Yeah. Sometimes is hard to accept.

Hey guys,

I managed to fix my schedule so I can get more sleep. Now I have time and energy for a lot of stuff.
So I can go through this storm with lower stakes and better sleep.

I played 1k games since my last post. I have to recalibrate some stuff, fix some leaks and focus on my schedule and what I can control.



5+10$ stake


only 10$ stake


GL and sleep well!

Another week in hell. I simply don`t know what to do anymore. -600$ at 5-10$ in 6 days with table selection. It`s ****ing impossible to win



Maybe I should really consider moving to another platform or to cash

Hang in there bro.
There is a reason that 200 Buyins is recommended as a standard.
I did 100 BI and still busted even though I have tons of experience and is good.

What is your ABI in MTTS?
Honestly my advice is to give up STTs.
Look up your opponents on pokerprolabs.com and if they all are good chuck away STTs forever and stay with MTTs.

And forget about cash everyone is drawing dead in mid stakes..
Once again, hang in there I feel you.
Feel free to visit my journal if you vicariously want to feel absolute misery and ecstacy

Calm.

The worse runs are going to happen. Great ones too.

Showing up and playing is a win. Stay on course despite detours and roadblocks.

AIEV looks really good. Variance takes no prisoners. You are not special.

Thanks guys!


Yeah, 200 buyins for hypers+turbos and combined stakes should be standard.
@ChanY I can`t play long MTTs with my schedule and I prefer shorter session.

Starting today I will play fewer tables and less hypers. This will help me be more aware at the tables, give me more time to think and react, relax a bit, enjoy the game more and increase my EV.

GL!

I was going to say if you dont want to go through this there is an easy solution, beat another format enough to where variance isnt as horrific, hypers is just asking for trouble. Comparing my hyper games to my any other structure games is night and day, winrates are low and swings are massive. Changing formats/not playing hypers sounds smart but what do you mean by changing platform? (It sounds like ur saying its rigged, but im not sure haha)

Its not impossible to win, you have won plenty before no? Its impossible to make variance do what we want but you do control how much of it you are willing to take on, if that makes sense. Play less tables, stop focusing on how bad ur doing and focus only on what can you do to help decrease variance/stress/anything bad (focus on what can you control, and youll notice thats how u start to gain control of the things that are outside of your control, such as variance. If u gain more edge variance becomes less taunting, so focus on the gain more edge part rather than the this is bottom x % run part). And trust me i know it sounds alot easier than it is, just giving you some advice that i had to give myself when i had similar stretches & struggles.

EDIT: A huge stress inducer for me was when i was not winning for a long time in mtts and not doing great financially, so if money is a stress-factor i think its close to impossible to stay in a sound mindset whilst losing every day.
Gl

Yeah, hypers and MTTs variance is insane. And yes, money is a stress-factor, but I have a few backups as I said at the beinning. Living from month to month is kinda hard and I depend on the poker winnings. Playing lower stakes takes a lot of the stess and playing fewer tables is more fun, but at the end of the month I still have to pay my rent.
I`ll focus on playing well at lower stakes this month, put in the hours and reassess the situation at the end of the month.
Thanks for the advice!

GL!

Hey guys,

I had 3 good days of grinding. It`s possible to run over EV.
Looks like I found my flow with less tables. I can be more aware at the tables and I have a lot of time to look at stats, notes and stuff.
I will add a few 25$ games with rigorous table selection.
My weekly challenge is complete and now I can enjoy 1-2 days off.
The plan for the near future is to keep going like this, with less tables and I`ll start studying more blind vs blind play.





GL!

Hey guys,

Today was a tilting day.
-stars challenges don`t work. I started grinding with 400ish points and after 2 hours of play I had only 300
-took some shots at 25$. played 15 games and bubbled 8.

Looks like I have to create a rule for taking shots.
I will only play 4 games of 25$/day, max 100$ loss. If I get ITM from this 4 games I can add more considering that max 100$ loss.


GL!

My target is to play 3k SNGs a month. I dont look at EV or $$ at all during the month. I only look at a handful of selected freq to make sure Im doing my bit right. Rest takes care of itself.

