure.
Believe it or not on the trip I barely gambled or played poker. One night I was fairly close to blackout drunk and decided to sit down for a session @ 1/2 (the only state in which this game is tolerable lol). Was actually doing pretty well from what I remember. Anyways, so there's 5 limpers to 2$ and action comes to me in SB with 99...I raise to 25...BB jams 55, BTN flat calls, I jam 250$ eff...BTN snap calls QTo...BB has 66....need we say who won the hand? I *tap table* and say "nice hand man" before briskly walking away from the table in my drunken stupor, and punting my last 14$ in a spin of the roulette wheel.
Anyways, great trip, don't have much more to say about it. Afterall, what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas
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RANT
I know it's been a while since I've posted something in here and I was trying to think of some stuff to write about while I was in Vegas. Flying/airports alone are very solitary by nature. It seems like everybody just has one mission: to get where the **** they're going. Nobody likes standing in lines, getting stripped down by security, 5$ water bottles, getting crammed into a plane like sardines, time zone shifts, rude people, or whatever other cringey thing you want to insert about airports here. I'd be lying if I said it wasn't tough to be miserable at an airport.
(This was all a sidetrack btw, and a bit of a poor Segway).
Among all my traveling my dad was there to get up early @ 5 AM on Monday morning and drive me to the airport. He was also there to pick me up @ 10 PM Friday night, essentially punting off his Friday night.
So among being tilted with travel bs I was trying to think positive things. What I came up with, and the theme of this rant, is realizing/appreciating/thanking/giving back to the people that have always been there for me.
You know the people that have always been down since day one? It's so difficult to find people that when push comes to shove, are always there for you, and always want the best for you.
From my parents driving me to and from hockey up until I was 16, and being there to support me almost every game. Yeah, my dad was a huge prick about pushing me to do well and applying so much pressure on me every game and practice, it was all because he wanted the best for me. In the early stages my parents hated poker and gambling. They were huge pricks about this and essentially gave me the ultimatum of "move out or quit poker". It wasn't because they didn't want me to have success and chase my dream, it's because they saw me heading down a dangerous path and wanted to keep me safe. Anyways, shout out to them and I can't thank them enough for their help/support until now. Sure, they weren't perfect parents, but none are.
There's been a few friends that I owe a lot to as well. I remember my first 2 years of University always being broke af and having a tough time staying afloat financially. School/living was basically 90% up to me to pay for and that was a rough go sometimes. I remember my best friend always helping me with calculus, looking out for me, helping me move in/out, listening to problems, pulling strings with the professors to help me, and often buying me 50$ pre-paid vanilla master cards that I could upload to Stars on Sunday mornings and flick the Sunday storm/big 11, and some 2.50 180 man SNGs. I can't thank that fker enough because when everybody saw a school-flunking degenerate gambler he saw a deep-down intelligent guy with a lot of potential and work ethic. That was way back before I had any success in poker and was very close to failing out of Uni. I remember the first day of Uni and the professor was telling us about the school business competition between all of the graduating students. He leaned over to me and whispered "we're winning that **** together". 4 years later and his prophecy came true. So yeah, I owe that fker a lot, big shout out to him.
There's a lot of other close friends/family that I owe a lot to as well. Unfortunately, I don't have all night or the attention span of the readers to highlight them all. So thank you to y'all that know who you are!
Oh yeah, big shoutout/thank you to everybody who has followed this blog/given support/advice/encouragement etc. It means a lot to know people enjoy reading my random thoughts/journey of life. Long story short, take note of the people who are there for you/want the best for you...be very good to those people...they're hard to come by.
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POKER
Yeah, this has went pretty fkn mediocre all year. Aside from running bad, the rake getting higher, the games getting tougher, and other stuff outside of my control...a lot of the onus is on me and I need to take responsibility for that. I look back on my PGC from 4 years ago and it was basically all about poker. I guess I've lost a lot of that hunger that made me successful in the first place. I'm sort of in a weird transitory phase from poker and haven't given it my best effort. That's on me...nobody else. After doing a lot of thinking on my vacation, I'm going full bore for the rest of 2018. Maybe I won't win a major, or even a dollar...but I'm going to give it my best effort...that's a promise to myself.
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PROP BET
In times I can be completely honest with myself my diet has just been so fkn terrible and I have massive issues with discipline in this regard. There's 2 months left in 2018 and I want to leave this year showing positive progression. I'm so sick of the same bs every January 1st, and going through the same patterns every year. So here's what I want to propose:
I'm going to take on 5-10 people who want to bet me their 50$ to my 100$ that I can't complete the prop bet before Christmas. The terms will be something like this:
1. I have to gym 3x/week. No mandatory requirements but just showing up there and doing a few exercises/cardio at the very least.
2. Follow Tim Ferriss Slow Carb Diet (more about that later).
I haven't been able to string together much consistency in the exercise/nutrition department and I'm resorting to this. Just know that if I could complete this for 2 months straight it would be MASSIVE for my morale/overall health. I'd love it if people want to come in to support the challenge, or even if because they think the bet is +EV for them. Regardless, I won't forget it.
