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sunday was.... interesting. I have learned a decent bit today both about the donkaments i played and myself as well as done some thinking about the future. this post is probably gonna end up a decent sized ramble so feel free to scroll down and enjoy some booties
goals, goals, goals!
I ve not really set myself the shortterm goals i was planning on doing on a weekly basis. I have come to realize that this is a BIG problem as just randomly plugging away at whatever i am currently playing is just not the most productive way to go about things. I often tend to preach to others that laziness is not some kind of sickness one cant control. its a choice of life. and a bad one at that. I used to say that i m a lazy f*ck and it has gotten me to where i am at right now but tbh i could be so much further in the direction i want to go if i just pushed myself a little harder and worked more. I m not gonna make promises but i will try my hardest to set and follow weekly goals starting tonight!
cash vs donkaments
I ve recently really enjoyed grinding those donkaments and after some reflection i have come up with th following reasons which having figured them out will serve as a starting point for my goal setting further down this post:
-donkaments force me to grind.: in cash i ve kind of fallen into this routine of only playing when i feel like it. while i think forcing myself to grind is absolutely not good i think i ve used this approach as an excuse not to grind harder. while studying is absolutely important studying all by itself wont make me any money if i dont put what i learn into practice. i think having no other option but focus on the grind when playing donkaments has refueled my hunger for volume a bit.
-monotony: while i absolutely love cashgames for the in depth thought processes as well as the big edges and the low variance i have probably just spent a tad too much time following the same ol routine and ive maybe in some way shape or form burnt out. focussing on sth new for a change definitely gets the juices flowing again and forcess me to learn poker from a whole new perspective. never a bad thing
-variance: after i came back to cash from hypers in december (having experienced variance from its very very ugly side running 130BI below ev) i started looking at cash from an absolutely different perspective and immediately began crushing at more than 10bb/100. since december i doubt i have had a session worse than maybe -5BI in cash. obviously when i hit a rougher patch at 100nl that felt really odd. clearing my head a little and then coming back to cash hungry to crush is what the following goals will be aiming to achieve (also MTT variance will be a good way to toughen me up mentally):
goals for the week of march 25th-31st
[ ] 40hours : 5x 8hr sessions seems very doable given i ve played 10hr+ sessions almost every time i played donkaments
[ ] study up on my ICM: while i think grinding is the best way to improve i understand i suck at ICM and things like that and i deffo want to keep finding new things to learn
[ ] quality over quantity: i wanna keep the table count at 15 or less. today i eclipsed 22 tbls for like an hour which deffo isnt the best thing in the world
[ ] get a decent chair and another screen: very important now that i am settled and looking to stay in this place until likely next may
and probably most importantly:
[ ] come up with a schedule: ideally i wanna make a grind schedule that structures my week in a very efficient manner. in order to avoid the problems i ve recently had with grinding cash i wanna have a balance both inside and outside of poker. what i mean by this is balancing both donkaments and cash (grind and strat obv) and balancing poker with having a life outside of poker which includes at least one day off, cooking regularly
including salads fruit and müsli bars, working out, meeting ppl, painting, clubbing etc. i will try and get this schedule done on
tuesday which i ll probably make my fre day of the week.
i say most importantly because all my life i have refused to live by schedules. i ve always hated getting up in the morning i ve always hated dusting my room i ve always been late to any kind of appointments. the problem is obvious: being such a turd has not gained me ANYTHING. and this has to stop. I wanna get shi*t done this year and i wont get anything done if i dont organize my life. Poker is my business and its about time i start treating it as such!
the plan for this week is to grind MTTs and 180s hard, learn a bunch and make a schedule then start mixing both cash and MTTs in the way i find the most beneficial for my overall poker balance.
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summary of sunday:
i played what likely was the biggest donkament schedule i have ever played in terms of number of tournaments played. i feel like i have definitely improved a TON over the last few days finding many spots that would have gone unnoticed earlier as well as making good folds. things are definitely coming together. if only the results were as good
i got a ton of deep stacks going in the MM main, in the Bigger $11 and a $8.8 FO and a few others only to get sucked out on really nastily for top 10 stacks. not gonna go on about how bad i ran as whats much more important is the way i dealt with those beats. i played from 5pm until about 4-5am with practically no breaks and played what i think was a very solid game throughout. dropped $300 on the day though (rain)
I ve done some database work and it turns out most of this weeks losses have come in turbo MTTs from basically running like aids.
heres my overall MTT graph in bb:
and here s the turbos only graph:
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enough rambling for now. i do have a few more thoughts wrt MTTs and 100nl and scheduling and balance but this has already gotten totally out of hand so lets do some savers and go to sleep: