played an evening session little over 1600 hands, evenings are quite sick in comparison, lots of tilty degens. Ran quite bad at 1/2 while 0,5/1 went fine, +300bb while being 200bb below EV and the pots that affected my EV-giraphe was pretty much the 3 flips I lost at 1/2 so in the end I lost a bit of money today but not much. Just somewhat annoying because I had position @ three 1/2 tables on a multitabling regfish that usually sprout money to me

Tomorrow my coaching starts, my database is gonna get picked apart. I just hope I have enough hands for him to gather anything useful from it, I am afraid the sample is kinda small as ive also made som serious adjustments over these past few weeks and months. I have pretty much tried everything from not having a 3betting range, limping a bunch, playing like 24/18 and now im for the moment playing something around 34/26. I tend to play closer to 40/30 on the 0,5/1 tables and nit it up a bit more on the 1/2 as they punish me way to much but my avg ends up around forementioned.

Coaching
today I recieved 1,5hours of coaching from a great player. I do not want to go into great specifics/superdetails(no worries, no ghosting/sweating or any bull**** like that) on how he worked with me but it felt great and was a great experience. I have a pretty lacking database though as I haven´t gathered a huge sample yet which made it fairly pointless to do certain stuff. However he did spot some major leaks that will drastically improve my bb/100 when fixed. He also improved my HUD aswell and we basically just sat in HEM2+flopzilla for 1,5 hours straight. He firmly believe in equipping his students with the proper "tools"/guiding them into a problemsolving manner which in short can translate into = (when "guessing game" feeling occurr - break the situation down by breaking your range down into combos and figure it out) Instead of just "laying down the truth" as in saying this and this do that and that.... works shortterm but you really do not get a deeper understanding obviously. When put down enough hours dissecting situations by either working with CR-EV, flopzilla or the template I will eventually(hopefully) be confident in my range that situations where you end up feeling lost, basically idontknowwtfimdoing.gif situation will be nonexistant when I am confident with my ranges. Pokerplayers are lazy by nature and developing this pattern/this aproach is hard when you really do not know where to begin, but I got handheld through a few examples w/ this template and through flopzilla and now if I am not lazy I will be able to figure situations out by numbercrunching them, breaking down ranges into combos and on my own try to balance these combos.

Tough work ahead but I am very excited . I really need to start focusing on situations where I feel lost and figure them out instead of just looking at the big pots.

A shorter session after coaching, where I only got 250 hands in before daughter´s horseback ridingschool. Went b/e but felt game was good and my new HUD is hard as **** for the moment, I wager it would take me atleast 10 more sessions of 3 hours each before I get somewhat fluent with processing the on screen information. It is oowerful though, that much I can see. I have always used a pretty simple HUD, colorcoded in a different way aswell so just that is a bit of a pickle.

Also removed bb/100 and everything else that can give me a tell on how it´s going in HEM2. Challenge to self is to survive this week without looking@results. The pokerclients cashiers will be the hardest. YOLO

update;

played another 250 hands just to train myself at HUD-reading. Won a little(it´s hard to NOT keep track of wether im atleast winning or not.

Not looking at results is a ******ed way to try and better yourself. The right way is to stop CARING about results. Avoiding them is just creating new problems for yourself.

it's like having a rapist binding his hands together. Sure he wont rape women when hes out but he'll still have the same underlying issues.

^true, but its hard to stop caring right away. I like to see myself more of a pony! Eventually I will be able to chill in the pen without the electricity on. Its a quick fix but not a cure.


STEPPING STONE BABY! A LEAP ONLY KILLS ME

Look into tapping. Its a physical process that is used on people who suffer from PTSD with much better results than anything else and it can be applied to any kind of fear/stress.

Will do. Played ~2200 hands today and it could have been a pretty big day if I had not been unlucky/runned in the few hands of HU i got while being on the "real grind". Stakes are a bit uneven in that fashion so a few dozen HU hands can thrash a otherwise great result sadly. I ran great though in the 5max games especially on the bigger blinds (2/4 and 1/2) which is always something I enjoy!

Overall it was still a good day and I hope they keep coming, still working on my leaks we spotted , I fall into "leakmode" so fast when im not consciously thinking about it. WORK WORK

got in 1600 hands today, recorded both my sessions to review together with my coach. Won 5 bi or so on the first session, lost 8bi on my second so he´s gonna see me run good and run bad. Not doctored as in picking my best EGOboosting session or crap like that. Ugly naked truth. This is gonna be real embarrassing next week to look over, some pretty lolesque spots here and there. I´ll better bring my pillow to the computer so I can hide my shame in it

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day off. I was completely exhausted and felt drained when I woke up this morning, got the kids to kindergarten barely, had not brushed my own teeth, no socks in my shoes but the kids got there, clothed, clean and stomachs filled up ready to rock. Myself I went to the store in order to pick some food up to prepare for a early lunch as I did not have any time for a breakfast of my own, just giving. After my planned lunch I was going to hit the tables but I ended up crawling back to bed without eating with a thick nose and a massive headache. Woke up several hours later of really bad sleep, did some things around home, and made some errands for me and for a friend.

wife(well not really a wife on paper, but I will call her my wife regardless, simplicity I guess.) picked the kids up today as she got off earlier. She spotted that I was a bit off my game today and let me be, relaxing and chilling whilst waiting for dinner and after that she sent me off to the movies. Went with her brother and saw a long anticipated movie, "guardians of the galaxy". Very easygoing "avengers"-esque kind of flick, lots of laughs. Perfect when my brain was kinda slow.

