I am pissed the **** off. I was doing a fun bankroll challenge because I enjoyed doing them. But I'm pissed at this point. I have sat here for days wondering what I did wrong and what went wrong in my life and I have to the conclusion I reall didnt do anything wrong.

My Story

Some of you may know me and my story I go by damhill or damhillpoker on twitch and most poker sites. I've been playing mid and low stakes online poker since 2016. I've had my ups and downs like most of us do, but to really get into why im pissed off and why I'm going on this revenge **** you bitches tour in 2024 we need to go back to 2010.

I was a young 18 year old PFC in the US army got orders to deploy to Afghansitan and got promoted to SPC soon after. I ended up as a team leader in Afghanistan at the age of 19 and instantly fell head over heels in love with my #2. We didnt instantly start a relationship but when we did it was hot and heavy and fast moving for around 4-6 years i dont rememebr the exact time frame of the relationship. Then suddenly out of the blue she just ended it and cut all communication with me. She despised my dream of playing poker full time when I got out of the Army and at the end of the day she was 4 years older than I was and from talking to other females it seems like the fact I never proposed to her in that time is probably what ended the relationship. That was years ago and now I get to see that she settled for a guy who shes way out of his league and she has 2 kids with and shes getting married to. But as Poker players you an see the spark, the fire, the passion in some ones eyes and the intensity and drive to achieve goals and dreams and sadly you can tell she lost that.

Fast forward a few years and I meet a girl while I'm helping a friend open a bar and im running and manging it for them and I hire a young bartender, we hook up for about a month she finds out shes pregnant and I stick around ends up not being my son but I do the right thing and raise him as my own for 4 ****ing years and plan to marry this girl just to find out shes ****ing around on me.

Now Girl #1 was the girl of my dreams, I ****ed that up, I'll always have a spot in my heart for her and I'll always love her even though I can tell in the pictures I see of her shes a shell of the girl I used to know. Girl #2 **** that bitch I gave her the world an it wasnt enough but I do miss the son I raised as my own from the day he was born and I'll never get to see him again, I spent over 15k trying to get father figure rights and the state I live in just doesnt recognize that very often.

So for weeks now I've been in a slump, the girl I would cut my legs off for to hug one more time is settling and getting married for a 2nd time, likely since shes 36 now and her biological clock is ticking so I'm sure thats what drove her to this, and she chose a safe guy that im sure is so happy to be with her that he probably runs around like her little bitch. At the same time I was heart broken I'll never get to see my son again.

Then so I did a lot of meditation and a lot of thinking and being depressed these last two weeks trying to figure out what to do, hooked up with a smoking hot 20 year old chick and at the time it made me feel great but afterwards there was still an emptynes which isnt going to be filled by some random good looking young female however much fun as she was.

So I decided, to do what I was taught so well in the army, I took all the pain i still feel from the love I still have in my heart for girl #1 and my son and I turned it into hate to use as motivation.

I get a Monthly VA disability check due to my PTSD and **** that goes with it, my lease was ending December 1st sold I sold everything of value and moved out, I have about 5 boxes of clothes left a few things sell, like a wedding dress i paid a **** ton of money for if any one is looking.

But the plan is simple I am going to take 2024 and I am going on a world wide revenge tour, every months I will risk my networth traveling the world playing poker. It's gonna start simple on december 26th-7th with the Horse Shoe Holiday Poker Classic. Then after that I'm gonna hit the road. I plan to go to Vegas (obviously), Florida, Texas all the big poker spots in the midwest, im gonna play some wsop circut stops I am also going to go to Thailand and the Phillipines and as to live cheap and well and grind out a bunch of online poker as well.

I was deep in meditation, when I realized I was killing myself over why didnt I propose to girl #1 answer I was like 24 or 25 years old and life was crazy but I was happy, why fix what isn't broken, and I was also playing it over in my head how could I have stopped girl #2 from cheating on me and realized I couldn't cheaters are gonna cheat, end of story. Then I had an awakening of sorts. These girls who I loved so much and would of done anything for both doubted me, they both would of been much happier if I worked myself to death at some bullshit job I hated lived for the weekends and saved every extra penny a month to try to take a small week or so long vacation once a year. But I have the ability to spend the entire year living in places people dream of going to for vacation, places people wish they could visit but may never get to, and neither of these girls deserve to go with me on the amazing journey I am about to embark on this year. They both doubted me, girl #1 tried to crush my dreams, girl 2 took advantage of me and took my son from me that I'll never see again, why do they deserve for me to even shed one more single tear over either of them?

