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Originally Posted by Husker
What about those atheists on here who were previously christian? I'm pretty certain they've tried reading the new testament and praying.
I'm definitely in the "faith comes by hearing" camp. Sometimes I'll go weeks without reading the bible. I'll be in a "slump." I'll pray only if I need something. I skip services. I feel as faithless as any atheist.
But I keep a bible in my car at all times in the back seat. I'll swing around while waiting for something or other and read a few lines out loud. Sometimes, that is all it takes. The next day I feel an urge to read a few more, or look up a passage. 5 days later I'm praying again, back in church, reading every day.
The last two years of my life have sucked so bad that I've wanted to throw in the towel and curse God a few times. I don't feel like "being an atheist" or "I read the bible ten years ago" matters much at all. I feel like I've left my faith behind me sometimes, too. I choose to pick up the bible and read it with an open heart. I believe it produces faith in me. But I know if I stop going to church, and stop reading the bible, and stop praying, then my level of faith will shrink. It has happened to me a million times: once- for 15 or so years!
But my experience may be different than most, because when I became a Christian, I fell in love with the scriptures. I studied the scriptures instead of doing homework. I listened to tapes of my pastor late at night while others were sleeping. I had 'sold out' to Christ at the time. So, I have real difficulty understanding how an "ex-christian" could say that they have read the scriptures, and it did nothing for them. I believe a powerful relationship with God's Word is a big part of actually being a Christian. How could you choose to be a follower of something you don't believe in? How could you ever commit yourself to a doctrine or creed that never moves you? You know what I'm saying?