It’s kind of weird cuz I don’t actually play that much in the best of times. Think if I look at net playing times when I feel good I get barely more than 35 hours weekly so it’s not exactly burn out
I think it s triggered in many different ways such as lack of sunshine, bad mood/ fights with close ones etc. honestly, it funnily enough feels like having had a three month heater my mental game went to complete **** cuz I had two losing sessions and this is all I can think of that has happened this time around.
Have been having weeks like this throughout my career and this time was the first time I allowed myself to relax on day 3 - used to take me longer to get rid of the internal pressure to grind which has been the thing keeping these periods so long in the past.
I just have this thing where I know I m literally not capable of playing more than the above hours without crashing yet I feel lazy whenever I skip a session. It’s mostly due to knowing a bunch of guys who legit don’t do anything BUT grind, putting in 45, 50 even 60 hours week after week and I guess I m kind of competitive in that way or to put it differently: since starting poker I have always felt the pressure to get to a certain amount of savings ASAP bc everybody keeps saying how poker is dying and get yours while you can etc. and tbh I am quite far from the point of being able to say I have made “enough” to where I can tune down my grind volume and reduce the pressure.
Writing this out, this is starting to feel like a pretty deep rooted issue including my parents etc haha
But ya I ve just come to the point of knowing when this type of drive is unhealthy. That, and knowing that I can make a very good living grinding at the pace and volume that I can. These two are pretty helpful.
If poker does tomorrow it would obv be pretty bleak but I don’t really see this drying up anytime soon