They dont, they deserve to watch me instagram, facebook and snapchat stories and say damn he was just in Florida now hes in Vegas, damn now hes in Thailand look how happy he is look what I could of had if I had faith in him and who he was and helped him achieve his dreams. That's what they deserve, karma, through my success and happiness. So that's what they are going to get.

The Plan

So I did spend over 15k, most of my bankroll trying to get rights to see my son, and I would of spent 10x that if it would of worked but it just got to a point where a million dollars wouldnt of fixed my problems. So the bankroll is hurting but I've beat online poker with an abi of around $30 for a pretty good ammount the past 6 or so years and as we all know live games are 10x softer. So I'm going all in. I can beat 200nl cash online and I can beat up to $55s in mtts I can easily crush these live recs obv variance can be a bitch but im not to stressed about that worst case we go bust we wait a month get our VA paycheck and start over the next month.

As I said above we will be starting a few days early with the local tournament series that runs 12/26-1/7 assuming we dont brick every tournament we play a week or two after that we will be heading to hollywood florida for a series they have running down there and then we will have to reassess our bankroll every step of the way to see where we are heading next. I'll be traveling to play tournaments but I'll also be grinding cash the entire time.

Worst case scenario I end up in Thailand playing 100nl online living like a kind every night, best case we get a decent score and bring home a trophy. Really its a win win for us nothing can really go horribly wrong at any point.


I am going to try to post here and I am also going to post on youtube and my snapchat while trying to do this all.



My final Message. Girl#1 (Kimberly L.) Go **** yourself, I gave you everything I had and loved you with everything I had and I wasnt enough because I didnt give you a ****ing ring and a piece of paper. To my son Greyson, I miss you and I am so sorry I cant be there to help you grow up and protect you.

I'll always have a hole in my heart for both of them but this is my revenge tour to Kim and girl #2 (who doesnt deserve to have her name put in here) and they can sit there working bullshit jobs living for the weekend living for their 1 short vacation a year on a tight buget while they watch me spend the year in places they dream of going.


Ill probably post more on youtube and social media and I'll get all that linked soon but I am more motivated and through anger right now than I have been since I left in the Army in 2016.

Also from the start and probably most of the year I'll be selling Action for what I plan to play I'll post that bellow.

Selling Action in these events
Date Start Time Buy in + tournament type %willing to sell all at 1.1MU
12/26 12:00 PM 150 NLH 20%
12/26 7:00 PM 200 splash pot 20%
12/27 10:00 AM 150 NLH 20%
12/27 7:00 PM 150 NLHE add on 20%
12/28 10:00 AM 200 nlhe 20%
12/28 7:00 PM 250 $50 bounty 20%
12/29 2:00 PM 120 satti
12/30 10:00 AM 400 fat stack 20%
12/30 2:00 PM 120 satti
12/31 10:00 AM 150 nlhe 20%
12/31 2:00 PM 120 satti
1/1 12:00 PM 120 satti
1/1 2:00 PM 120 satti
1/1 7:00 PM 100 nlhe rebuy/add on 20%
1/2 2:00 PM satti
1/2 7:00 PM 200 splash pot 30%
1/3 10:00 AM 150 nlhe 20%
1/3 2:00 PM 150 satti
1/3 7:00 PM 150 nlhe add on 20%
1/4 10:00 AM 200 nlhe 20%
1/4 2:00 PM 150 satti
1/4 7:00 PM 600 main flight A 30%
1/5 10:00 AM 600 main flight B 30%
1/5 7:00 PM 600 main flight C 30%
1/6 10:00 AM 600 main flight D 30%
1/6 7:00 PM 600 Main flight E 30%
1/7 10:00 AM 150 nlhe 20%
1/7 1:00 PM 600 main day 2 N/A

t.l.d.r.

thats a pretty funny post mate. You have found your motivation to play poker. Hope all goes well for ya and ya bink big in mtts.

lol oops

worst case i spend my year in thailand and the phillipines living cheap. win win

ya might meet a thai lady. asians like gambling.

Oh I was a table games dealer years ago im aware fo their fondness to gamble lol

6 days left

pics of kimberly L and unnamed woman or gtfo.

lol yeah thats not gonna happen they know who they are