I agree that pictures would make the story more come to life. Yes i made big mistakes in my life and i pay the price for it now. I knew she is the woman of my life, it's something u know and feel. Even she is my first gf ever, im guess im just lucky about that, I found a true good woman here in Thailand and it's pretty crazy it's also my first and last. I would thought that wasn't possible too before.
I will provide some pictures, so the story comes more to life.
I will start from the beginning.
(I took a picture of the picture last year, this reason this date is 2012)
I grew up as a kid with my younger brother and older sister in a normal avarage family. My dad is a hard working business man who started his own business last year and is succesfully doing so far. My mom works in a pharmacy for all her life and both my parents were hard working people and top students.
I went to school like any normal kid and i did great till i start my puberty. At a very young age already I was absolutely crazy about the human body and wanted to be the most muscular man in the world and later on a bodybuilder. I started playing tennis and football till age of 15-16 and became a very good athlete. I won all my school running competitions year after year and i was like a machine.
At the age of 14 i could do 300 push ups and was by far the most muscular kid of the school and was kind of an attraction to show everyone what i had and all the ladies wanted to feel my muscles( no i did not only train my abs, my abs were actually my worst body part), which i really didn't like as i was a very shy person.
At that age I did something very bad to my dad, i got his code from his visa and bought everything i wanted online. I wanted a home cinema. So i bought an expensive HD projector, screen, sound system and everything i wanted so my room was super nice for a 14year old.
I found a pic of it.
It was pretty awesome and i could keep it all when my dad found out after he received the bill at the end of the month.
He was so pissed, i had to go and work everyday ( it was summer holiday) to pay him that money back. I just go and mow the grass of every family member as much as possible and do some other tasks and i managed to pay him all back in that holiday.
I went on and put my focus on bodybuilding till i was 18. At age 13 i barely made it in school but decided i would change school so it would be a bit easier.
At the age of 15 i failed my year and had to do it again.
I changed school again when i was 16 and and it made it to the 4th grade and finishing my year with the best results of the class. After always being in the bottom...
It was around age 16 i took bodybuilding serious, spended all my savings on supplements and food like beef and rice and chicken, so i could get bigger. I went to school with my bag full of food in tupperware. I grew like a monster, destroying my body with a lot of striae.
I didnt't care and i trained on and on after school and finished when the gym closed at 10pm. Went home with my motorbike, like most kids had at age of 16.
I sold it for about $2500 before april.
Stayed up till late in night playing games like call of duty and forza and made almost no time for any homework.
I went to school very tired every day again and again and slept most of the time in class and was kicked out a lot of times for sleeping.
I didn't care anything about it, i just wanted to have this class time over so i can go to the gym.
I was luckily able to remember things very fast so i could still manage to get to 5th grade without doing any effort for school, i basically didn't studying anything at all.
At 5th grade and age 17-18 i was so big already, everyone saw me as a freak, i had no real friends, as i didn't like anyone in school, but everyone liked me and i was always kind and helpful. I just sat alone in the breaks and eat my meals. I grew at one point to 95KG at a a height of 1.72m. I was so muscular i felt like i could become a real bodybuilder. I have 1 picture of me at that time, a class picture as i was not into taking pics of myself.
I have it somewhere, i need to look for it.
It was also in this year i become in touch with poker. It started with playing cards some lunch breaks with a few guys to getting started online. I fell in love with poker. it was everything i wanted to do. I studied and studied and played online poker everyday after i came back from the gym till late in night 1-2 tabling up to 5$ sitngo's.
I quickly showed a high ROI and was the person who could make money from online poker.
I tried to play my first big MTT for just $1, i finished 3rd or 4th for about $1000. People in school were kind of impressed and asked me bunch of questions.
I told them to just play tight early and agressive at the late stages in sitngo's and in MTT u just have to make a story of every hand u want to play and read your opponents story if it makes sense or not.
I hads push/fold charts that i copied from sitngo wizard and gave it to a friend for helping him out as he didnt want to pay for sitngo wizard.
He also played sitngo's.
I left school completely on the side and focussed on getting better in poker and bought colin moshman book, read every article online i could find, read and help a lot of people in the sitngo forum of 2+2 under a different account.
I gave up on school at the end of 5th grade and i had no motivation to finish school and i would had to do my year again and just decided to stop all about school and just focuss on playing poker. (yea i know that is crazy and stupid)
Pretty crazy i made that decision so early with me having only couple thousand games played. But poker was something i really loved and was willing to do what it takes to be succesfull. I did not try to aim for being the most profitable player in the world, i just wanted to make a good living from it.
