Late start today, needed the extra zzz's after a few lame sessions I guess, feeling sorta crappy when I woke up and popped a tylenol for a mild headache, feeling a little better even if a bit nauseous watching some poker vlogs and phil helmuth blow ups. Even small changes to my sleep schedule can mess with my body. Been having more chest spasms too, like heart skipping a beat lately. colluder husband has bee deliberately seat changing next to me lately after the petition was sent, I was worried he had a device to send radiation or other bad brain waves in his jacket pocket lol.

Doing really well anyway this month, no reason to complain and many reasons to be thankful.

Another meh start today, lost TT in a 3! pot at 5/10/25 before plo where I lost AATT to colluder wifeÂ’s KK all in pre, lost with set to straight and I had back door nut flush draw, lost Ks full to quads as well. The game quality has not been great the past few days either. Also lost KK876ds in 3! pot on 589r to JTT35, 53 runout. And just lost an AA to AKQ53ds all in pre for $675 lol

Game broke and I played 10/25, lost stand up game once, beat it once jamming A9o over some limps, was very card dead the whole time and very frustrating. Railbird came by and made a snarky comment about how short everyone was sitting in the game and not in the greatest mood by now I told him to put up or shut up (more or less) and asked him to stop railing the game and he left.

Plo opened up again a few hours later and I made a little rebound before the action player self-transferred off our game and the game broke and I left for the day stuck again, but not as much as I was an hour before. Got ATT93ds all in pre against action and flopped quads, some other smaller pots too.

Colluder husband often says mean things like did you take your medicine and “he’s not connected to reality, he’s psychotic.” Obviously very hurtful to me in particular. Last night he accused a player of going south he had lost a pot to, even though the player had lost a lot to someone else in the meantime. I chimed in “he’s seeing things, he’s not connected to reality,” and he got upset and called the floor who said players are allowed to talk to their neighbors. I was laughing so hard I could not contain myself. He has no power over me.

Booked a good win at 10/10, AAKQ9ds held five ways pre all in, then bled down card dead for a while and called it a session when I got tired. Also won at 1/2 5 card chipping up here and there. Pretty nice rungood day, needed it!

Good start to the day, lattes, laundry music, getting flamed by strangers online...the usual, lol. (Two plus two can be such a supportive community sometimes!)

Glad I booked the nice win last night, it was starting to get a little depressing there for a minute and on the verge of turning into a downswing.

People ask what good is professional poker and is it ethical. I've had my moral qualms about the game myself. Then I reflect on how much the game has given to me over the years, from friends and acquaintances and travels, and of course the money and financial security. Not to mention a way to earn a living for someone who didn't quite fit in to the regular 9 to 5 routine due more or less to disability. For me these things have been a real blessing that have kept me going all these years. So for all the costs associated with problem/pathological gambling, there are a lot of societal benefits for a lot of people like me too which are nothing to sneeze at. I could be much worse off right now but instead I am doing something I enjoy and am good at, giving me self-fulfillment and a purpose in life. I tell people all the time who ask if I travel that I have no need to travel because I am happy here, which is true.

So people who think poker is evil and a net negative, remember there are a lot of people out there who derive a huge benefit from the game, making their lives much better off. Keeping someone like me occupied and mentally well counts for a lot when the alternatives are often so dreary and dire.

Just 3! AAT82ss and folded to a 4! and a cold 5! jam for $11,000 and would have been scooped by action player’s KK. Running hot!!

The contradiction is pretty obv here

Why do you value some random idiots opinion at all?

"Who insults me, is my decision" (freely translated from german)
Thats an old citation from Klaus Kinski, and that approach would not only suit you very well, too.

^^I meant by giving him a taste of his own medicine I felt empowered. Obviously his comments were hurtful at first.

Played 10/10, as soon as I sat down action player said he was sitting out, so I was probably going to quit soon. I get it in twice in the meantime with QQTT9ds and AKJ92ds and break even. I say "see, I've been all in twice already without AA!" Then he asks if I'll do a flip for $3,000 and I counter for $1,500 and we agree. We break even in flips and we keep playing, so it seems like the flips turned him around on me. One hand the blind $300 is on and I open to $1,700 with AJ985ds and get it in against a set with a double gutter and mid pair and lose the main pot but chop the side. Also witnessed a $40,000 pot get scooped by action player's AJJ98, and I folded so-so AA pre to him once and it saved me my entire stack. I go on to win with top set a couple times and lose a couple AAs and call it a good night again.

Now that you explain it...

I should have understood that when reading it, am just in bad mood, sry.

Hope you at least like the citation, and keep doing well.

Yep, I like the citation, thanks for the good reminder.

Earlier than usual start today, which is fine because I prefer to start my day earlier anyway if possible. I feel like I crossed another weird milestone last night with the $1,500 flips and side bets on the $100 waterfall for time, giving more action to appease the action players and stay in the game's good graces. It's hard enough to get a seat as it is, you don't want the action player hating you on top of it for being too tight. Flips are neutral EV and I guess I am ok with them within reason, as long as there is no risk of ruin.

Slow start today, ran bad after a good start and then pushed some dead money around but the dead money was more alive than I expected and I got it in marginally. Then lost a multi-way all in shove fest with a ds T high rundown but won AKQQ9ds on A75r. Currently down a few hundo.

Edit: just got pretty lucky with KJJT9 on K63hh, iso’d dude I thought had the nfd and ran into a slowplayed middle set…river J..!

Wound up booking a good win at 1/2 5 before a seat finally opened up at 10/10, and literally my first hand I am dealt a monstrous AAQJTds and get in in four ways and scoop with top two on each board. Win another AA all in pre, chop another one, then lose flopped second nut flush on A-high flop to nut flush against a blind hand (lol) and called it a night up a tidy profit. For just 7 hours of sleep I am pretty impressed with myself!

Got solid sleep, exercise and music to start the day, stretched, used my back roller (the best…!), then hit the tables. Needed the extra snooze to make up for the other night and recoup from a few draining high stakes sessions in a row. They take way more energy out of me than the lower stakes games. More concentration and focus needed and more money on the line, and not nearly as much room for error. I’m not playing perfectly but well enough. Also game selecting and trying to get into the better of the two big games. Working out well. It’s already turning out to be a break out year.

Pretty slow session but honestly a nice respite from the crazy big gambling lately. Lost a couple AAs all in pre multi-way then won set over set and lost a little back. Up a little right now just coasting.

Been folding a lot and had a revelation that rather than being upset at being card dead I can be happy that I am not in a high stress situation where I have to wager chips and enjoy the break. Playing poker hands is stressful, but folding is not.

Also just taking a second to recognize myself for my cool accomplishments getting to this level of poker in a relatively short span of time. I can really say it was worth it!

A little runbad last night - literally and figuratively. I was not able to transfer to the juicy deep game because our table became short-handed and it was going to be a while before our game filled up anyway, so I just quit so get some sleep and not completely ruin my sleep schedule. Booked a small loss losing AA +flopped nut flush plus straight flush gutter to top set in 3! pot to table fish, also a couple bluffs called. Between that and the AAs all in pre it wasn't going to be my night, so I just racked up rather than play in a much lower-quality game where I would probably lose to the nits hoping for a seat in the good game.

Beautiful weather we're having lately. Not much better feelings than gradually waking up with a few lattes in a sunny room!

I do the same - wow, two hours of easy decisions without a difficult spot!