Yeah it really turned around in the last 1.5 months, Feb was just endless beatdowns and some complaints from me itt. I'm sure for the last 3-4 weeks, I've forgotten about "how bad I run compared to the fish". But I'm trying to honestly know/remember this is the good side of variance, acknowledge I'm having/had it, and be composed/ready when it swings down again.
I don't warm up for my sessions, but I'd generally fire 1 table in the beginning. And then slowly max it out to 3 over time. This is just due to my process of table-selection as at times I can come out with 2 or 3 out the gate.
However I do really relax generally after each session, even if it ends in a loss to "wind down" and reset the mind for the next day. A routine of sorts after the sesh, go on YT, watch starcraft/scammer-gurus/irs-tax-codes as of late. On "big" days, like today, I plan on taking it a step further, bubble bath at like 3am while reading a psychology book. I generally don't drink solo, but would take a glass if my gf was awake. One of my rules is, everything must be done in a celebratory manner. So I don't drink/drugs to relax, but only to celebrate. I know, its weird. Most people take a beer to kick back and enjoy.
Yeah it's still stressful having the swings, when you're down $10K, knowing another $15-20K could be relatively possible. I just try my best to "pray" and play my best. It helps to have a close private group of friends sweating, swinging in their own games, so it feels like we're all in it together. One of our generic mottos coming onto discord is, "is everyone winning today". Though it tilts one particular friend when he's stuck lol.
As for that two outter, once the flop hit, I was resigned to losing
- sometimes its just your day