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11-12-2021 , 01:11 PM
Who am I?
Hello my name is Joe, I’m 27 years old and come from Czech Republic. It’s been 2 years since I started professionally playing online MTTs. The stable - Poker Detox - where I started (accepted for friend’s recommendation without much data to prove I was decent) told me: ‘Feel free to play up to 5$ tournaments’, while new players could play up to 11$. Fair enough. All I knew at that point was pretty much how to exploit fish in casino’s cash games on 0.5/1$ games.

Why?

To become an Elite player! For me to do this, I believe it's time I decompress my thoughts on my journey so far, so that I can shape my path for the next chapter. I will post here regularly (2x a week) about my journey until now, my short term goals, my long term goals, my current game, mindset, lifestyle and habit developments that I believe will take me to the upper echelons of the poker world!

My goals:
  • Move up in stakes and crush 200$ games in daily schedule and 500$ - 1k$ games during the series
  • Reach 200k$ profit in one year from today
  • Upgrade my understanding of GTO concepts (yep, it’s true until now I was going on with pretty much basic theory concepts and exploitative strategies only)


My graph for the last two years since I’ve started the journey
  • First year - lot of ups and downs while moving up in stakes
  • Second year getting consistent with my lifestyle, routine, study and also the $ results!

GL to everyone!
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11-12-2021 , 01:25 PM
Hey man! Great looking graph, I wish you the best in your journey!

What sites are you playing?

Glgl
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11-12-2021 , 03:30 PM
Hi mate, good luck in your journey to the top!
I know the results speak pretty much for themselves but may i ask you your opinion on poker detox and if you could elaborate the work you did with them?
Gonna follow!
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11-13-2021 , 10:04 PM
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Originally Posted by ymehclA
Hey man! Great looking graph, I wish you the best in your journey!

What sites are you playing?

Glgl
Thanks a lot man!!

I play mainly on GG, then PS.com and some tournaments on PartyPoker, Winamax and PokerKing
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11-13-2021 , 10:12 PM
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Originally Posted by Mivax96
Hi mate, good luck in your journey to the top!
I know the results speak pretty much for themselves but may i ask you your opinion on poker detox and if you could elaborate the work you did with them?
Gonna follow!
I signed up for CFP and I am still part of their stable. We have a weekly group coaching sessions, material for preflop and post¨flop to study and there is also plenty of mindset material and option to have mindset sessions with a coach specialized in that. And of course daily interactions with other members.

Honestly, I am very happy to be part of the team. Would not make it that far without them. I mostly appreciate the values of the company (they honestly care about individuals and their development, not only about money) and their professional attitude and work ethic.
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11-16-2021 , 08:34 PM
I’ll be honest with you. I’m a complete newbie in blogging but there is often a massive amount of thoughts running in my head so I like to write them down. 2 years of playing isn’t that long of a time but still I managed to go through several setbacks, burn outs and fckups and I’m pretty sure there are more waiting for me in the future (that’s the poker pro’s burden isn’t it?) and I think note them down (together with ways how I overcame them) will help me to get ready for moving up in stakes!

When I was going through my first downswing this is how I went about it.

“Things go wrong for some time, so what should I do?” was the question I eventually asked myself. Ok. Let’s take some time - hour, half an hour, even 15 min to sit down, relax and reflect. It may sound quite simple, but that's what really helped me. Sort of looking at everything from a higher perspective, think about my poker journey as a long term journey and then objectively evaluate my game in terms of both - mindset and strategy. It is really frustrating to face sck outs, villain's top range and making mistakes - all at the same time, because then it all gets mixed up and actually can lead to even more mistakes and incorrect deviations.
So...
  1. To sum up what I’m sure that I was doing right and keep doing that.
  2. To identify even only one mindset mistake, which I think is hurting my win rate and come up with a plan to fix it
  3. To identify even only one strategic leak and focus on it in the game
Then things will be getting back in order and I can build up on that. Basically, organise my mind and take it step by step in an organised manner instead of being all over the place and not knowing what or who to blame. Also, the way the I looked at my downswing was as an inseparable part of every poker player and I just told myself, that it's actually good for me to go through all this, because I know it won't last forever and when I get past that, I'll be mentally stronger than ever before. And hell yeah I was right.