Hoping for a better tomorrow, want to plow some hands and record some stuff for my coach and finish the month a little in the green wouldn't hurt Just one of those days,.. happens time to time, a bit more often in the fall.

Short session this morning as great HU action kept popping up so I sat out on the 5max tables in order to focus on these solely. Ran good, so it was a okay day $-wise. Not to many hands though, (500) Shorthanded stood for about 200 of these. I will play later tonight as I have alot of errands and familyshopping to do today.

Soon the month is over and I can look at my beloved giraphes once again!

^followed it up with another 2200 hands during a nightly session(rare occasions for me). I think I won a fair bit, not sure though as I got lots of action everywhere and won some lost some etc. Tilted like a maniac for 1hour though which sucks dick. Id estimate I lost about $1k there, it was some wierd kind of coffeine boost+tired head that made me go into some serious autopilot merged with úberspewmode. I did not look at my hud even once and so forth.

managed to quit, take a break, and come back stronger though. Yay me

Monthly wrapup
So, I was pretty excited for this, as I haven´t tried to keep track of the results this last week and tbh I have been pretty good at it. Not gonna play tomorrow as I got some errands and promises to hold up so here it goes.

My 5max results this month, only 0,5/1 and 1/2 as I selfbanned myself from any 2/4+ game even though the ones running was juicy with epic fish and surely +EV for me, I just need to focus on becoming comfortable with my own game instead of lobbychasing. I have filtered players to 5 and up, sadly it didnt add up into that many hands, games break ALL the time or go 4-handed / 3-handed. This particular giraphe is interesting though because you CLEARLY see at which point I got my first coachingsession as the results did not wait, he spotted some pretty big leaks by just looking at my HEM-database and the numbers within it.



My whole giraphe with all the games, HU, 3max, 4handed, 5handed and so forth. Ran really icky first part of the month as you can see along with some tilt in the mix. Managed to steer the ship around and book a small month atleast.



going to war next month, hopefully 40k+ hands. I wont be getting my next(second) coaching session until next week, but that gives me more time to record videos and work on my game atleast. A few hand histories have been discussed and basically every single one of them have been totally butchered in his eyes so there is plenty of room for work

That would be all boys, now im removing all my giraphes and $/EV/bb100 results from HEM2 again! It feels great not being able to see exactly how it goes and basically spam "F5'ing" HEM2 during play.

yea, cliffnotes of todays session, 1800 hands. Got a big HU-game against a epic fish who donated 2 bullets, got the standard hit and runs on iPoker and won a little on the shorthanded games, overall a GREAT day with $1+/hand. OCTOBER BRING IT!

--- slow day , as it is the last day before GREEN OCTOBER. Just wanted to chime in and say that I probably will spend the day watching videos, looking at hands and doing some theory/reading. And that i won about 900 euro on untracked ringgames aswell over at a hudbanned network.

$20k month? ONE TIME

Not decided yet how I am gonna update in the future, with regards to giraffes and such. Weekly? Monthly only? Leaning towards weekly as I am so eager to see results, a month is a tricking long time to wait, especially since I'm in "development".

Anyway, played slightly over 2k hands today, and hopefully I can keep somewhat of a pace up for the whole of October, that would be awesome. Got some higher HU-action today swell which is always nice.

Been thinking a lot about multiway pots lately, especially when its preflop. A situation I encounter often that I really do not have the slightest idea what to do is when I am given AQo in the big blind and btn opens and smallblind 3bets before I'm talking, now these positions that it occurred on today are much nicer to my hand since their range are wider here than on most other spots but it is still annoying as I sometimes even want to fold thus making all 3 options available. Smallblind had an overall 8% 3bet on my sample and not one 3bet in the small blind vs button however it was only over 700 hands.

A few other weird spots today that I promised myself to look at but I guess I forgot about it. meh. Tomorrow.

played 1580 hands today(tracked) and of these 1300 were 5max, played a little on a untracked site aswell. Just gonna keep tabs on how much money im up/down by the end of the month, but im basically putting in about 300 hands a day or so there so not huge portion of my total play. I ran like GOD today, and im not even exaggerating the slightest. I now have gotten a glimpse of how it mustve been for durrrr up 2004 to late 2009 when he ran into Isildur.

Won a flip on the biggest stakes today, won TT vs AA preflop AI, won a bunch of regular lowstakes flips and the ugliest was me spazzing out completely on a 2 8c Tc board in a 3bet pot with J9ss getting it in against a raise and sucking out on topset Felt so bad for him but the IRL fistpump was obviously there.