I remember you said this before but I coudn`t do it, even though I know this it`s the right way. First I wanted to say I have to check my bankroll because I only have 2k in the cashier and I`m taking shots at 25$, but I realised this exaplanation will be an excuse. So, I will not play 25$ for the rest of the week and won`t look at the cashier and stats. Just focus on grinding and be more relaxed.

GL!

I`m also cutting down hypers. Lost 140 buyins at 10$, with table selection, like it`s nothing




It`s a ****ing nightmare!

I got my challenge reset 3 times in 2 days. In General pokersites forum someone talked about new rakeback system starting Jan 2024.

Complete the amount of rake needed and write to support. They know about the problem and maybe you can reason with them. They are ussualy open on fixing this kinda stuff.

I heard something about a new rakeback system, but the date and format is unclear. Let s hope it s better and helps the players and the traffic. A part of me is optimistic because it sounds as a good thing, but since the Amaya takeover, I haven t seen good news for the players.

Another week in hell. I simply don`t know what to do anymore, this is outrageous.
I`m starting to ask myself why am I playing this rigged game....

Focusing only on the things u cant controll buddy. My last session i ran 19bb under ev and i didnt even notice until i was looking for something else. Id strongly suggest you dont look at your ev and if ur under because its just a way to feel better and confirming how extremely unlucky you are, taking away your focus from what you should focus on, improvement.

Wish you the best, but you gotta fix that mindset man.

It's true, this is a shitty mindset I have to get out of.
For the start, I will not use this forum to complain anymore.
The reality is not that bad, even with all the run bad I m still winning this month with the rakeback.
This week I'll focus on playing well, doing my schedule and not checking ev/cashier. After that I can take a well deserved week off.

GLGL!

Hey guys,

Monthly update:
Played 4350 game
Profit post-rakeback: +1010$

The 65% rakeback helped me get over this bad run. I`m glad I didn`t go bust with this victim mindset. I`m working on it.

Cutting down tables, stakes and hypers also helped.

I`m excited for the next year and for the coming changes on stars rakeback system.

I`m taking a week off to relax, get better sleep and recharge after this weird year.

Next year I`m prepared to put a lot of work into poker and become one of the best SNG players.




all stakes


10$+ stakes


Happy holidays and GL!

What details do we know atm about the rakeback changes? I read nothing revealed until mid/late jan

No details that I know. More flexibility and probably lower than 65% rakeback. I`ll be really happy with a 50-60% rakeback and a more flexible yearly "challenge" or something.

Happy new year!

I started the year with some tilt because I tried some hypers and 25$ games. I have to avoid this especially now when I m going to rough times, so 0 hypers or 25$ until the new rakeback program.
Just need to get some small wins at 5-10$ turbo to get my confidence up again and relearn to enjoy the game.
Also only looking at EV and cashier once a week.

GL!

Hey guys,

Started the year with tilt but it`s time to stop this cycle of complaining and negativity.
Even though I ran bad, I only lost 50$ish if I calculate rakeback, so not that bad.




I also made a written plan to get back and crush the games. In 2024 I want to be in top 30 SNGs players and in 2025 in top 10.
A summary of what am I going to do:
1. regular sleeping program
2. 1 hour/day of learning (5days/week) and a a session of at least 2 hours/week when I dive deeper. 10 hands review at the beginning and end of session.
3. weekly schedule for playing and focusing on good play, not results.
4. pull-ups and meditation before each session. I`m already doing this for a couple of months.
5. cooking. It`s healthier, cheaper and helps with the extra fat. I`m already doing this but I want to improve and order less. I`ll not focus on losing kilos because I`m in shape right now. Just focus on eating healthy and exercise.
6. walk outside at least 30 min/day. BTW the hour set for review will be on a walking pad/standing desk.
7. process loss in a healthier way, not by avoiding it.
8. maybe this should be first: stop complaining, accept and acknowledge what I can and can`t control.

So, my bakroll is around 1400 now and I will only play 5-10$ turbos. I have money to live for 1-2 weeks. If I can`t make profit in 1-2 weeks, I`ll close my private pension for 4k and I`ll have around 2-3 months for living expenses. Next step will be to sell my car wich will give me 6-9 months of living expenses. I`m set until the end of the year and I can focus on improving and playing.

Let`s go!

Hows the grind going ?

Hey,

The same.





I`ll stop posting EV


GL