GL!

P.S. Next post will be more positive I promise
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11-19-2021 , 05:15 PM
Upgrading my game
I am constantly seeking to get an edge at the tables as well as outside of them.
I just got a flexispot - a table which is adjustable to a standing desk.
My downer back was begging me to make this purchase for some time. Although my usual activity during the 5min break each hour while playing MTTs is yoga and stretching and my chair is pretty nuts, still at the end of a long session (after playing for 8 hours) the seating position was getting pretty uncomfortable. As that’s the part where it is likely I’d have a deeprun - therefore the most focus and concentration required - I couldn’t wait longer to make this investment.

Now I go with alternating the seating and standing position each hour and the first couple of sessions were absolutely great - at the end of the grind it felt like I played 3 hours less than I really did (you’re welcome my downer back).


As a bonus I bought a 4k 32’ monitor where I can fit 12 tables!!!

From playing 9-10 tables at peak of my sess I am moving to this plan now:
  • 11.00am starting my session with 8-9 tables to warm up
  • 12.00-17.00pm peak of mz sess with 12 tables
  • 17.00-18pm cooling down back to 9 tables (17.30 stop registering)
  • 18.00 down to 6 tables to finish my sess
When I have a deeprun I try to keep my table count a bit lower to be able to max focus on that and also wanna make the change gradual so sometimes I keep only 11 tables depending on my energy levels. Slightly increasing my ABI too which is this month 62$. (I don’t check my profit until the end of the month so not exactly sure how that is going - the long term results matter more to me anyways)

LFG!!!

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11-24-2021 , 11:10 AM
Beating the variance

With the new set up I was able to increase my volume from playing cca 30 tournaments/session to around 40 tournaments/session.
Starting the session with 12 tables and decreasing to 9 at the end works great for me so far for the following reasons:
  1. With so many tables and don’t have time to get attached to results in individual tournaments - I simply don’t have the time to focus on bad beats, suck-outs and running in a bad set ups
  2. I am able to operate more from an objective perspective instead of overthinking individual spots.
  3. Even if I feel like I am running bad, losing big pots when being ahead etc., busting tournaments I usually end up with huge stacks in some tournaments and manage to get couple of deepruns anyways

Even it is a small sample so far, I can feel the difference with increased volume and I am starting to realize that the only way to beat variance is to put in the volume
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11-26-2021 , 10:32 AM
My poker journey

Many times poker is being a harsh fella and makes me angry, sad, irritated but also happy, motivated, grateful and passionate. An important thing is not to get trapped in those emotions and stay balanced. That’s why I like to take a step back and see the big picture.

I started playing poker when I was around 15-16 years old with my friends at very small home games. I got interested in the fact the game is actually solvable and started to read some poker books. Jonathan Little poker books were my first poker studies ever and as soon as I turned 18 I went to try it out in small casino tournaments.
As time passed I played time from tiem with friends or in casinos but only small games really. My first professional poker sight was when I met a guy who played live cash for a living and offered me a coaching/staking deal. At this point I decided to drop uni (Civil Engineering) and move from Czech Republic to Denmark to start studying Entrepreneurship there. In the gap I had to make some money so this deal was a perfect opportunity. So while my parents thought I’m working as a card dealer in a casino, I was actually sitting on the other side of the table playing.
When I moved to Denmark I had to go back to recreational poker as live action wasn’t any interesting and I ended up playing a couple of tournaments a month online. After 2 years the life changer deal came through - my very good friend who played online MTTs for some years told me there is a stable that just got running and accepted new players, so if I’m interested I could join playing part-time alongside my studies - hell yeah, let’s do it! It was nuts, something I’ve always dreamt about. Suddenly instead of spending hours of reading some poker material or watching videos that I didn’t really understand anyways, I got preflop ranges to learn, postflop lines to learn, videos with general concepts and late game and fellow peers to discuss hands - an infinitely more effective way to study the game.
That was 2 years ago in winter 2019 when I started with Poker Detox. After one year I finished my studies and in the summer 2020 moved to Playa del Carmen, Mexico as a full time poker pro - I still live here in this wonderful place, enjoying life and working hard.

