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Thank you for sharing your story.
Ill ask a few questions out of interest.
What was the cause of this experience?
Were you constantly aware during this of your body proper?
Is the memory of it dreamlike or of previous experience?
How acurate is your memory of the events?
Can you give us a timetable of events in order?
Did you witness anything that you had no knowledge of prior to the experience?
Things that defy explanation?
Tao1 my man, how long have you got?
*big sigh as I ponder how long to type for and what to include/leave out*
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What was the cause of this experience?
Serious illness.
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Were you constantly aware during this of your body proper?
No.
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Is the memory of it dreamlike or of previous experience?
Both and neither. Hard to nail down. More real than dreamlike, as a memory, although as an experience it was incredibly vivid and "real", moreso than a dream or indeed waking reality. If you want my opinion, and you might not :-) it was a level of reality akin to both dreams and waking life, but slightly different to both.
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How acurate is your memory of the events?
Between 85 and 95% in terms of entirety, but 100% on the details I do remember.
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Can you give us a timetable of events in order?
1. I become consciously aware for the first time, I am floating up through a tunnel, I pop out into a dark night-time country landscape, open flats of grass, autumn or dead trees with no leaves on; looking down I see that I have emerged through something akin to a rabbit-hole.
2. A creature best described as a giant rabid bulldog on steroids is now jumping up and snapping at me. I am taken aback by its ferocity and apparent desire to do me such immediate harm, as I have never seen it before. It feels personal.
3. It locks its jaws around one of my ears and pulls me to the ground, I manage to get away somehow and float back upwards out of its reach.
4. I land a short distance away, the dog now gone (or perhaps tethered), I look across to a slight hill on the distance where stand two reaper/wraiths. Their torn black garbs blowing in the wind being the only visible signs of movement. I can see that underneath their hoods they do not have faces, only an impossible void of nothingness. I feel encouraged that although I can see them, they are a little way away from me and they are not looking in my direction. For some reason I would have been far more worried had they been paying me particular attention.
5. My feet are on the ground now, and I am walking as opposed to floating. I make my way over to a place where the dead trees have netted together in an over-arching mish-mash of branches and roots to form a tunnel. I come in just at an intersection, like a doorway into it, I can see it go on indefinitely in both directions, looking both left and right, I can see that a short distance in either direction it becomes the same void that was under the reapers' hoods. absolute annihilation and nothingness, a concept that is impossible to even imagine in our day-to-day lives, but very real in this tunnel and this shadowy place I have come to. For some reason I feel drawn to the right, and feel that this is the direction of something.
6. I teeter on the edge of this tunnel, leaning my body over to peer in both directions but never actually setting foot on the path, another pointer I find very encouraging; I am witnessing the long dark tunnel, but it is not yet my time to set foot inside it and make the journey, as such.
7. That is my last solid memory, I think at this point I kind of started floating back towards the rabbit-hole and get sucked out of the landscape, but I cannot be 100% on this.
All in all I got the impression that I was visiting the in-between world of life/death, but that it wasn't my time to fully explore it, as in 1. I escaped the dog 2. the death characters weren't acknowledging my presence 3. I didn't set foot on the tunnel path 4. (obviously) I left and came back to the land of the living.
The whole environment was dark and impossibly charged with an intense despair and immediate feeling in my absolute heart of hearts that "NO!! THIS IS REALLY HAPPENING. I'M NOT PREPARED FOR THIS, IT'S SO MUCH MORE SERIOUS THAN ANY TROUBLE I'VE EVER BEEN IN BEFORE. THIS IS REAL, THERE'S NO GOING BACK, NOBODY COMING TO BAIL ME OUT. HOW THE H*L DID THIS HAPPEN TO ME?!??!?!?" It was a place where you could no longer kid yourself. It was utter despair.
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Did you witness anything that you had no knowledge of prior to the experience?
Things that defy explanation?
Very much, and this is the most interesting part.
I had NO spiritual beliefs prior to this, it was the catalyst for my pursuit of spiritual truths to try and figure out what I had been through and to be brutally honest, to try and avoid going back there the next time I "died". I wasn't living a very positive lifestyle at the time, and spiritually I was completely a non factor, and I felt that this may have contributed to such a negative NDE. I went from being a 0% believer to a 100% believer overnight, I felt I had experienced a spiritual reality that my consciousness had visited without my body, and that this was indeed the place I would go to on my bodily death, if I didn't make an effort to live a positive spiritual life, or perhaps even if I did, I don't know.
The things I experienced were nothing original to me however, and this is the real interesting stuff. Research into the literature brought up the symbol of the guard dog of the underworld, classically represented by Cerberus in Greek mythology, some aspects of Anubis in Egyptian mythology, etc.
Also the idea of visiting other realms of reality through "rabbit-holes", another esoteric staple, probably most famously used as a plot device in Alice in Wonderland, but a serious esoteric symbol nonetheless.
The reaper characters pretty much need no introduction, neither does this long dark tunnel.
It was pretty heavy, and although on the one hand I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy, on the other hand I could argue it was the single most important thing that happened to me, and I am grateful for what it has subsequently given me. Had my body died at that time I believe 100% that I would have been left there fully sentient and, pardon the expression, up sh*t creek without a paddle.
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