It's time for bed, and almost time to get back to the tables again tomorrow. Looking forward to a big Sunday....much love my homies and thank you for reading!
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TRIP UPDATE
Hope you guys have been well. I got back late last night from a semi-last minute Vegas stint. Aside from being sick for 2 of the 4 days I definitely had a blast. Saw 2 cirque du soleil shows, Grand Canyon hike, drank copious amounts, and just had a grand ole' time.
As good of a time as it was, I'm making the decision not to go back to Vegas on pure recreational terms if possible. Every time I go there by about day 4 the thrill is gone, the S.A.D (Standard American Diet) catches up with me, I'm tilted by the terrible service everywhere (and everybody wanting a tip for everything). To be honest, I have so much gambling in my face as it is, I don't need to go on vacation to a city that survives on it. So yeah, outside of going for the WSOP, I'll try not to go back for pleasure.
Believe it or not on the trip I barely gambled or played poker. One night I was fairly close to blackout drunk and decided to sit down for a session @ 1/2 (the only state in which this game is tolerable lol). Was actually doing pretty well from what I remember. Anyways, so there's 5 limpers to 2$ and action comes to me in SB with 99...I raise to 25...BB jams 55, BTN flat calls, I jam 250$ eff...BTN snap calls QTo...BB has 66....need we say who won the hand? I *tap table* and say "nice hand man" before briskly walking away from the table in my drunken stupor, and punting my last 14$ in a spin of the roulette wheel.
Anyways, great trip, don't have much more to say about it. Afterall, what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas
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RANT
I know it's been a while since I've posted something in here and I was trying to think of some stuff to write about while I was in Vegas. Flying/airports alone are very solitary by nature. It seems like everybody just has one mission: to get where the **** they're going. Nobody likes standing in lines, getting stripped down by security, 5$ water bottles, getting crammed into a plane like sardines, time zone shifts, rude people, or whatever other cringey thing you want to insert about airports here. I'd be lying if I said it wasn't tough to be miserable at an airport.
(This was all a sidetrack btw, and a bit of a poor Segway).
Among all my traveling my dad was there to get up early @ 5 AM on Monday morning and drive me to the airport. He was also there to pick me up @ 10 PM Friday night, essentially punting off his Friday night.
So among being tilted with travel bs I was trying to think positive things. What I came up with, and the theme of this rant, is realizing/appreciating/thanking/giving back to the people that have always been there for me.
You know the people that have always been down since day one? It's so difficult to find people that when push comes to shove, are always there for you, and always want the best for you.
From my parents driving me to and from hockey up until I was 16, and being there to support me almost every game. Yeah, my dad was a huge prick about pushing me to do well and applying so much pressure on me every game and practice, it was all because he wanted the best for me. In the early stages my parents hated poker and gambling. They were huge pricks about this and essentially gave me the ultimatum of "move out or quit poker". It wasn't because they didn't want me to have success and chase my dream, it's because they saw me heading down a dangerous path and wanted to keep me safe. Anyways, shout out to them and I can't thank them enough for their help/support until now. Sure, they weren't perfect parents, but none are.
There's been a few friends that I owe a lot to as well. I remember my first 2 years of University always being broke af and having a tough time staying afloat financially. School/living was basically 90% up to me to pay for and that was a rough go sometimes. I remember my best friend always helping me with calculus, looking out for me, helping me move in/out, listening to problems, pulling strings with the professors to help me, and often buying me 50$ pre-paid vanilla master cards that I could upload to Stars on Sunday mornings and flick the Sunday storm/big 11, and some 2.50 180 man SNGs. I can't thank that fker enough because when everybody saw a school-flunking degenerate gambler he saw a deep-down intelligent guy with a lot of potential and work ethic. That was way back before I had any success in poker and was very close to failing out of Uni. I remember the first day of Uni and the professor was telling us about the school business competition between all of the graduating students. He leaned over to me and whispered "we're winning that **** together". 4 years later and his prophecy came true. So yeah, I owe that fker a lot, big shout out to him.
There's a lot of other close friends/family that I owe a lot to as well. Unfortunately, I don't have all night or the attention span of the readers to highlight them all. So thank you to y'all that know who you are!
Oh yeah, big shoutout/thank you to everybody who has followed this blog/given support/advice/encouragement etc. It means a lot to know people enjoy reading my random thoughts/journey of life. Long story short, take note of the people who are there for you/want the best for you...be very good to those people...they're hard to come by.
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POKER
Yeah, this has went pretty fkn mediocre all year. Aside from running bad, the rake getting higher, the games getting tougher, and other stuff outside of my control...a lot of the onus is on me and I need to take responsibility for that. I look back on my PGC from 4 years ago and it was basically all about poker. I guess I've lost a lot of that hunger that made me successful in the first place. I'm sort of in a weird transitory phase from poker and haven't given it my best effort. That's on me...nobody else. After doing a lot of thinking on my vacation, I'm going full bore for the rest of 2018. Maybe I won't win a major, or even a dollar...but I'm going to give it my best effort...that's a promise to myself.