It was also this moment i got completely burned out from bodybuilding as it was all too much. I stopped completely and quickly dropped in weight, after a year i went from 95KG to 70KG just by doing nothing and sitting in my room and eating bad. I never used steroids, i was against that.
I got invited to most home poker games, but i didn't really made good money of it as i just wanted to bluff them off every hand and didnt took it serious.
But online poker, i took it very serious and never tilted money away, i never busted my pokeroll and grinded quickly through the stakes as i got better up to $33 fr turbo/regular sitngo's on FT. I got good bankroll management, never tilted and had the ability to play a lot of tables. I did had some fear playing higher and always had like 200BI for every level.
When everything started really good, i made an ok liferoll, i felt on top of the world.
Then Black Friday happened and they took my whole poker bankroll/liferoll as i never thought this would happen to the 2nd biggest pokersite in the world and i felt my money was safe on that pokersite as i felt more comfortable playing higher when i had enough money in my cashier.
It was emotionaly very tough and i was completely shocked what happened. I took a break for couple months from poker.
We are know around July/august 2011 and decided to deposit on pokerstars and grind my roll up again. I managed to do that and started to play 18man turbo's up to the $7 level. I ran really good, i took a couple of shots at the $15 but i couldnt run any worse at that stake, so i stayed at the $7 games till around october2012.
Another big shocker came up on the news, my country would chang the poker law and change the minimum age for online poker to 21.
I was shocked and so angry at those who made this decision real for this ridiculous stupid rule and it would change my life completely.
I took most of my roll out on ps and left myself a little bit to play with untill that day they would block my account happened. Not much later, it happened and i saw no way out for make my dream reality, i had to wait until i was 21. I was 19 at that moment. I had no motivation to go back to school or do any work.
I told my family what happened with those sites, but i told them i could still play on much smaller sites and it would be ok, i told them i can still make almost as much as before. ( they thought i could make around 2000-5000 every month)
I took the easy way out and just lied to all my family, poker is going great, oh i can make this much money or this much and i never have any losing month.
I actually just had no motivation to play anymore on these small sites and the software was so bad. I just played games on my xbox360 all day, seeing free movie streams online and jerking off before going to sleep. My shedule was pretty crazy, i lived mostly in night and slept most part of the day.
I told my family i had to do like this because i can make much more money in night as there are more people playing those times. They believed me and i just did my thing.
I did get started on partypoker and had a slow start from basically no money again. I managed to play up to the $33 stakes over a time frame of like 3months and i had once again and ok bankroll of about 3000-4000.
Obviously i let my family know i had way more than that and they believed me and supported me in what i did.
It is now half March and my life is about the change.
I decided to take a 1 month trip to Thailand and u can read the love story in my first post.
I will keep it short and tell the key moments in thailand(LOL no, i will give u a wall of pics and text!!).
I went to chiang mai March till april and stayed alone in a nice apartment called, galare thong. It was very nice and here is a picture from it,
Price around $250 a month. Which looks great value to me.
I came in touch with online dating (thaifriendly.com) for having someone to talk wih online and for learning more places i could go to.
I brought myself a nice suit ( first one ever) , took some pics and posted it online.
I got a lot of responds very quickly and many beautiful girls showed interest and told me how handsome i was. I felt really good of myself and i liked it.
Even tough i had low confidence of myself and never thought i was really handsome or anything special.
But it definetely gave me more confidence in myself and that was great. I did not work for the entire month and just chatted daily with the girls i liked from online and stayed most of the time in my room or go swimming. Till 1 week before my 1 month is finished, I meet the woman who i still in love with every day.
We had a great time together and it was the first sexual experience of my life.
I met some of her friends and had a great time.
When i was back in my home country, our relation had a lot of struggels, but we came through it after a long wait even we only meet eachother for 1 week in real.
Moneywise i spoiled here like a princess in that week and did not had much money left when i came back.
The soon i made any money, i sended it to her so she could buy the iphone 5 she wanted it so much. I wanted to see her happy as she could never afford things like this. She accepted the stuff i bought for her as i made her know that i could make a lot of money every month from poker and i could afford it with no problem. She obviously had no idea about the truth.
2nd time i came to thailand was in december 2013 for 1 month again.
I rented a apartment for 1 month, called Central hill place. Which was just terrible. pics looked great, had a nice swimmingpool.
When we arrived, the swimmingpool was dirty and not working, the staff was super impolite and the room was dirty and nothing like the pics.
We decided to just stay that place and ignore it.
