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Originally Posted by thedude404
I only made it 30 hours into the freeroll. If I would have played Saturday, I probably would have given it a shot to complete the 60 hours by this Thursday morning. However, Saturday I failed to get into the top 50 on the wsop.com big50 freeroll (finished 63rd) to get a big50 seat so I was completely bummed about that and no mood to play more poker.
I actually had a good hourly ($19.95) over that time period I played at Harrash's thanks to one really good session. I layed out a schedule to get me to the 60 hours, I just have a really difficult time maintaining. Two losing sessions in a row and I lost all will to continue as I feel I should never walk out of there losing money under any circumstances. I think I screwed myself to begin with when I set a goal of having all my sessions being winning sessions.
Debating whether to give it another try, the last 2 weeks this free roll is being offered starting next Thursday. On the one hand it is nice to think I'd make it to the final table and have my WSOP entirely paid for. On the other hand, it would be so tilting to walk away with $100 from the free roll (or worse not even cash) and/or having a negative hourly over the two week time period. So I could be setting myself up to be on full tilt mode entering the WSOP with little or no will to play poker at all.
We all allow emotion to creep into our performance sometimes (we're not robots), but what you're describing sounds like a huge leak, unless you're being overly dramatic with phrases like "lost all will to continue" and "setting myself up to be on full tilt mode entering the WSOP." Losses are a big part of the game. I'm reluctant to state the obvious but it is just a game, and we play it for money. If you're this emotional about cash game sessions, how in the world do you ever manage to play tournaments??? I've currently gone 28 consecutive tournaments without a cash, and I'm a little discouraged about that, but how would you handle these downswings, which are typical?
Some days do not go well, but you can't let it affect your mood to such a large extent. And it's also affecting your work (if this is your work). To complete 60% of a freeroll opportunity and then not finish it off because you're not in the proper mental state is a big problem.
It's great that you've identified when you're not fit to play, but perhaps freeroll promotions aren't for you if you're not going to complete the hours. The benefits are juicy, but you MUST do the hours. To partially complete them is to give up too much opportunity when you could be in great cash games with lower rake elsewhere.
Might I suggest reframing your goals? Instead of never having a losing session (which is impossible), focus on making good decisions as often as possible, and keeping a calm emotional state. We all need a little perspective sometimes. When the fish gets there on the river against you for the fourth time that hour, it's all going to be fine. You still have your health (presumably), and you still have some cash in your wallet to reload.
It's great to be competitive and it's great to desire success, but none of us control the outcome. We're not driving the bus. People seem to think they have more control over their lives than they really do, and an extreme version of this sentiment often plays out at the poker tables. We worked hard, we've studied the game, and so we're entitled to "fair results." It doesn't work that way. Sometimes really good things happen and sometimes really bad things happen, just like in life. We can take lower variance lines, but that's usually just another leak (albeit a smaller one). Embrace the roller coaster. Or consider playing less poker, if that's an option for you. Your long-term happiness is much more valuable than your $19.95 hourly in the Harrah's 1/2 game!