10 euros to a paying an advance on a mortgage
08-15-2010
, 03:01 PM
Welcome to Gentlemen's personal challenge thread.
I am very much aware that you think this is ridiculous. in all likelihood, you are right. The odds are against me.
At my peak, I had 16k on stars. From a 10 euro deposit. That's 16 thousand. Dad got jailed and I payed his lawyer... So I tried the martingale. It failed. I had a tilting problem... I lost months of work in just a few days. This wasn't the first time this happened though. I have built rolls of 1k on several networks off 10 euro deposits, always losing it all when I snap or get greedy.
All my work.. Gone.. Because of a few days of bad psychological health. It is not that I think I'm going to be the next of poker kings.. It's not that I am implying I'm a great player.. But I wish to try this again, and surpass where I was by at least double. I didn't flip once when building that roll. Except for the microstakes (gotta go there to relax sometimes.. and donk people out of their last 50 cents you know).
Don't get me wrong though. I'm a happy guy and not haunted by the ghosts of the past.. I care of course, but this was far from the end of me. Hell, this is but a grain of sand in the bad things that could happen in life. If anything I am happy for my family, friends, health and education.
Getting work isn't a problem. Actually, should I fully dedicate myself to what I have been doing since age 14 (I am 22 now) I could easily make at least 3k a month. This is my last deposit.. If this fails.. I'm done for a while. This is my last shot until 2011. If this fails.. I am going to dedicate myself fully to my career again. If I crack, which is very probable, it will be because I simply have a very hard time playing for these stakes after making 500 a day for a period of time pre-tilt.
So flame me. Call me an idiot. I'm still going to try. I will be posting here on a daily basis starting tomorrow. Or wish me luck and cross your fingers. But even if this fails, all is ok. I probably have more of a future outside this game anyway.
In all likelihood, I will be bust again soon. If so, sorry for those few whose hopes I got up by mentioning my previous achievements. My philosophy in poker has always been if you can't build a roll off nothing, you shouldn't be managing a big roll to start with.
I am very much aware that you think this is ridiculous. in all likelihood, you are right. The odds are against me.
At my peak, I had 16k on stars. From a 10 euro deposit. That's 16 thousand. Dad got jailed and I payed his lawyer... So I tried the martingale. It failed. I had a tilting problem... I lost months of work in just a few days. This wasn't the first time this happened though. I have built rolls of 1k on several networks off 10 euro deposits, always losing it all when I snap or get greedy.
All my work.. Gone.. Because of a few days of bad psychological health. It is not that I think I'm going to be the next of poker kings.. It's not that I am implying I'm a great player.. But I wish to try this again, and surpass where I was by at least double. I didn't flip once when building that roll. Except for the microstakes (gotta go there to relax sometimes.. and donk people out of their last 50 cents you know).
Don't get me wrong though. I'm a happy guy and not haunted by the ghosts of the past.. I care of course, but this was far from the end of me. Hell, this is but a grain of sand in the bad things that could happen in life. If anything I am happy for my family, friends, health and education.
Getting work isn't a problem. Actually, should I fully dedicate myself to what I have been doing since age 14 (I am 22 now) I could easily make at least 3k a month. This is my last deposit.. If this fails.. I'm done for a while. This is my last shot until 2011. If this fails.. I am going to dedicate myself fully to my career again. If I crack, which is very probable, it will be because I simply have a very hard time playing for these stakes after making 500 a day for a period of time pre-tilt.
So flame me. Call me an idiot. I'm still going to try. I will be posting here on a daily basis starting tomorrow. Or wish me luck and cross your fingers. But even if this fails, all is ok. I probably have more of a future outside this game anyway.
In all likelihood, I will be bust again soon. If so, sorry for those few whose hopes I got up by mentioning my previous achievements. My philosophy in poker has always been if you can't build a roll off nothing, you shouldn't be managing a big roll to start with.
