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Originally Posted by squid face
Dear The Dude,
It sounds to me like you have almost already made your decision. As you are currently seeing the gamboolin lifestyle is incredibly isolating and lonely. When you are in the midst of a nasty downswing it seems like you are the only person in the world that runs this bad. The truth is this feeling never goes away - cuz the swings are out there and they will happen.
If you really "love poker" play it part time as a side income. Otherwise get all the way out. The glass ceiling on poker is constantly getting lower and thicker. If you are struggling with 1/2 after this much time you have some serious leaks.
You are not a quitter if you stop trying to be a full time pro. You have simply seen the light that there are far better ways to make a living rather than dealing with the energy suck that is the casino environment, and the never ending lonely road that is the professional poker player.
If you are dreading playing 1/2 now after only being on the scene for under a year imagine how you are going to feel after 5, 10, or 20 years.
Very few people last more than a few years trying to be a pro. And those that do last seem to always be trying to find a way out (myself included). That should be evidence enough to hang it up.
good luck and best wishes
skwid
Thanks for listening and taking the time to write an honest reply along w/gobbledygeek. I try to be honest with myself as well. I went out and played today and FINALLY had a decent winning session (up $313 in 4 1/2 hours). I realize one winning session isnt going to turn things around for me, but I had a decent player at the table say to me that "I'm tough to play against" (which obviously isnt something that happens often to anyone) and then I turned around a few hands later and take another big pot from him and he did a table change right after that. So at least that gives me some hope.
Maybe me posting that request for advice was cathartic. A similar thing happened to me when I wasnt doing well at DFS. I posted a message on a DFS web site not understanding why I wasnt winning and then that very night took down 3rd place in a tourny and the rest is history as I ended up having a career 19% ROI over a few years playing DFS. Maybe in both instances it helped me reset and clear my mind of negative thoughts and just allowed me to concentrate at the task at hand.
In any case, I'm giving myself until the end of the year and then I'll re-evaluate if I'll continue playing or not. I know that is a very short time frame, but I think I've given myself adequate time to get things together poker-wise.
But thanks again.