well gl, I have to do something discomforting in the next few days too. don't really wanna get into detail, so I'll just make an analogy. I have to tune in to this frequency for a while, and on this frequency there is just awful music playing all the time, like not even music that should ever be broadcasted. like 8 year olds playing recorders with an occasional nickelback song tossed in. Not only do I have to tune into this station and listen, I need to listen well and for enough times to thoroughly describe what I am hearing, like good enough that it could be almost reproduced by whoever would read my description. And If I don't do this, or if I fail to describe it thoroughly enough, then I will be locked in a musty, dark, isolated room and fed just enough tasteless food to keep me alive and rational enough to completely grasp my utterly hopeless state for much much longer than i would care to live.