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PROP BET
In times I can be completely honest with myself my diet has just been so fkn terrible and I have massive issues with discipline in this regard. There's 2 months left in 2018 and I want to leave this year showing positive progression. I'm so sick of the same bs every January 1st, and going through the same patterns every year. So here's what I want to propose:
I'm going to take on 5-10 people who want to bet me their 50$ to my 100$ that I can't complete the prop bet before Christmas. The terms will be something like this:
1. I have to gym 3x/week. No mandatory requirements but just showing up there and doing a few exercises/cardio at the very least.
2. Follow Tim Ferriss Slow Carb Diet (more about that later).
I haven't been able to string together much consistency in the exercise/nutrition department and I'm resorting to this. Just know that if I could complete this for 2 months straight it would be MASSIVE for my morale/overall health. I'd love it if people want to come in to support the challenge, or even if because they think the bet is +EV for them. Regardless, I won't forget it.
It's time for bed, and almost time to get back to the tables again tomorrow. Looking forward to a big Sunday....much love my homies and thank you for reading!
10-29-2018
, 01:23 AM
NEWSFLASH: Sunday was withered af and essentially a straight brick. Feels really bad man. Anyways, felt like I played really well and maybe made one bad mistake in the Marathon for a lot of chips. Aside from that felt good and things didn't go my way...which is out of my control. I'll be grinding hard in a lower variance schedule all week.
Now that we got that needless whine out of the way let's talk some real ****. Let's talk about gambling for a living.
When I was 7 years old I went camping with my family at a local campground. One night the park was hosting a "Charity Casino Night". If I recall correctly kids weren't allowed to play but they were allowed to watch (maybe I'm wrong). There was this one casino game where goldfish were put into swimming lanes and participants could place bets on which goldfish they thought would win the race. I can't recall if I bet or my parents bet for me or whatever but all I know is I was hooked at this moment. I was doing "lab work" on every goldfish and relaying my "winning picks" to my parents (lol). It was at this moment that I realized I really enjoyed gambling.
As soon as I returned home from that camping trip I started trying to mimic the fish races. I built a rectangular box with a few lanes, caught a few frogs, and set up shop in front of my house. I remember one of my neighbours a bit younger than me walking by with his mom and she asked if her son could play with me and the frogs. I told her "sure, but would you like to place a bet on the frog to win the race?" She kind of gave me a concerning look and clearly didn't want her son being involved with gambling as she walked him home by the wrist.
The next memory I have of gambling at a young age was in the gameboy colour pokemon game in Goldenrod City, which held a casino. I remember spending hours in the slot machines in there wagering fake Pokemon dollars.
Fastforward about 10 years and the above stories served as a foreshadowing to something that would pay for everything from my education, to vacations, to my living, and to a condo. It would also be something that brought me through heaven and hell and taught me more life lessons than almost any other job.
The last 6 or 7 years of my life have been primarily funded by gambling. I don't like to say that. The public perception of gambling is that it is a degenerative downward spiral and something that suckers do. All poker players will tell you that poker is a game of skill. Not nearly as many will tell you that it is gambling. Even fewer will be able to give you a realistic assessment of their ROI/EV in that format. In fact, a majority of poker players are net losers in the game...whether it be monetarily, through time lost, or opportunity cost of other ventures.
I'd be lying if I said I didn't question "what if I chose a different path?" to myself almost daily. I don't have regrets about my choices and I've learned so much about life/gambling/people/entrepreneurship through poker. Poker has taught me so many life skills/lessons. I want to share with you guys a few of the things I've learned about gambling:
1. The stigma attached to gambling is that it is a losing investment and it is performed by suckers with addictions. This is actually a stigma for a reason, because it is mostly true. However, the term "investment" is often looked upon as a very positive and dignified action. In my opinion, the line between gambling and investment is drawn by the EV/risk of the options at hand. A losing or high risk deposit is viewed as gambling, whereas a winning EV or lower risk option is viewed as investment. In my opinion, the two terms are mutually inclusive and many forms of gambling can be an investment, and many forms of investment can be gambling. Everything we do in life is a gamble to an extent...walking across the street there is a non-zero chance you get struck by lightning or hit by a car.
2. Gambling/Investment requires finding and exploiting edges. The casino has players playing Blackjack with a -2% edge (w/ perfect strategy), slots with -30% edge, and every other game with some form of losing edge for the player. The casino welcomes players to bet extravagant amounts because they know in the long run (over thousands/100s of thousands/millions) of bets, they will realize their EV/ROI almost exactly. If you flip a coin 10 times there's a good chance 80% will be heads or tails (when the EV is 5 heads/5 tails)...if you flip a coin a million times it will end up being very close to 500k heads/500 tails. The larger the sample size, the closer the edges of the probabilities comes true.
When the casino puts people up in rooms/gives them comps/ or whatever other benefits...it's because they think they are gaining an edge by incentivizing the player to play further. Being a successful gambler requires finding plus EV edges and putting yourself in them as much as possible.
