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Originally Posted by vcr0502
Hello Nameste90,
Just want to say your blog is really good and inspiring read . Good luck and keep the great results.
Thank you! Glad you find it inspiring
[QUOTE=Cederico87;58618258]Nice thread! Maybe one day
I will emulate you
Appreciate the nice comment
Cederico. GL
So finished up a coaching session this morning and feeling motivated to get back on the grind. We talked thru some spots of a live recording I did of me playing where we can pick up some mistakes in game which I think is a cool idea. We also spent some time talking about bad variance and how to cope with downswings. I must admit i'm not dealing with it very well. I have a severe ego/winners tilt issue that i'm trying to fix. Not even so much if a rec does something wild but more so when a reg who I think is somewhat decent does something really bad, then I tend to tilt. Obviously this makes zero sense as I want people to make mistakes. That's what the whole game is about. So i'm doing all sorts of stuff to try to fix it: meditation, box breathing, cold showers, mental game seminars on BBZ etc. Maybe it's some sort of internal issue that I need to work through. Whatever it is, I am actively working towards a solution. Without a very strong mental game, it's going to be very tough to break into high stakes imo.
I'm on a ~100 buyin downswing right now which is completely normal for mtt's. However, I am not reacting too well which i'm upset about. The way my coach put it to me was: everyone is going to go on downswings, it's just the best players will manage to lose the least when they inevitably happen. They have been down that road before and know that it's part of the game. This is what I strive to be like the next time i'm facing a downswing. Just to be patient, keep working on studying spots and just enjoy the game. Easy to say in theory, more difficult to achieve in practice. But this is a demanding game and we have to set high standards for ourselves.
Luckily for me, i'm a bankroll nit. 100 buyins for me was less than 10% of my roll. So i'm not worried about going broke or anything like that. Just the whole mental game side of things. I'm going to reread the mental game of poker by Jared Tendler which is a classic amongst poker players.
One thing that I did do (which I think is a form of tilt) is I was playing 10 tables yesterday at one stage. This is not something i'm supposed to be doing. I'm barely starting to get comfortable with 6. I was losing every all in so decided to just fire up a bunch more tables to 'play thru' the bad variance. Fish mindset lol. My coach recommended to journal before and after each session. Just think about what feelings come up at certain points in the session. Notice any triggers like snap clicking a button without thinking through the spot. To try and become aware of this in game and then act accordingly to not lose any EV. That might mean not regging any tournaments for the next hour. Whatever it takes. Even at the break each hour, give yourself a rating out of 10 on how you played that hour. Try not to think of short term results in terms of $$ as that will only make things worse. I just feel that if a top pro had had the same amount of negative variance as I did in this short term, they would lose 70 buyins instead of 100. That would make up a huge difference at the end of the year. When sunrunning, everyone feels dialed in and it's much easier to play your A game.
All in all, i'm happy for this experience. As these first 6 months were a trial to see if I can make it as a pro, it's good to go through these emotions and see how I react. I'm now more motivated than ever to win. There is so much to this game. It's never ending the amount of work you can put into it. It can make you feel like a world champion one minute and then chew you up and spit you out the next. All part of the great game.
Onwards and upwards