In those 2 years I have learnt so much about the game and about myself - and that keeps me motivated, keeps me going and wanting to improve even more.



Me on our first PD team trip in Malaga in January 2020
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11-30-2021 , 01:59 PM
November sum up

After October when I took almost 2 weeks completely off poker to celebrate my bday and travel I went fully back on track in November.

Positives:
Over 500 tournaments played
Reached all my study goals (HH review every weak, study group sessions, solver work for PKOs)
I upgraded my working station to feel better
Planned my month day by day and sticked with my routine in every aspect

To improve:
Reflect more and write a journal (at least 2x a week)
Make a consistent workout routine and follow it
Bring more awareness to my emotions when playing and let go of the story narrative in my head

Overall decent month regarding volume, studying and the results. December will be weaker because of the Christmas holidays and also the need to go for a visa run from Mexico for a couple of days with some of my friends who are visiting me here.




GL everyone
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12-04-2021 , 12:58 PM
December goals

November I managed to get plenty of work done, overall good stuff. December is expected to be a little weaker in terms of volume but I still plan to keep up on the track.
Goals for December:
  • To play 250 MTTs (with regards to visa run and Christmas holidays)
  • To watch missed coaching
  • Once a week do a hh review and study spots in HRC
  • To attend all group reviews
  • To go to the gym at least 2x a week
  • To reflect on presence and awareness 1x a week by writing a journal
  • To turn off my poker brain during Christmas and be present in my social life


Although I'm not gonna go full speed this month, my plan is to stay consistent with my routine as much as possible to make it easier to come back to the business fully in January.

Longterm goal in this aspect is:
to keep professional and social life on balance -> don't get stuck with grind and study but find time to enjoy life and have fun as well

LFG
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12-08-2021 , 10:58 AM
Mistake is an opportunity

One of my biggest obstacles to tackle on my poker journey was to form my relationship to mistakes.
At a conscious level I have always realised that making mistakes is part of life and even more part of playing poker. The crucial part is how do I see them and accept them.

At one point when my graph was aiming pretty much downwards, I reflected some months back and realised I was fooling myself. What was obvious at the conscious level was far away from truth at the subconscious, which tricked my mind. I was ashamed of my mistakes, hiding it from my poker friends, coaches and even from myself. The idea of being wrong was just too painful.

The impact this had is now obvious:
  • it slowed me down in my progress
  • it prevented me from finding my leaks
  • it blinded me from the objective reality
  • it didn’t allow me to upgrade my level of self compassion

What is the definition of mistake?

My definition is:

A mistake is an opportunity to find my weak spots and therefore improve them to become a better player!
A mistake gives me an opportunity to upgrade my performance by cultivating the balances of forgiveness and compassion (without these balances I am trapped in a reality where my only tool is pressure, which causes me to break down and make more mistakes)
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12-15-2021 , 08:15 PM
Few days off the tables

In the beginning of November I almost didn’t take any days off completely just to chill. Partly because I knew I will take a short holiday to travel from Mexico to Guatemala to renew my visa.
It was a nice refreshing trip. Went with three other friends. We went out. We climbed 4000 meter above see level to the top of a volcano in one day - it was a very profound experience as we really pushed ourselves and made it up and down in one day, while normally the hike is over night. All the pain and effort was truly worth it.





Volcano of Guatenango

After that we spent a couple of days at the shore of Lake Atitlan.