3. The most important traits of successful gamblers are often: intelligence, self-realization, and discipline. The best guys I've seen are often insanely sharp. They're amazing at calculating/identifying when they have an edge and will fire away to gain that edge. Often in gambling you operate on very thin edges (like 1-5%), if you get this wrong and estimate a 1% ROI, you could easily have a -1% ROI, and the investment all of a sudden becomes losing. It also often becomes difficult to withhold from firing losing bets. Every time a pro exits the poker room where he is +EV, he has to pass by a midway of casino games where he is -EV...that can become difficult to pass up day after day. Having good decision making skills is the epitome of being a good gambler...intelligence, discipline, and self-realization are definitely strong correlates of that.
4. One of the downsides about gambling for a living is that for every win, there is a loss. Every time you scoop a big pot, someone lost one. Every time you win a tournament, 90% of the field lost money. Variance does not have a soul and does not give a flying **** if you are in the biggest downswing of your life, rent is due and you're broke, or you just got dumped by your significant other and kicked to the curb. Gambling is a zero sum game.
5. A career in gambling is incredibly difficult to sustain. It's draining, stressful, and often very demoralizing. Edges that once existed often get swallowed up...because eventually people realize when they are losing edges. Eventually, for lack of a better analogy, the fish go broke. Many gamblers don't make enough money to stay afloat, don't have a bankroll to support swings, or just don't succeed for various reasons.
Anyways, I don't mean to be all negative Nancy about gambling, and I wouldn't call myself a professional gambler. Aside from poker and the odd DFS or sports bet I don't do a whole lot of gambling. Oh wait...I do walk across the street every day, choose what I eat, make life choices, choose who I talk to and how I act...maybe I do gamble a lot
As I've stated a lot of times before I think the edges in poker are getting swallowed up and that's the primary reason I'm seeking new ventures...but this old dog still has a few tricks up his sleeve...I can guarantee you that.
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PROP BET:
EXERCISE TERMS:
-I need to clock into the gym 3x per week. I have to spend a minimum of 30 minutes there and at the very least get in a modest work out. I'm not overly concerned about going super hard at the gym and more just getting my ass there.
NUTRITION TERMS:
-Follow the slow carb diet. I had some nice success with this before and found it very easy to follow. I just need to stick with it.
1. The most important thing of this is that I get 1 free day per week. All rules are out the window.
2. No white/starchy carbohydrates. No bread, sugars, pastas, cookies, chips, etc.
3. No fruit for the exception of moderate amounts of tomato/avocado.
4. Don't drink calories. Water/coffee/calorie free drinks only. One diet soda/glass of dry red-wine permitted per day.
5. No dairy, except for moderate amounts of cottage cheese. Drinking almond milk in moderation as a substitute for milk.
6. I will give myself one **** up throughout each week outside of my cheat day. For example if I'm really craving I can get a small cheat.
I think that's about it for now. I really just need some motivation to keep on the right path...I think having some money on the line and people sweating my progress will help. Worst case you will lose 50 bucks but you will know it changed my life for the positive, and you'll prob get some EV back from it anyways
YOUR BET: 50$ betting that I won't complete the above exercise/nutrition regiment. If I complete it you owe me 50$. If I lose, I will pay you 100$.
MY BET: If I complete the bet I will feel like a boss and probably pay it forward with the $ won. If I lose I will feel like **** and pay you all out 100$.
That's about all for now...best of luck to us all...bet is officially LIVE! I will accept up to 10 bettors. Bet goes until December 29th, and excludes any holidays.
BOOKED BETS:
1. wj294
2. nomalice
Thanks my homies and best of luck this week let's get it!!!
Now that we got that needless whine out of the way let's talk some real ****. Let's talk about gambling for a living.
When I was 7 years old I went camping with my family at a local campground. One night the park was hosting a "Charity Casino Night". If I recall correctly kids weren't allowed to play but they were allowed to watch (maybe I'm wrong). There was this one casino game where goldfish were put into swimming lanes and participants could place bets on which goldfish they thought would win the race. I can't recall if I bet or my parents bet for me or whatever but all I know is I was hooked at this moment. I was doing "lab work" on every goldfish and relaying my "winning picks" to my parents (lol). It was at this moment that I realized I really enjoyed gambling.
As soon as I returned home from that camping trip I started trying to mimic the fish races. I built a rectangular box with a few lanes, caught a few frogs, and set up shop in front of my house. I remember one of my neighbours a bit younger than me walking by with his mom and she asked if her son could play with me and the frogs. I told her "sure, but would you like to place a bet on the frog to win the race?" She kind of gave me a concerning look and clearly didn't want her son being involved with gambling as she walked him home by the wrist.
The next memory I have of gambling at a young age was in the gameboy colour pokemon game in Goldenrod City, which held a casino. I remember spending hours in the slot machines in there wagering fake Pokemon dollars.
Fastforward about 10 years and the above stories served as a foreshadowing to something that would pay for everything from my education, to vacations, to my living, and to a condo. It would also be something that brought me through heaven and hell and taught me more life lessons than almost any other job.
The last 6 or 7 years of my life have been primarily funded by gambling. I don't like to say that. The public perception of gambling is that it is a degenerative downward spiral and something that suckers do. All poker players will tell you that poker is a game of skill. Not nearly as many will tell you that it is gambling. Even fewer will be able to give you a realistic assessment of their ROI/EV in that format. In fact, a majority of poker players are net losers in the game...whether it be monetarily, through time lost, or opportunity cost of other ventures.
