WAHA!!! More like "Can stop, did stop, crash and burn"......Its been five months are your throwing in the towel!!?!?!?!! What a joke. Here's the deal, from following your thread it looks to me like you freestyled this too hard and went in at full speed without any sort of solid plan or well thought out goals. You didn't take a shot at playing poker for a living you took a shot at the "Vegas lifestyle" and failed miserably. -I'm gonna help you with your game.
What you ought to do is take a break(a month or maybe two) to regroup. Total break from poker- No colossus, no millionaire maker, no poker books or 2+2 forum, NOTHING....Spend time in the gym(HIRE A TRAINER!-also a strong core and good flexibility will help with long hours at the table), see the rest of the city, trying out new stuff you never thought you would do( I suggest learning a new language and shooting guns!!). Just step away. Then, when its all out of your system and your head is clear- come back. Not the way you did before but with a more balanced and well rounded view. Start by rereading every poker book you have, then at least two you have never read and read them twice.Also read a few none poker books- Dale Carnegie s: how to win friends and influence people, Sun Tzu: Art of war, Marcus Lutrell: Lone survivor, Stephen R.Covey: 7 habits of highly effective people, George Washington: Rules of Civility & Decent Behavior in Company and Conversation (Little Books of Wisdom), are all a must read learn what they have to offer. Spend a couple hours a day for two weeks dealing out hands and calculating the odds, first on paper and then in your head till you can do it very quickly and still get it right(you cant estimate odds- if you do, its just a guess in which case whats the point?) Do it 9 seated just like it would occur at a game and do it for all 9 hands in order, on each street. Also calculate what the right move for each person would be based upon odds(bet fold or check) do this everyday for two weeks once your good at that do it with two radios on different stations and the TV on, you will be amazed how quickly you and your game improves. also practice basic times tables, addition and subtraction and division (You can just do that on paper with what ever numbers you choose) This will help you act more quickly and precisely and help you come to the most accurate numbers. get your eyes checked, if you need corrective eye wear get contacts or surgurey-bad eyes sight will only make a very visual game harder. Approach poker differently- Make going to play more than just trying to win a few hundred bucks, Make a plan before you go, dress up a bit as if your going out, dont just show up after work in you work clothes(You dont have to wear a tie and vest, but it wouldnt hurt) make sure your hygiene is squared away- Shower, fresh deoderant and cologne, brush your teeth, clean your ears etc... all that ****. You know, conduct yourself as if you have a reason to get out of bed in the mourning and the person you see when you look in the mirror matters. stay in the game while you are there, constant analysis and observation is a must, you should always be learning. Do not catagorize other players- This guy is a "fish" That guy is a "reg"- Check yourself- You have refered to many other players as fish but now who is on the forum tapping out after going busto? Not ever table has such a simple division of players its much more dynamic than that, you don't want to underestimate someone and have it cost you big when that estimation turns out wrong( Which it already has) and you don't want to lose value by over estimating someone and playing poorly due to some hyper inflated sense of skill level (Which you already have) Set a solid limit when you sit down- I prefer a dollar limit and not a time limit as you are not playing for hours you are playing for money, but you can set a time max and I do reccomend that, this should be a win limit as well as a loss limit. Example- Buy in-$200 cash out-$400($200 profit) a simple double up, no more than 6 hours no more than 2 buy ins, if you get felted, rebuy once and only to win back the initial buy in- 30 minute break in between buyins (cool down period). Maybe double the cash out limit on fri, sat and sun (High action days) Take half of your profit from each session- One half goes into your wallet, one half goes into your bank roll. Do not make poker a first priority, fitness and some hobby should be (Like martial arts or playing music or whatever your into) You don't have to keep playing but I also don't think you should quit because it didn't go perfect the first time. - "Whether you think you can or think you can'y, you're right"
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