I did yesterday! true story, so I go to get a 14day trial membership for some gym that is advertising $15/month, and the guy is all like, so what are your goals, etc, and i'm like, uhhauhh, to get more upper body strenf i guess and to have a place to do cardio when it's rainin, and he's all like, well how much can you bench, and i'm like uhhauhh, maybe 140ish ( :/ yeah, i know, hence why it was previously mentioned as a goal) and he's like, aww for real? you look like you could do 200, you look like you're in good shape, I bet you climb mountains and stuff (i don't know if he had already looked up the area code of my phone number to see I had been living in MT, or if it was just a super good soul read), but anyways, at this point I realize I am probably gettin a sales pitch. So we go over, and ya, I max at 135 , and he's like man, you got potential bro (lol, amirite) let's go sit down over here and Ill show you what we can offer you. So I have to sit through the BS sales pitch and the, well okay how bout if I waive the initiation fee BS, and I said I am not ready to make any sort of payment today, period, can I have a 14 day trial pass, otherwise I am leaving (cause obv it was gonna be more than $15 a month and the gym was a POS imo). But yah, anyways, I did lift and I am kinda sore today, but.......soon ]
no, I just felt like that because of a perceived rejection
While interacting with several people today, i realized how WOAT i am among my peers. From other experiences, I know that I pick up a lot on the vibe of others, so I would like to convince myself that I become so unsure of my status (and then stuck in my own head overanalyzing, becoming completely incapable of social interaction) because that is how it often is with young adults,ya know, like determining their place in the group and ****, but mostly it's probably just that I am insecure.
On the plus side, older people love me, and since interacting a lot with my nephew and niece (I used to be scared of children too, not knowing how to relate to them), so do kids.
I died. If this goes according to standard gallstone attacks I've had in the past I'll fall asleep exhausted about 4-5am and wake up feeling fan-****ing-tastic. There's really nothing like prolonged intense pain to make normal feel like heaven. I've never done hard drugs, but I imagine the sensation is similar.