I'd be lying if I said I didn't question "what if I chose a different path?" to myself almost daily. I don't have regrets about my choices and I've learned so much about life/gambling/people/entrepreneurship through poker. Poker has taught me so many life skills/lessons. I want to share with you guys a few of the things I've learned about gambling:
1. The stigma attached to gambling is that it is a losing investment and it is performed by suckers with addictions. This is actually a stigma for a reason, because it is mostly true. However, the term "investment" is often looked upon as a very positive and dignified action. In my opinion, the line between gambling and investment is drawn by the EV/risk of the options at hand. A losing or high risk deposit is viewed as gambling, whereas a winning EV or lower risk option is viewed as investment. In my opinion, the two terms are mutually inclusive and many forms of gambling can be an investment, and many forms of investment can be gambling. Everything we do in life is a gamble to an extent...walking across the street there is a non-zero chance you get struck by lightning or hit by a car.
2. Gambling/Investment requires finding and exploiting edges. The casino has players playing Blackjack with a -2% edge (w/ perfect strategy), slots with -30% edge, and every other game with some form of losing edge for the player. The casino welcomes players to bet extravagant amounts because they know in the long run (over thousands/100s of thousands/millions) of bets, they will realize their EV/ROI almost exactly. If you flip a coin 10 times there's a good chance 80% will be heads or tails (when the EV is 5 heads/5 tails)...if you flip a coin a million times it will end up being very close to 500k heads/500 tails. The larger the sample size, the closer the edges of the probabilities comes true.
When the casino puts people up in rooms/gives them comps/ or whatever other benefits...it's because they think they are gaining an edge by incentivizing the player to play further. Being a successful gambler requires finding plus EV edges and putting yourself in them as much as possible.
3. The most important traits of successful gamblers are often: intelligence, self-realization, and discipline. The best guys I've seen are often insanely sharp. They're amazing at calculating/identifying when they have an edge and will fire away to gain that edge. Often in gambling you operate on very thin edges (like 1-5%), if you get this wrong and estimate a 1% ROI, you could easily have a -1% ROI, and the investment all of a sudden becomes losing. It also often becomes difficult to withhold from firing losing bets. Every time a pro exits the poker room where he is +EV, he has to pass by a midway of casino games where he is -EV...that can become difficult to pass up day after day. Having good decision making skills is the epitome of being a good gambler...intelligence, discipline, and self-realization are definitely strong correlates of that.
4. One of the downsides about gambling for a living is that for every win, there is a loss. Every time you scoop a big pot, someone lost one. Every time you win a tournament, 90% of the field lost money. Variance does not have a soul and does not give a flying **** if you are in the biggest downswing of your life, rent is due and you're broke, or you just got dumped by your significant other and kicked to the curb. Gambling is a zero sum game.
5. A career in gambling is incredibly difficult to sustain. It's draining, stressful, and often very demoralizing. Edges that once existed often get swallowed up...because eventually people realize when they are losing edges. Eventually, for lack of a better analogy, the fish go broke. Many gamblers don't make enough money to stay afloat, don't have a bankroll to support swings, or just don't succeed for various reasons.
Anyways, I don't mean to be all negative Nancy about gambling, and I wouldn't call myself a professional gambler. Aside from poker and the odd DFS or sports bet I don't do a whole lot of gambling. Oh wait...I do walk across the street every day, choose what I eat, make life choices, choose who I talk to and how I act...maybe I do gamble a lot
As I've stated a lot of times before I think the edges in poker are getting swallowed up and that's the primary reason I'm seeking new ventures...but this old dog still has a few tricks up his sleeve...I can guarantee you that.
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PROP BET:
EXERCISE TERMS:
-I need to clock into the gym 3x per week. I have to spend a minimum of 30 minutes there and at the very least get in a modest work out. I'm not overly concerned about going super hard at the gym and more just getting my ass there.
NUTRITION TERMS:
-Follow the slow carb diet. I had some nice success with this before and found it very easy to follow. I just need to stick with it.
1. The most important thing of this is that I get 1 free day per week. All rules are out the window.
2. No white/starchy carbohydrates. No bread, sugars, pastas, cookies, chips, etc.
3. No fruit for the exception of moderate amounts of tomato/avocado.
4. Don't drink calories. Water/coffee/calorie free drinks only. One diet soda/glass of dry red-wine permitted per day.
5. No dairy, except for moderate amounts of cottage cheese. Drinking almond milk in moderation as a substitute for milk.
6. I will give myself one **** up throughout each week outside of my cheat day. For example if I'm really craving I can get a small cheat.
I think that's about it for now. I really just need some motivation to keep on the right path...I think having some money on the line and people sweating my progress will help. Worst case you will lose 50 bucks but you will know it changed my life for the positive, and you'll prob get some EV back from it anyways
YOUR BET: 50$ betting that I won't complete the above exercise/nutrition regiment. If I complete it you owe me 50$. If I lose, I will pay you 100$.
MY BET: If I complete the bet I will feel like a boss and probably pay it forward with the $ won. If I lose I will feel like **** and pay you all out 100$.
