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Originally Posted by quitebrazen
Very nice!
How are you feeling playing full-time? I'm actually enjoying playing more now that I have a job and that steady income coming in.
But I also have run/played better since starting the job so it's easy to find myself thinking I should just be playing full-time (only make around $30/hour at the job).
I am enjoying it a lot. I have already made about my previous annual salary in just 645 hours. My hourly has been considerably more than I made at a job where I was expected to work a minimum of 40 hours year round, and 50-55+ for 4 months out of the year with 5 weeks combined PTO/sick/vacation (all on the same bucket).
So far I have been averaging 35 hours of poker per week the last 7 weeks. I play a lot of 10a-12pm to 6pm, with a few later nights sprinkled in. I have a 7 year old who lives with me from a previous marriage and a fiancee who lives with me. I am probably not the usual demographic for someone starting their poker career.
I love the game and am passionate and obsessive about it in a way I could never be about my old job. The social aspect is also really cool.
The stress and emotions of losing when you don't have another source of income have been difficult at times, even when I have a sufficient bankroll. My first week full time I was down $5,800 after 52 hours. And even though I have lost more than $7k in one day on five seperate occasions (two of those days happening after I went full time) and I have had 3 $12k downswings in the last year and a half when I played part time, that first week was pretty demoralizing. Just working hard and losing money isn't fun, and no one feels sorry for you.
In that first week, I definitely let my emotions get the best of me when I was at home with my finacee, emotionally draining her. But I realized I can't expect her to just hold me and tell me everything is going to be alright when I decided to become a professional gambler. And I can't take it out on her either. I was able to take a step back and look at the bigger picture. I decided I need to leave it at the poker table and not be so focused on the short term result. Don't put in excessive hours just to make up for recent losses.
The last few weeks have been really good for me personally. My fiancee and I have been working out together. She can tell I am happier than I have been in a long time. I am super hopeful and life is great.
Even when I think of the difficulties I have experienced playing poker these last few weeks, and it was nice to have a steady income, it was agonizing working a job for which I had lost all drive and passion, obsessively thinking about poker every day. Taking away evenings and weekends from my family to play live poker and playing unsatisfying, unrewarding 25c/50c online games to try to scratch that itch. Now I have so much more time with them and I couldn’t give a damn about what live poker games I am missing on Saturday night and rarely can I be arsed to get in the 25c 50c online streets.