Hey guys, hope everyone had a good Christmas. I'm heading back to Southampton tonight and although I'm sorta tempted to play some poker on Sunday, I think I wanna stick to my plan of taking time off until the New Year. I got Black Ops 2 for Christmas and I may end up playing it all weekend haha.
So, over the Christmas break I've been talking to some family members and just sorta musing on my future beyond this year. I'm really positive about this year and what it's going to bring, which is great obviously, but I'm at an age where I can't just think about the short term. I've been watching a lot of training videos over the break to keep me sharp, and really enjoying watching some videos that deal with more postflop stuff, including a few HU cash videos, PLO videos and other non-MTT stuff. It's making me think about switching to cash somewhere down the line, which is a thought I've had before. I've also thought about sticking to MTTs until I make it to #1 on P5s or whatever other arbitrary distinction makes me feel like I've achieved all I want to, but that just seems like an unwinnable game.
This is gonna turn into a big tl;dr stream of consciousness now, so be warned. As much as it keeps me motivated to want to be the best MTT player in the world or w/e, variance is such a factor in MTTs that I don't know if I'll ever get to the point where I feel like I've achieved it. I wouldn't bother putting this much effort into something if I didn't want to be the best at it and feel like I had the potential to get there, but with a game like this where even if I were the best, I'd never be able to back it up or prove it, and even if I weren't the best the stats might say that I were, that just seems totally pointless in some way. Admittedly, cash games aren't any different in that regard, but I at least need to get some perspective on what is the most +EV for me in the long term. By that, I mean, what is going to make me the most money.
I don't really want to be playing poker full-time - especially not online - for more than another 5 years maximum. At that point, I'll be 30, and about ready to embark on a career outside the game. When that time comes, I want to have as much money in the bank as possible, so I can take time off and invest that time in writing and pushing my projects, and getting myself into the film and television industry. With all this in mind, I'm starting to think more and more about how the decisions I make this year and over the next few years are going to affect my future, and about how I can make the most out of this year and use it to set me up for future years.
Obviously I'll need to see how this year works out before I can even come close to making any decisions, but I'm thinking pretty strongly that by the time next year rolls around I might be ready to leave the high-variance life of makeup and donkament binks behind and have a go at grinding out SNE playing MSNL cash. SNE is worth $100k/year in rakeback if I remember rightly, and when you add in profits to that it's conceivable that at $250k/year for four years I could have banked a milly by the time I'm 30, with minimal variance. That sounds like a pretty attractive prospect to me compared to what can happen in HSMTTs.
So, I guess what I'm saying is that I'm gonna give this year my all of course, and try to ditch any ego-driven motivation toward 'being the best' or obsessing about my P5s ranking. If it gets to the end of the year and I have a solid figure I can put towards a bankroll, it might be time for a change. If not, I'll probably be busto and it'll be time for a change anyway haha
Okay, think I'm done with the random musings there now. Happy New Year everyone, see you in a few days