I'm very happy and grateful for having the opportunity to be a poker pro and live in this amazing place with the opportunity to travel around and discover new places.
Overall, a nice restart of my mind. Fully read to go back to the tables and crush.

GLGL
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12-19-2021 , 10:34 AM
Last Sunday of the year 2021
My comeback to the tables was kinda harsh. Last week I wasn’t running really well and the grind cost me a lot of mental energy. But no need to complain, really, it’s just part of the game and I’m fully aware of that. I managed to run deep twice in a smaller field of Big109 on Stars.com, made it twice to heads-up and and unfortunately both times ended up second. Second place is always a little painful for me but I am still grateful for the deepruns. Besides that, nothing really interesting

Today’s the last Sunday of this year so I want to enjoy it fully without unnecessary overthinking and pressure. Sunday is by miles my favourite day for playing. I love these long afternoons/evenings (Mexican time) with huge fields, huge guarantees and a lot of action.

I’ve done my morning rituals - yoga and meditation, prepared meals for the day and got 20min of sunshine at the pool. Those are already little victories of the day so no need for creating any expectations.

Goals for this Sunday session:
  • Have fun and relax (let go of pressure/stress)
  • Avoid urgent decision unless completely clear (take at least 4 seconds before acting)
  • When big part of my stack was lost -> reboot and start as a new tourney with current stack
  • Plan ahead
  • Be happy about making a profitable play (even if lost the pot)

GL
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12-23-2021 , 03:00 PM
Study day - looking for leaks

So this month went so far pretty bad for me at the tables. It feels like it’s impossible to get to a good spot and win any chips. With a cool head I can recognise the absurdity of this statement and it should not really change my strategy or mindset. The reality when playing is however different - find myself in an emotional rollercoaster throughout the grind, using negative self-talk and possibly adjusting my strategy on subjective feelings.
It’s time to tackle these issues and what I’m gonna focus on is:
  • Technical leaks
  • reviewing my game with HM3 filtres
  • specifically: biggest lost pots, bluffcatching, 3bet pots, BB defence
  • Goal: to find the spots where I could have made mistakes and identify the reasons, eventually discuss the hands with my friends
  • Mindset
  • I feel like there is a deeper issue, possibly rooted in my childhood which triggers the emotional responses
  • that makes it difficult for me to accept outcomes that I have no control over (e.g. hand distribution, results of flips, coolers, etc)
  • so I finally booked a sessions with a hypnotherapist, which was on my list for some time and the plan is to dig deep into this issue

Taking this day as the last day to study before a Christmas break. Will be off for the following 5 days, when me and my girlfriend will travel to central Mexico to visit her family. I want to take this time to relax, let go of poker completely and enjoy the present moment. After I want to reflect with a clear head and get ready to play again next week.

Happy holidays to everyone
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12-23-2021 , 03:58 PM
Hey!

The thing about hypnotherapy/ emotional responses. I really feel There is something There, really unique way of looking at poker by poker detox overall imo.

Love it all, i like all these topics and open to chat if u want

Also applied for poker detox hopin 2 get in ��✌️
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12-26-2021 , 08:06 PM
Music