That's about all for now...best of luck to us all...bet is officially LIVE! I will accept up to 10 bettors. Bet goes until December 29th, and excludes any holidays.
BOOKED BETS:
1. wj294
2. nomalice
Thanks my homies and best of luck this week let's get it!!!
Last edited by WALMARTcnxn; 10-29-2018 at 01:33 AM.
10-29-2018
, 12:38 PM
cheers m8 will book u in!
thanks! 26 yeah, i appreciate the kind words. you're absolutely correct and it's something I've struggled with for the last ~5 years or so. every logical fibre in my body knows it's the right decision...
humans claim they're logical thinkers yet coca-cola is the #1 selling beverage on the planet
will book u in!
Quote:
Great thread man. You always show a tremendous amount of wisdom for a young guy (26?)
Committing to a proper diet and regular exercise is not a hard thing to do, has sooooo many upsides, yet so many of us just don't pull the trigger on it (knowing full well that we should)
Things like this just boil down to how bad we want it.
In for the bet, expecting to lose.
GL!
Committing to a proper diet and regular exercise is not a hard thing to do, has sooooo many upsides, yet so many of us just don't pull the trigger on it (knowing full well that we should)
Things like this just boil down to how bad we want it.
In for the bet, expecting to lose.
GL!
humans claim they're logical thinkers yet coca-cola is the #1 selling beverage on the planet
will book u in!
10-30-2018
, 12:18 AM
https://gyazo.com/a13e73f3ba6640b0e1bd5aef47ae5a12
hopefully this meal doesnt get too old for the next 2 months marinated the chicken for about 2 hours before cooking it (nice tip from a friend) that made it taste far better. generally plain chicken breast tastes like a bicycle seat but this was pretty good.
had a pretty good day, got some groceries/netflix and chilled/played ping pong/grinded for a profit to close out the day. lost hu in the 82 turbo prog but w/e the guy had a massive chip lead hu and won the all ins. tomorrow morning I got a nice gym session on the agenda/then a hangout with friend/poker sesh lezgooo
thanks to everyone who took the bet/showing support! glgl this week peaceeee
hopefully this meal doesnt get too old for the next 2 months
marinated the chicken for about 2 hours before cooking it (nice tip from a friend) that made it taste far better. generally plain chicken breast tastes like a bicycle seat but this was pretty good. had a pretty good day, got some groceries/netflix and chilled/played ping pong/grinded for a profit to close out the day. lost hu in the 82 turbo prog but w/e the guy had a massive chip lead hu and won the all ins. tomorrow morning I got a nice gym session on the agenda/then a hangout with friend/poker sesh lezgooo
thanks to everyone who took the bet/showing support! glgl this week peaceeee
10-30-2018
, 03:25 PM
11-03-2018
, 05:43 PM
It's Do or Die
So many times in my poker career I've been faced with the feeling of "it's do or die". The first recollection of this was at this local home game at a bar near the house I grew up in. The tourney was Wednesday nights with a 20$ buy in. Comparatively to today, that 20$ would be the equivalent of like 20k today. I was 17 years old when I started going to that bar and I remember a few times I would have to scavenge a few bucks from my dad's change/coin collection (sorry dad) just to have enough for the entry fee. I would look forward to this game all week because this was the only poker that I could play, afterall, I was under 18 and didn't have any idea how I could get/fund an account online. Every Wednesday was "do or die".
Another instance I can think of this was when my dad dropped my off @ University for my second year there. My tuition wasn't paid yet and I had approximately 53$ to my name. Being the degenerate that I was, I uploaded the USD equivalent of 53 CAD, approximately 42$ USD. I took this to the 2.50$ 180 mans and probably 16 tabled and min cashed 1 or 2 of them or something. I need not explain why this was "do or die" or tell the story of how it ended lol..I'm sure you can figure that out.
Actually a proud story of "do or die" was when I made it to day 3 of the WCOOP 109 Phase Event 1 with 27 players left. Before day 3 began I went for a walk to my favourite meditation spot in the world and just sat there for about an hour and appreciated the view and nature before me. I remember sitting there vividly and thinking about the players that were still remaining, one of which was wizowizo who I grew up railing all the time when I was a 2$ ABI reg. I ran every scenario through my head of how much that win could improve my life and how I was going to activate "beast mode". Once again, it was "do or die". Luckily, I did it this time and lived
Anyways, poker has brought my from busto to robusto and back more times than I can even count. So many times I felt like it was "do or die" because I wanted to achieve my dreams in the game. Ironically, I was never going to die. Quite frankly, if I failed I was a 19-20 year old kid and I'm sure there would be someone who could help me...and if they didn't it might have been for the better anyways. Maybe I would have got a job flipping burgers like a normal Uni kid or who knows what would have happened if I didn't play poker the last 6 years.
Why am I saying all this "do or die" ****? I'll get to that later.
Out for my stroll the other night I was really trying to think why 2018 online poker has been going so damn mediocre for me/so many of my friends who have succeeded in the past. I always try to be honest with myself and think objectively about poker. Why is everyone winning menial amounts/breaking even/losing this year???
