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Originally Posted by BigErf
ok I'll stop talking to those who don't know what I'm talking about
and start talking to those who do
did you even know
that I was talking to you
too
you may think you understand
but I don't think you do
know exactly what it is
that you can do
because you know God
it will be easier to start
and believe me
when I tell you
that you need to start
feeling like what it feels like inside
when you know
God
is you
trying to come out
BigErf, if you will. Please do describe what you wish to discuss without using the word God, you will articulate your point endlessly better. A significant swarf of haters are going to hate just from seeing the word God. Love the haters back by minimising their opportunities to criticize. The information you are trying to share will not make it through a comfort zone that doesn't already include it without the highest degree of diplomacy.
Second to that, you seem to be stuck at a point where you require external verification of your beliefs in order to justify the moral stance that will accompany you for the rest of your journey. The peace of mind you seek can only come from within. That said, the dance with insanity is intense and the bulk of the madness was effectively random logic leaps away from the "I'm the only one that gets this" branch.
I'm not, you're not. We are a rarity though. Congratulations, hopefully my actions prevent your ego from exploding, devastating those around you and spoiling significant chapters of your life.
Thirdly. Abstract time. You are as much me as I am as much you. I do not wish to return to a singular consciousness as I remember the loneliness. Imagine solitary confinement for say, infinite time. With 'only' the minds resources in a void for a prison, creating a few alternative personalities sounds like some great entertainment. And so, like the ultimate picking up one of an infinite number of kaleidoscope's and observing the various shades it's light can create, so we are 'born' until the illusion is no longer adequate.
Protect or destroy the illusion, it's your choice. Just try not be surprised when karma starts making more sense. As, who better to judge you. Than you.
Fourthly. 288~ hours since quitting cannabis. Never touching it to begin with would of been ideal. Ignorance would of been so very bliss. For what it's worth, even at full awareness there is enough mystery written into the script to entertain an entire existence, however long you chose to live.
The real kicker starts when you open conversations at too high a level for another persons current story and so instead of hearing what you said, are alternatively listening to you talking about something else for the exact same span of time and then respond with what sounds like irrelevant information to you, as the sequence of events can only to be grasped through quantum interpretations. So, after the first few unintentional jumps while doing your best to maintain a solid Mona-Lisa-Esque look for the benefit of the less aware, the will to level people up diminishes unless you choose to counter, dispersing frustration and pushing forward towards the ubermensch.
My recommendation is to take the path that allows you maximum happiness and every opportunity to develop your moral character while never giving up, especially on yourself. You will flow towards your own limits and if you don't get in your own way via the resistance of fear and doubt your story can be as rewarding as you dreams.
Morals over Vices
All the best with your adventure, may your soul be good when others would falter.
I
Chelsea.
Last edited by Lexovix; 07-12-2015 at 07:28 AM.
Reason: Changed some words to closer match required emphasis.