I'm drifting off. I've had a really bad start to December. Was shotting 1kNL and got rekt. Down about 9k€ and feel very distracted/uninterested in Poker.

I've been there many times. Many, many times. Now I have to drag myself back into this game. Get myself excited. Cut down on distractions. I'm watching a lot of MMA, talking a lot on Skype and doing other **** that I shouldn't be doing. Which is okay to some extend as I am running quite bad and should have more recovery but how about being a man again now and grinding this bitch out.

Goals:

- I have to set more goals and reassess old ones
- I have to get back to doing more theory
- I have to reset and focus on what's important. What's important is not this session, this day, this week or this month. It's a timespan of at least 8 months. And every hr I spent grinding unfocused. Every hr grind I miss. Every hand I spew will cut my acceleration in economical progression. Therefor exponentially decrease my bankroll in 8 months.

The results simply do not matter right now. It is what it is. The only thing that counts is making it count. Putting in that quality time and that big volume. No bitching. I want to see big months. 60k hands minimum. That's a minimum. If you can't put in 110 hrs of grind you need to find a new profession. This isn't for you. This is competition and you either do it seriously or you don't.

**** all of the haters itt. **** all of you and your poor **** work ethics. Goatest of all goats - imagoat. Making this Goatecember 2015.