Of course as her and her family being so religious christian protestant people, we had to marry if we want to stay together. I talked about it, at first i told her i wanted to wait. She and her family told me, if u really love this woman and want be with her, u have to marry her. I felt not ready at all for marry, as marrying also cost a lot of money, i did not have. Eventually i just said ok and was able to delay the wedding till 28december 2013 and her family accepted it. I thought that time, it's still 1 year to give me enough time for make money and maybe the relation will fall anyway or i found a way to not marry that fast.
So i just accepted it, i did not want any problems at that time and took her on a very nice weekend trip to Phu pai. Booked a very expensive resort, called Phu Pai Art resort. Obviously rented the honeymoon suite and balling out of control. Some pics,
I engaged her that weekend and already had bought a ring before we went to Phu Pai.
It's newyears eve and we planning on going for a nice dinner together and go out dancing and drinking. Plans changed when we drove with our motorbike and saw a dog crippled on the street between driving carsat high speed. The dog could get hit any moment and die sure. So we decided to stop and bring this dog to safety and bring it to our apartment and then to dog hospital in the morning as her leg was broken for sure already.
We found the owner of this dog after my gf posted pics on the internet. the owner was an old lady and was very happy we brought her dog back to her. She explained her dog ran away cause fear from the firework
We had a great month together and were in love and learned more about eachother. I really love this woman and and i could she she is in love too.
Pic of apartment that month.
Looked great, but was just terrible in real with ugly wall paper.
$300 a month
In that month we also went to the beach and rented a nice house close to the beach and it was a great time.
When we drove back we stopped to see some nice nature in the mountains.
Obviously we did a lot more things, but i will keep it with that.
It's the end of my month in chiang mai and i had to go back to my home country.
I would not see her until April 2013.
In that period she had her final exams. She needed a laptop so she could do her homework faster en it would help her a lot. I sended her some money for a new macbook air as it could be useful for me too when we back together as a backup laptop.
Also around that time, pokerstars had send me my money that was locked up from Black friday. it was a nice boost to my roll.
Obviously i had to prepare my trip to thailand again as it was now for very long time. Got my visum, bought some expensive clothes and other stuff and i was ready to go.
It was 3 April and looking forward to meet my love again. I meet her in chiang mai to have songkran together with her. It was a lot of fun.
We stayed in chiangmai 2weeks and lived at her mom house, big difference to what i was used to... I spended so much money on stuff we didnt needed. Around $1500 i would guess for like 2weeks. taking her out everyday for nice meals, bought tons of stuff on markets, payed for family dinner, and so on ... I was just keep being stupid and saying yes to everything she liked.
Then headed to Bangkok, as her university was almost finish, i would stay in bangkok for a month and half, play some poker on a very small site in the mean while.
I would see her in evening or in weekend.
I stayed in most expensive area from bangkok which was kind of annoying and my apartment was way overpriced. At $600 for a month it had the same value as $250 in chiang mai. The name of the place was sathorn terrace.
Please stay away from this place as they will overcharge u for electricity. i had an electricity bill of 200 dollar and i was shocked and talked with the owner and explained he is a scammer and i not pay that money and would call the police. My gf was annoyed by all this and i talked with the owner for long time. He got nervous as he know i outsmarted him. he quickly dropped the price to around $100-$150. i was still not ok, but this guy was just not giving up and i was not in the mood for calling the police, so i paid him that amount and gave him some bad reviews afterwise. ( normal electricity bill at 6-7baht a unit is like somewhere between $30-$60 for a small apartment and single aircon.
Not much else to tell about my stay in Bangkok, it's pretty annoying as way too much traffic, even hotter than chiang mai and more expensive and always have to use bts or taxi to get somewhere.
I basically stayed most of my time in room playing a bit poker on Unibet, i was able to make $750 playing only couple hours at peak times as there was almost no traffic most of the day.
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I ran super ridiculous bad at HU stage from 6max turbo games, but managed to make an ok profit. ( big downswing in the end is the part of many disconnects.)
Going back to chiang mai, i was happy to go back and we went back with airplane.
Stayed 2weeks of May at her mother house again, to get closer with the family. Small house and lots of bugs also got stinged inside the house by a scorpion, damn that hurt, luckily not for very long.
Her family all likes me and they all know the truth about me( they knew it later on at the same time my gf knew it), i started out looking high and baller, but eventually they were the ones who had to help me here and there. We are talking about like cooking a meal for us.
She has a nice happy family and they are glad she has me as her bf, them always having fun with me about trying to say funny thai words.
In that time she wanted us to have a motorbike, she always wanted a vespa. I always told her maybe. It was her dream, she wanted it so bad. I looked at my bank, and i saw around $1500 left. I told her ok, but after this, we stop to spend money so much. she said ok honey.