So I pondered for a bit and thought of a few scenarios and tried to weigh the likelihood of each:
Rake is Higher and Rakeback is decreased: This speaks for itself and definitely hurts the bottom line quite a bit. When you go from being Supernova and making ~5k/year from rakeback to getting chests and getting somewhere between 0$ and 10$ (legit my biggest chest was either 10 or 25$ not joking) and getting ~500 bucks a year from rakeback...it's a substantial difference. This obviously has adverse affects on the player pools/prize pools as well. So yeah, there's a 100% probability that increased rake/decreased rakeback has hurt my bottom line...but maybe by 5k, and I'm way more than 5k below than what I would have expected to make this year.
Running Bad: Yeah, there's no secret I've ran like aids the past year online (but good live) in more spots than I can even count. There's been a bunch of times where I've thought "this site has to be rigged". "How is this possible?" That being said, everyone thinks they run bad...from the old guy at the casino to high stakes end bosses. Due to the nature of MTTs being so top heavy it's so easy to "run bad" and it's actually far more likely than "running good". Most days in tournament poker are losing days because tournaments are so top heavy and you literally need to run like a god to win one. Anyways, I think the probability for run bad ruining my results this year is fairly high, like maybe 60 or 70% chance. Afterall, I probably ran in the top 1% the last few years so I'm due in a bad way
Getting Surpassed by Competition: There's no doubt that the population has gotten exponentially better in the past 1-2 years. There's far less dead money on the tables and the population seems to be far more efficient in so many ways. I remember back like 2 years ago or something having like a 50-60bb/100 win rate from the BTN because I would just open all trash from there and 3 bet relentlessly. It printed because people opened too wide, responded poorly in 3 bet pots, didn't 3 bet/4 bet enough, didn't defend the BB enough. In 2018 the population seems to have gotten soooo much better at playing from late positions (and that's where a lot of money is made). That's just one example of how the population has improved. There's so many staked players out there who are getting decent coaching. Each "fish" spot that gets replaced on a table by a "average/bad reg" a massive edge gets swallowed up. (Just think about how many scenarios you now won't be able to get away with exploitative stuff). I definitely think the competition improving significantly has taken a big edge off of my plate. However, I still don't think it's the sole reason.
The Fire is Dying: In past years I was so hungry for poker success...I lived and breathed poker. I sacrificed my health, my social life, my school work, and the opportunity cost of other options to make my poker dream come true. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nearly as motivated by poker as I used to be. I'd be lying if I told you I'd worked so hard on my game this year. The bottom line is that other stuff started to become a priority in my life and the "poker dream" is seemingly getting put to a slow death. In the past, poker seemed like "do or die", now it's just kind of like a "do for the sake of doing" type thing. There is still lots of money to be made in poker but the variance is sick and the industry is definitely past it's peak in my opinion.
SO there's a bunch of reasons why I haven't been succeeding in online poker in 2018 as much as I would have liked to. All in all, I think the reason is a combination of all of the above. I only have a matter of months (maybe like 1-2 years TOPS) left before I retire from poker and I can ensure you I am going to do everything in my power to go out on a good note. Maybe I won't make another cent in poker...but I can ensure you I'll be rich in Sklansky $ because I will work my ass off...I promise this to myself.
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Anyways, poker aside, my prop bet has started well. I got in 3 really good work outs, ate super clean all week aside from my cheat day, and got in some good social time with people close to me.
To be honest, my cheat day got a bit out of hand but w/e I guess I sort of deserved it. Ate a bunch of pizza and drank a lion's share of booze. Still followed my diet/workout regiment but will do my best to tone it down on cheat days in the future...besides, hungover me hates the world and has a very difficult time being productive.
Tim Ferriss says that evidence shows the cheat day is actually very important in the diet because 1) it keeps you motivated 2) gets cravings out of your system 3) spikes your metabolism.
I'm now in the point of my life where I've realized my health and relationships are the most important thing to me...it's "do or die" again...but for real this time.
So many times in my poker career I've been faced with the feeling of "it's do or die". The first recollection of this was at this local home game at a bar near the house I grew up in. The tourney was Wednesday nights with a 20$ buy in. Comparatively to today, that 20$ would be the equivalent of like 20k today. I was 17 years old when I started going to that bar and I remember a few times I would have to scavenge a few bucks from my dad's change/coin collection (sorry dad) just to have enough for the entry fee. I would look forward to this game all week because this was the only poker that I could play, afterall, I was under 18 and didn't have any idea how I could get/fund an account online. Every Wednesday was "do or die".
Another instance I can think of this was when my dad dropped my off @ University for my second year there. My tuition wasn't paid yet and I had approximately 53$ to my name. Being the degenerate that I was, I uploaded the USD equivalent of 53 CAD, approximately 42$ USD. I took this to the 2.50$ 180 mans and probably 16 tabled and min cashed 1 or 2 of them or something. I need not explain why this was "do or die" or tell the story of how it ended lol..I'm sure you can figure that out.