Music is the love of my life. As soon as I was able to do my first steps, my dad constantly listened to rock music. Couple years later I knew all the lyrics of these songs even without often knowing what they actually mean then in my puberty years I discovered hip hop and these two genres became my ultimate favourites. Not to say I was deaf to other genres. Time to time I listened to various genres such as jazz, blues, classical music or electronic music. This taste pretty much stuck with me until this day.
In recent times, when I gained much more awareness of many aspects of my life, I also investigated my relationship to music. In the past I didn’t really encounter moments of silence too much - when there was silence, I just filled it in with some nice music. Today silence is an important part of my personal growth and it goes beyond meditation. As an online poker pro I deal with many distractions and external noises (screen light, music, bluetooth, wifi) combined with adrenaline peaks and drops from the session, so that a peaceful moment in silence is sacred for me. As in many aspects, it is about finding the right balance. What I realised (probably in one of those peaceful moments of silence) was that there are practices that I implement in my daily or weekly routine, that music introduced me many years earlier without even consciously knowing. What music taught me?:
  • Relaxation - this one is pretty obvious, certain type of music or my favourite songs could rapidly lower my stress levels
  • Gratitude - songs with positive lyrics, which made me to identify myself with the singer and created a positive narrative in my head was actually my very first active practice of gratitude
  • Meditation/focus on the present moment - my favourite songs could bring me to the present moment, turning off the voice in my head, making me to focus on my body, breath and surroundings - whether it was in some beautiful lookout, in the nature, in a calm night streets of the city or in a bus looking out of a window - music was my first type of practice of being in the present moment
  • Releasing anger - this is a big one for me as I dealt with anger issues and was a hothead as a kid, one song could bring me back to the ground, make me feel much lighter and letting go of the unnecessary anger, I truly believe music prevented many arguments that were arising and even might saved some relationships
  • Self-reflection - again listening to some lyrics just made me take a pause, look objectively on what was happening in my past from sort of a bird perspective, and significantly helped in my self-development and progress
  • Energy boost/motivation - and finally, music always helped me to raise my energy levels and motivation whether it was in the gym, social situations or competitions


Many of those aspects are now active and conscious practices that I implement in my daily routine and the results those bring are identical to what I could have felt many years ago in certain situations after listening to music.

There is one difference in the genres I often listen to these days and it is much more electronic music on my playlist. It is mainly caused by the location where I live (Playa del Carmen, Mexico), where one can find many festivals and DJs playing electronic music and also by searching for music for my grind which should be preferably without or with a minimum of lyrics. Firstly I start with some type of concentration music and at the end of my session I usually switch to my favourite playlists with lyrics (when my table count is low enough it doesn’t distract me)

Playlists for my poker session (Spotify):

Afterhours (electronic)
Low Key Tech (electronic)
Night Rider (electronic)
Brain Food (hypnotic electronic music for studies and relax)
Focus Music: Work, Studying, Concentration (mix of piano and classical music)
Classical Essentials (classical music)
Chillout Lounge (relaxed beats)

What type of music do you listen to when playing poker?
Any suggestions would be highly appreciated!

Cheers!
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01-03-2022 , 12:43 PM
Sump-Up 2021

Firstly, to leave things complete I will sum up my December goals:
  • To play 250 MTTs (with regards to visa run and Christmas holidays) - OK
  • To watch missed coaching - OK
  • Once a week do a hh review and study spots in HRC - OK
  • To attend all group reviews - OK
  • To go to the gym at least 2x a week - FAIL one week, fulfilled all the others
  • To reflect on presence and awareness 1x a week by writing a journal - FAIL, only wrote journal once at the end of the month
  • To turn off my poker brain during Christmas and be present in my social life - OK


The year sum-up




I am very happy with the improvement, performance and results I have achieved last year. Putting in the hours paid off.
To keep doing:
  • Consistent routine
  • Healthy diet
  • Exercise
  • Leisure time and traveling
  • Poker study hours
  • Poker playing hours

To focus more on:
  • Mindset
  • Game selection
  • Relaxation



GL everyone in 2022 and Happy New Year
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01-05-2022 , 08:38 PM

January goals and start goals reflection


For January:
  • Play min 350MTTs
  • Study min 40h
  • Review min. 4 deepruns
  • Watch min 2 mindset videos
  • Create an MTT schedule for my sessions and always follow it
  • Gym min. 2x every week


Goals from when starting this blog:
  1. Move up in stakes and crush 200$ games in daily schedule and 500$ - 1k$ games during the series - still feel a bit uncomfortable at 200$ games but the work is in progress - both technical part and mindset part
  2. Reach 200k$ profit in one year from today (12.11.) - 82k$ right now, I’m on my way
  3. Upgrade my understanding of GTO concepts - work in progress as well, I devote 1 whole study day each week to a solver work