I bought her the vespa with $1200 down payment, which she payed $300.
She was so happy, but i was not very happy with the money i had left. It's my fault. I dont blame her anything for wanting to have that and that. I told her i had money enough and it's no problem. Of course woman will react like this.
We then rented a nice apartment, called baan win rada, very good value and very kind owner. It was the best apartment so far and the cheapest. It was basicly 2 seperate bedrooms with each a bathroom and then 1 shared living room and kitchen. But we were the only people renting that bedroom on that floor, so we had all livingroom and kitchen for ourself. Which looked pretty baller and was very stylish and modern.
Looked actually better in real than on pictures, link;
http://www.agoda.com/asia/thailand/c...n_winrada.html
After unibet had some weird bug and made me have a lot of disconnects this month, i was pretty annoyed and found intertops poker. I had a rakeback deal and started grinding on intertops. Woow i ran like God on that site, but there was little traffic and had to play mostly double or nothings. I won money every day and made enough to pay the bills.
Its now somewhere around June and i did not have much money left after paying all the bills and still spoiling her to much and our dog.
I couldnt afford this apartment anymore as the security deposit for that place was twice the price of the apartment, which mean paying for 3months rent, but getting 2months back when checking out after that month.
I had to tell my gf about the situation, i told her we need to save more if we want to marry and have a house later as I told her i had to play smaller sites and i told her all what happened that i can't make much money anymore till i would be 21. I tell her, dont worry after im 21, it will all be ok which was only 1 more month.
We then passed a new build apartment building close to her werk when we were driving. I'm not telling the name of this apartment as i want to keep private and don't reveal my identity.
The place came like a gift from heaven and it was exactly what i needed to survive and rebuild. At a monthly rent cost of $100 + electricty and water for $30.
It looked like sick value and never thougth would find this in Chiang mai. the owners are a old couple who have many apartments and not care much about money, they love what they're doing.
I will show pics to u of this place inside when room is cleaned up a bit, it's very messy right now and having dog piss all over the place, that i will clean as soon as im finish writing. ( gf is at work now )
We also got a new shi tzu last month at 3months old, as the owner could not take care of it and gave it to us, my gf has a big heart for dogs and could not refuse it.
This our new member to the family, she call Melody or nickname Dee-Dee, we have another dog of 1year, his name is Salapao, nickname Pao-Pao.
So it is 5July, whoohoo, i think i made it and i thought i could immediately start grinding again with the little money i had left for play poker. It started bad, my account had some bugs after reopening and after sending emails back and forth. Everything was ok at 13July.
I could start playing, i immediately started 20+ tabling STT at $3.5 level and i ran ridiculous. Switched to 18man games mostly and knockout games a bit too. Bad beat after bad beat, i couldn't believe what was happening, took a shot at $7, i ran even worse. I reviewed my game and could only blame bad beats and bad card distrubution. I was emotionaly so down and sad and think this is the end. What i can do know. Even i only played 1500 games in 2weeks. It felt there was no end to it. I never experienced a bad luck stretch like this at such easy to beat stakes.
Me and my gf were crying to sleep couple of nights as i told her everything and explained her how i became in this situation. I also told her all about the lies i told my family. Shen then told it to her family and they understanded it and would help me if needed in a way then can.
She also immediately wanted to help me and did some extra work, she started giving english class for kids and made some stuff with hand and sold it. But it didn't help us much as we had some bills to pay each month, but im very thankful today she is trying to help me as much as she can and support me with giving me a lot of love and motivation. She is 1 in a million for real.
Luckily my family sended me some money for my birthday, which helped me pay the bills.
I dont blame her anything she wanted a lot of stuff before as she didn't know the truth about me, not having much money. I always thought it's ok i pay for her, i can make that money in no time from poker when i can play on pokerstars again.
But a terrible start made it only worse and made me as of today a very poor farang trying to get out of it and i believe i can do if i have to sell my macbook and maybe some other stuff. The ring will be sold if really really needed...
I will get back on the grind soon. Here are some more pictures
( them like to go outside, he not hurt when carried like this, he like it a lot and for carry in bicycle is pretty soft and is ok too for only 1km.)
My football team, we won btw. My physique is so bad, as a result of staying locked in my room for so long and not doing any exercise.
Some of the kids i help my gf teach every sunday. they all very happy to see me every week.
And for last,
That's it, pics of room will follow later.
I made quiet some time writing this while i should been grinding. I will grind soon and can follow me.
My ps screenname; LittleBigBet