wont go into huge detail, lost all the money most it in omaha zoom 25plo and 10plo actually think all of it got lost there and omaha regular tables and a bit in the casino games 2 nights i splashed about a bit in there, my fresh start for poker gambling been a **** show so far.

deposited £15 this morning tilted most it off in omaha as was tilted out the gate to be honest (as im literally playing with last of my disposable income, so glad i bought so food to tide me over swear down that was a close call i almost put off shopping the other day glad bought some bits to eat) then decided **** it no more omaha zoom or regular omaha texas holdem only purged database.

then this where i am now $10.93 in account tryna cling on, i still wanna rake the $1000 by end of month seems stupid but if i did it would fix the **** show or swings the past 12days been and ill be able to pay what wanted need to pay £250 needs to be found by end month either way (so having $10.93 isnt good start)

i played while tilted 1hr40mins zoom holdem (bad bad bad idea i cant play zoom for the life of me as is, only when in really good flow state and altered my game can i do it, plus it tilts me bad too zoom im really not good at it so that was a stupid waste time gamble that session as is).

had break gathered senses a bit sat down at regular holdem tables, so so so much better suits how i play far better.

Goals before end on month in list of importance.

-make £250 to withdraw no compromises thats coming out
-get even on the year as im deffo down something on the year (need look transcation history to work out quite what)
-rake $1000 get the chests $400 rakeback (that have bonus of fixing goals 2 above and goals 1
-shot take but dont be ******ed dont sit with whole roll at table stakes, but try get back to 10nl 16nl 25nl sharpish (realistically if im gonna rake the $1000 by end of month i need to be at 16nl minimum but really 25nl and soon (but again dont be silly dont sit with 5-8buyins at a stake your just asking for trouble and you know it

pointers-
-dont monkey tilt hard
-dont spew too much
-dont play overly unfocused
-force yourself to play put in the volume hrs as need to if gonna achieve goal but dont kill yourself doing it or get in too much bad volume
-relax, try go for walk do some sort exercise daily or something even if short walk
got 17days to rake the k and 20days left of the month to try right my wrongs here

Following, good luck!

lol yh im bust i played zoom it went well but in end played way too long too many hrs went from great session to breakeven session lost too much focus also back mind was worried about disconnecting deep or at all, yh tilted quit turning the sesh so basically breakeven one and sat with what i had in account 25 and then10plo zoom try spin it gamble it up basically.

bust like bust bust, got 0.22$ in account got chest this moring woke up for 0.5$ sat in a 45 man sit and go for **** knows what reason werent in mood to play just open jammed basically anything as couldnt be bothered sit there play properly so donated 0.50$ this morning too for no reason whatsoever, could bought a Freddo with that if could withdraw it.

anyways i have absolutely nothing in my bank account to gamble with nor will i till next Thursday, im glad i actually bought some food essentials and wont completely starve but err its slim pickings got some oats cereal and few tins tuna beans etc some tinned fruit but yh bit of a close call (id of been better off after ther session turning breakeven yesterday withdrawing current winnings for the day or just all of it calling it quits for the day. wish my internet connection was stable but whatevs.

went sleep super early last night as was just majorly bummed out on busting the account and drained from nothing ha sitting on arse, playing for cents.

so got an unintentional week off of poker and gambling ha, might try walk some exercise bit this week, but actually seems not so wise now with how little i actually got to eat here its skimming by as is ha think if actually did id need more food honestly so to not completely fall apart, but also not doing jackshit is equally shite, and i do and done enough that as is.

anyways im gonna go have a sulk and try amuse self for next 6 days

peace out seeing you in 6days

thanks man need it