LFG
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01-12-2022 , 09:23 PM
Series
The Winter Series on Stars are over. WSOPC on GG are getting to the end as well as Winamax series. So far it didn’t go so well for me on any of these sites. It almost seems like a trend for me that I do pretty well until there’s some series taking place. I was reflecting back and besides the fact that fields are bigger and I usually play tournaments outside my regular schedule (250eur on Winamax, 215usd on Stars and main for 500usd) which obviously increases the variance, I came up with other possible reasons for this:
  • I might be pushing too much in terms of: playing days, playing hours, table count
  • I get emotionally attached to major events of the day and get easily titled if thing don’t go my way

For the next series (probably SCOOP) I will focus on:
  • Always at least 2 no-playing days (1 light study, 1 completely off poker)
  • Strict time for start and finish registering, strict max table count
  • No rush to the tables

Although so far I didn't have any interesting deepruns, we got something exciting for tomorrow. I made Day 3 on Winamax flight PKO tournament with 1M GTD (1.4M collected). Currently 3/100 left in 15eurThursday is usually my study day so I will have to reschedule. The plan is to start around 1h before day 3 starts and keep my table count on max 6 tables (maybe even 4) to get to the flow state and be able to fully focus on the deeprun.

LFG
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01-14-2022 , 11:18 AM
Biggest cash-out so far!

A pretty sick run in the 15eur flight tournament from Winamax series. Managed to make the final table and finished 6th out of more than 100 000 entries for 20k euro with the bounties included.
So far the biggest cash-out of my career. It's funny that it was still a bit painful to make it so far and then bust 6th. 1st places for 10k or so in smaller tournaments made me feel much happier then this biggest cash-out but I am still very grateful for making it this far.

I started off the day 3 pretty well, eliminated few players and preserve the big stack. When it came down to around 40 players I lost a flip and went to average stack. Then lost some chips and with the blinds increased became a shortstack. I managed to steal some pots, double up and then ended up in decent ICM cage on last 2 tables. With last 12 players and 2k payjump to 11th and another 3k payjump to 9th with two bigger stacks with 40b and 50bb each on one table and the rest including me were shorstacks with 2-7bb. We played for around 40min in this dynamic with 12 players with some really interesting ICM close spots to shove/call. Lots of fun I enjoyed this 3-day run from my very first bullet in this milion event.

Gonna take down the next one!

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01-14-2022 , 11:41 AM
AMAZING thread and great RESULTS!!!

EPIC!!!
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01-20-2022 , 11:09 AM
Breathing
I’d like to dedicate today’s short post to breathing. The most powerful tool that we all have available 24/7 and it can be used to manage stress, maintain tissue oxygenation, increase energy levels and much more. I find those possibilities very effective for a lifestyle of a poker player, where I very often find myself stressed or lacking energy during a poker session.

So besides the active effort of breathing mainly with my nose during morning yoga sessions, in the gym, doing regular activities during the day and sleeping, these are my favourite breathing practises:
  1. Box breathing - to calm my body and mind and releasing stress
    - I inhale slowly by nose for 4 seconds, hold my breath for 4 seconds, slowly exhale by mouth for 4 seconds, hold without breath for 4 seconds. Repeat this several times.
    - I often use this technique during breaks and when I have a deeprun to enter a relaxed state of mind. It’s also useful to stay calm, when I go to ice bath.
  2. Alternate nostril breathing - to energise my brain and body
    - I hold my right nostril with my right thumb and inhale only with the left nostril. At the end of the inhale I release the thumb from the right nostril and use my index finger to exhale through the right nostril. Then I inhale only with the right nostril holding the left one, switch the fingers and exhale only with the left nostril. This is supposed to even out the oxygen coming to both - left and right side of the brain and boost you with energy.
    - I use this during the breaks or in the morning to energise
  3. Holotropic Soma breathwork - a long sessions with a guide to reset the nervous system
    - I have the opportunity to attend guided breathing sessions here in Mexico, which last around 1-2 hours. It is a very powerful practice and can even evoke a psychedelic experience and ego dissolution. I managed to get a really strong, spiritual high only from my breath (that’s right get high on your own supply) and ‘leave my body’. I had some strong visualisations seeing through my ‘third eye’ as well. With more practice this becomes even more powerful.
    - I usually go to this practice at least once a month. It’s a great way to escape the daily routine, the important everyday problems and helps me to deeply reflect on my life and progress