Eager for sunday to see my AI-EV lol

What I would like to know is what your goals are for the rest of the year.

Amount won?
Hours played?
1RM bench/squat and so on.

And then I also want to confirm with your that your are gluten free of course.

Yearly I do not have any goals because my year is total **** anyway and I would not reach any goal ive set if I set one now because anything reachable is a defeat in itself .

Hours dont know, but im increasing my volume overall and im aiming at 40k+ hands this month. I just want to focus on being a winning player on the stakes im currently at and take it from there.


bench - all this pokers ****ed my training up, so consumed with it it takes all my spare time. My PR is 225lbs/100kg and im probably hovering at 209/95kg now with one week or two in me, id have no problem with putting 198/90kg in current state, probably even with without any strengthtechnique and pause at the bottom. Im happy if i put up 225lbs again by the end of the year and take it from there.
Squat - Same story different numbers, ATG PR is weak 264lbs/120kg, probably only does 242/110kg now if that. So much "YOLO no FEAR" in squatting imo .
Deadlift - 374lbs/170kg probably pulls 352lbs/160kg pretty easy.
Overhead press - being my worst of all by far, secondly being squats obviously if you look at my overall strength as im severly lacking in that department compared to upperbody strength. PR being 62,5 or 65kg (143 lbs or so) without push, I think im trailing at 121/55kg or lower now.

I eat gluten, lots of it. But mainly because im not dieting for the moment, im skipping most glutenproducts when cutting weight, however not cutting and having kids makes skipping it altogether there aswell hard. I enjoy the moments where im sitting with the kids and having a "kvällsfika rostat med oboy" (evening toast with chocolate milk). They are very talkative and expressing themself/woundering alot about life and stuff in general when sitting down during the evening and slowing down a bit. Dark outside and a candle or two on the kitchen table lit makes it some epic quality time. It´s a nice preparer for bedtime since its quite soothing in a pleasant way.

quick update, 1100(tracked) hands today. Didn't play that well, but I keep on running like god so that certainly makes up for it. Resultswise I'm not really sure, but I know that I at least won, but I am also quite certain it was a great win. Starting to rack up a nice roll on the untracked site aswell har-har.

edit: gonna be a slow weekend (poker volume), the mother of my children works long hours tonight, saturday and sunday so I'm gonna be pretty exhausted from superdadding it up. Slow night tonight but gonna plan something for saturday and sunday so we just don't slouch around for two days.

laters!

man, this yearly bottalk is really depressing, especially this time. Leaks of some nGTO HU-bot and the partybots. I hate doomsday threads as it scares the F out of me.

/not had a job ever

i play mostly vs bots day in and out, its not that bad. As long as you dont play the same every session they cant outthink you

you keep a very balanced mix of trolling/seriousness dont you

Yesterday I had an 2,5 hour coaching session. We watched some recorded pokervideos of me playing, I had prepared like 1,5 hour footage but we only got 17 minutes deep before we were both kinda exhausted. Appearantly I am somewhat of a "MTT-donk" in playstyle, I randomly decide that this and that is a good spot to 3bet with total disregard to what actual hand im doing it with whilst my frequencies on paper(from hud) looks allaround balanced and decent but in reality its totally blown to ****. That is funny because it basically, means that im folding alot of medium strength type of hands and even upper tier hands because I somehow end up with doing crap with stuff that isnt even in close proximity of my ranges. There is ALOT of better hands that when called/played back at got much more equity. As an example, lets say I got a 18% 3bet on the small blind vs the CO or btn. In the footage I was seen 3betting 64o in this spot for no reason, I got LOTS of other hands in a 18% range that is much better, blocks more stuff and plays better when called than ****ing 64o lol

It´s like im folding the midtier chunk of hands in poker to go in balls deep with the absolute bottom and the top. Sitting with rangecharts open now and tries to "edge off" my deeper spazzy behaviour, work it in my unconscious knowledge so to speak. The removal of huds is basically so I do not talk myself into doing unorthodox stuff that is similar to what ive always been doing because some fish is doing something bad, I need to get a better default preflop game before moving forward.

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todays session went really well aswell, about 1200 hands and half of it was on 2/4. I am really excited about poker and I love every minute of that feeling!

2k hands today stuck a little but less than 150bb. 1900+ being 3max/5handed as I did not get any HU games today besides a endboss which I politely declined. I think I played fairly well today, kept to my ranges most of the time did some epic lolesque stuff but I got away with it most of the time by flopping the nuts like a boss. 5bet jammed a regular who opened on the cutoff which is on the nittier side with 88 as a bluff, dont know about that one really but it can´t be my biggest mistake today in terms o EVbb atleast so not gonna give that to much thought.

Overall, my game feels great for the moment! Yah, I actually held up in a 3way allin today with the flopped nutstraight against nutflushdraw and a overpair, overpair was the most optimistic one with regards of how the action went . That felt very 2007 for some reason, but alot better holdings.

Love the thread. Subbed!