Actually a proud story of "do or die" was when I made it to day 3 of the WCOOP 109 Phase Event 1 with 27 players left. Before day 3 began I went for a walk to my favourite meditation spot in the world and just sat there for about an hour and appreciated the view and nature before me. I remember sitting there vividly and thinking about the players that were still remaining, one of which was wizowizo who I grew up railing all the time when I was a 2$ ABI reg. I ran every scenario through my head of how much that win could improve my life and how I was going to activate "beast mode". Once again, it was "do or die". Luckily, I did it this time and lived
Anyways, poker has brought my from busto to robusto and back more times than I can even count. So many times I felt like it was "do or die" because I wanted to achieve my dreams in the game. Ironically, I was never going to die. Quite frankly, if I failed I was a 19-20 year old kid and I'm sure there would be someone who could help me...and if they didn't it might have been for the better anyways. Maybe I would have got a job flipping burgers like a normal Uni kid or who knows what would have happened if I didn't play poker the last 6 years.
Why am I saying all this "do or die" ****? I'll get to that later.
Out for my stroll the other night I was really trying to think why 2018 online poker has been going so damn mediocre for me/so many of my friends who have succeeded in the past. I always try to be honest with myself and think objectively about poker. Why is everyone winning menial amounts/breaking even/losing this year???
So I pondered for a bit and thought of a few scenarios and tried to weigh the likelihood of each:
Rake is Higher and Rakeback is decreased: This speaks for itself and definitely hurts the bottom line quite a bit. When you go from being Supernova and making ~5k/year from rakeback to getting chests and getting somewhere between 0$ and 10$ (legit my biggest chest was either 10 or 25$ not joking) and getting ~500 bucks a year from rakeback...it's a substantial difference. This obviously has adverse affects on the player pools/prize pools as well. So yeah, there's a 100% probability that increased rake/decreased rakeback has hurt my bottom line...but maybe by 5k, and I'm way more than 5k below than what I would have expected to make this year.
Running Bad: Yeah, there's no secret I've ran like aids the past year online (but good live) in more spots than I can even count. There's been a bunch of times where I've thought "this site has to be rigged". "How is this possible?" That being said, everyone thinks they run bad...from the old guy at the casino to high stakes end bosses. Due to the nature of MTTs being so top heavy it's so easy to "run bad" and it's actually far more likely than "running good". Most days in tournament poker are losing days because tournaments are so top heavy and you literally need to run like a god to win one. Anyways, I think the probability for run bad ruining my results this year is fairly high, like maybe 60 or 70% chance. Afterall, I probably ran in the top 1% the last few years so I'm due in a bad way
Getting Surpassed by Competition: There's no doubt that the population has gotten exponentially better in the past 1-2 years. There's far less dead money on the tables and the population seems to be far more efficient in so many ways. I remember back like 2 years ago or something having like a 50-60bb/100 win rate from the BTN because I would just open all trash from there and 3 bet relentlessly. It printed because people opened too wide, responded poorly in 3 bet pots, didn't 3 bet/4 bet enough, didn't defend the BB enough. In 2018 the population seems to have gotten soooo much better at playing from late positions (and that's where a lot of money is made). That's just one example of how the population has improved. There's so many staked players out there who are getting decent coaching. Each "fish" spot that gets replaced on a table by a "average/bad reg" a massive edge gets swallowed up. (Just think about how many scenarios you now won't be able to get away with exploitative stuff). I definitely think the competition improving significantly has taken a big edge off of my plate. However, I still don't think it's the sole reason.
The Fire is Dying: In past years I was so hungry for poker success...I lived and breathed poker. I sacrificed my health, my social life, my school work, and the opportunity cost of other options to make my poker dream come true. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nearly as motivated by poker as I used to be. I'd be lying if I told you I'd worked so hard on my game this year. The bottom line is that other stuff started to become a priority in my life and the "poker dream" is seemingly getting put to a slow death. In the past, poker seemed like "do or die", now it's just kind of like a "do for the sake of doing" type thing. There is still lots of money to be made in poker but the variance is sick and the industry is definitely past it's peak in my opinion.
SO there's a bunch of reasons why I haven't been succeeding in online poker in 2018 as much as I would have liked to. All in all, I think the reason is a combination of all of the above. I only have a matter of months (maybe like 1-2 years TOPS) left before I retire from poker and I can ensure you I am going to do everything in my power to go out on a good note. Maybe I won't make another cent in poker...but I can ensure you I'll be rich in Sklansky $ because I will work my ass off...I promise this to myself.
----------------------------
Anyways, poker aside, my prop bet has started well. I got in 3 really good work outs, ate super clean all week aside from my cheat day, and got in some good social time with people close to me.
To be honest, my cheat day got a bit out of hand but w/e I guess I sort of deserved it. Ate a bunch of pizza and drank a lion's share of booze. Still followed my diet/workout regiment but will do my best to tone it down on cheat days in the future...besides, hungover me hates the world and has a very difficult time being productive.
Tim Ferriss says that evidence shows the cheat day is actually very important in the diet because 1) it keeps you motivated 2) gets cravings out of your system 3) spikes your metabolism.
I'm now in the point of my life where I've realized my health and relationships are the most important thing to me...it's "do or die" again...but for real this time.
11-04-2018
, 05:05 PM