There are plenty of others breathing techniques and practises but these three are my ultimate favourites right now.

Don’t lose any breath!
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01-24-2022 , 11:24 AM
Mindset upgrades
So I’ve had my first two sessions of hypnotherapy and I can already feel the upgrades I’ve implemented. So this is going to be a great investment for sure.
The main area I wanna focus on is ‘struggle for control’ - to learn what I can control and what I can't and accept it. This needs to be approached on three different levels: conscious, mechanical and subconscious
  1. Conscious - the first step is always to accept the truth, in this regard I’d say my awareness is pretty high, in other words when I face a sequence of bad beats or situation that gets me triggered I can ‘blow up’ but I can calm down very soon and as I do so I’m completely sure that all the story narrative and victimisation is unreasonable and I know that variance is just part of the game
  2. Mechanical - the goal here is to remind myself daily the conscious thoughts about this struggle - e.g. to write a note on my whiteboard at my working station, put notes on wallpaper
  3. Subconscious - that’s where hypnotherapy comes in, we started with a practice called ‘control room’ where I learn to control my emotions and as well deep dived to my childhood to look for where these emotions come from, for me personally really interesting stuff to investigate


Unfortunately it doesn’t work like one move with a magic wand and there’s no more tilting in game, but I feel the progress in terms of awareness in the challenging situation, much faster recovery from undesirable reactions and being able to get back to the flow state and optimal performance after facing those.

GL everyone!
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01-28-2022 , 11:34 AM
Impatience and urgency

This is an area that affects me in many ways regarding poker and repeatedly challenges my conscious mind in game but also outside my poker office.
In late December / early January when things didnÂ’t go my way at the tables and I ended up being on cca 200ABI downswing I realized that this was the main ghost that constantly occupied my mind. I suppose it is somewhat natural to try to get my losses back as soon as possible. The problem is that this attitude ends up being very counterproductive. When I sat down to evaluate what I was doing when I was on upswing and what has changed when I was swinging down I noted this:

Rushing to the tables - I would change my time schedule to start earlier to be on time at the tables for certain tournaments of the day, would skip parts of my pre-session routine and basically feel the urge to do everything fast to make it on time to the tables. This would reflect very much to ma game - I would jump straight to my high table count, make fast decisions (even if they were correct, it was much harder to accept reality - e.g. losing a flip), constantly searching to play more and more tournaments, take fast subjective decisions in tough spots and end up in this loop of starting and busting tournaments and feel horrible. So not only it likely cost me EV at the tables, it also cost me loads of mental energy.
I took action to get out of this loop - as I became aware of it I stopped listening the urgent voice in my head saying “bro, you gotta start in 5min so you can catch the latereg of BH84 on GG”, and instead just relaxed, finished all my routine and made myself feel calm and comfortable to miss whatever tournaments there are. To be honest it sounds easier than it was, because my mind was somehow convinced that this one tourney was gonna save me from my downswing. But I made it and got back to ALWAYS start my session relaxed and without urgency - then I take time before every decision, which automatically makes me accept the reality, deeply consider tough spots and play for the sake of making good decisions and learn instead of trying to recover a make-up. Now I feel back on track, in green numbers and crushing again. Just another small bounce back to strengthen my resilience.

This inner fight in my head was likely between “the self” and “the manager” - referring to the IFS (Internal Family System) model, which I've been pretty fascinated about for quite some time now. I might write another blog post just about this in the future.

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