Slim's Dec. and March TRs...still a degen
03-23-2019
, 02:49 AM
Just got back from Vegas, it was a great trip... and not to sound like a douche, but my standards have gotten pretty high to call it great. First, I do wanna blog the trip I took in December since these things have kinda turned into a diary of self-ish reflection for me. I had written most of it a while ago but procrastinated too much to finish. Just a few days and not a lot of craziness in December, but a few notable things.
I know the gambling and stuff may be funner to read (eventually there will be plenty of that) but for myself I like to include the life experiences and time with friends out there.
Someone on here once commented they enjoyed my TRs because of the self reflection, the transparency and the degeneracy. Well there is going to be plenty of it all but first I think I'm starting with a lot of self reflection...I've had a big ass cup of coffee. Eventually I'm gonna start from my first trip and summarize everything, the celebrity run ins, crazy gambling runs and one thing I'm looking forward to blogging is the day and how I met some of my best friends out there. Lord I have been very blessed with a whole lot. A few I wanna go ahead and do now, just to reference the people with the monikers I have given them.
Through the years there have been several pretty, sweet, charming girls in all these Vegas trips who I would have fun throwing all kinds of compliments and admiration to. They were always out of my league physically and every other aspect so I was never seriously hitting on them, just had fun doing it. I never did it to anyone who wasn't nice or had an ego, she had to be a good sport about it. The very first one from one of my first trips is still one of the prettiest girls in that town. We are still good friends, text/talk often. Lord I used to have a ball getting drunk and complimenting her on everything. So many people, even guys that were crushing on her got a kick out of the crap I would come up with (I was a lot wittier back then). I enjoyed it a lot and she has always known its harmless. In 2016 I met someone who was pretty and all, but one thing way more remarkable is how you can look at her and just tell she's a good person...then talking to her with her engaging, and GENUINE personality/conversation/smile is something only a complete diip**** would not appreciate. Man did I have fun throwing the admiration to her. One time I was in Vegas while she was on vacation. I sent her a pic of myself and a friend with a sad face captioned "Coming here and not seeing you is like going to Disneyland and not seeing Mickey Mouse" boy did I think I was cute with that one. It was just something silly I came up with at the moment but eventually it became the best and most accurate analogy I have ever come up with and I love trying to come up with em. Through time it has become relevant in many ways but a few quick ones are
you can ride space mountain....... play black jack, get a hooker
you can eat good in disneyland or whatever....... Gordon Ramsay steak, Cosmo pizza
and you can do whatever else like visit epcot center....... see Hoover dam, Red Rock canyon, go see shows, etc...............
but nothing has the CHARM of seeing Mickey
You know just now as I post that video I'm thinking while there are sweet kids that make whoever is in that Mickey costume's job enjoyable.... there are a ****load of times that person has gotta hate that fckn job, dealing with kids that are mean and wanted to slap the piss out of some of those little shiits that worry the hell out of Mickey... Well "my Mickey" has certainly had a shiitload of those times herself dealing with my azz. She has to put me in check often when Im too drunk, act a fool. I must say she's the best in the business at it and has made me appreciate her loyalty tremendously
Charm is one of my favorite words and can be defined many ways
: a trait that fascinates, allures, or delights
the charm of this imaginative story
a physical grace or attraction —used in plural
her feminine charms
: compelling attractiveness
the island possessed great charm
I typed the following a while back and wanna do it again
One definition of charm- the ability to make others feel good about themselves. I have also read a quote "all charming people have something to conceal" (not genuine) like a crooked politician. Well, she has to be the most GENUINELY charming person I have ever met.
Many say i'm in love or lust, whatever with Mickey. I have always taken tremendous pride in not being a "Herb" with all my female friends and am overly honest about it all. With Mickey, while I love talking to and learning from her, I don't aspire to get on her or anything..... but I used to joke with the old line "I wouldn't kick her out of bed....unless she wanted to do it on the floor" Sitting here in retrospect there are times in the past my "squish" with Mickey turned into a crush like any hetero male I guess but I do know the amount of respect and platonic love I have developed far surpass any desire for romance or lust. Every man would call BS (a few days ago she told me a while back her BF said "he's just an old man who wants to F*** you haha) but every man has not seen what I have seen in my screwed up life...and also while I'm not wealthy anymore I still have enough money... and not enough appreciation for it to rent a tested, disease free porn star if that was what I was after. Not saying I have done that, but just saying. I don't think there are many people in the world that could truly comprehend my friendship with her.
Annnnnnyways (big cup of coffee) that's Mickey
Don't remember when I first met Donald Duck but I do know the first time I saw her I said that's the hottest girl in this town or maybe any other. I'm obviously no prize but unfortunately I am a lot pickier than I need or can afford to be. A voluptious, physically endowed girl is definitely one I will lust over, but for me to be attracted to anywhere close to the level I am of D Duck, she has to be pretty and also just have that look of genuineness, sweetness or.... something. I have known her about as long as I have Mickey but not nearly as well. She doesn't hang out with many people and she gets hit on NONNNNNN stop, gets phone numbers thrown at her like a wishing well gets coins thrown at it. It makes no sense for her to give me time of day. Last week someone asked her why she befriended me. She looked at me and said why, it really made me smile. She is also very genuine. We're not as tight as many of my other Vegas friends but her being so friendly like pretty, and definitely one of the sweetest girls I have known, puts her up there on the Disney scale. I always very much look forward to seeing her. After I started with the Disney monikers, I called her D Duck
Goofy is a guy who is ironically from the same area as me. Can't remember the day I met him either, we actually discussed it this trip. I guess back when I met him my sense of humor was closer to the level of his and we just hit it off. (Severe anxiety has killed a lot of my non azzholish humor) Often he is a one man show, never a boring moment around him. However to be as "goofy" as he can be, he's really intelligent and a great, loyal friend. I often say Mickey and Goofy are two of the most remarkable people I know. D Duck is pretty remarkable herself. Looks aside, just with her life story and several other aspects.
I used to go on a lot of cruises and many people I met there I will always remember, have a fond memory of. People you meet on vacation can have what I now use the term "The Mickey Mouse Effect" on you. There should be a term for it on urban dictionary. Something like... When you have a special fondness for someone you meet while on vacation or a happy time in your life. Maybe when I get addied up or something I can come up with a proper definition for it. Any suggestions to do it justice on U dict. would be appreciated.
Didn't mean to go on like that but that's who they are. I'm pretty transparent on these things but I would be stupid to post pics of any of them on here. Back to the December trip.....
Here lately I've gotten out of control, azzholish when I get too drunk and blackout bad. What is the point of being around good friends, having fun if you can't remember it? This year had sucked, the worst of my life. Going to Vegas usually helps my anxiety, so I decided to go back hoping to end the year on a better note. I guess the anxiety is just permanent now or something as it was bad just before, and during the trip. Never before going on a trip did I feel like that, not much excitement but a ton of anxiety. I almost turned around and left the airport even after clearing security, then a call from "Goofy" with the plans laid out for the weekend got me looking forward to it. I wish I could get hammered and be the old me but it just doesn't happen so I wanted to calm the drinking down this trip, no shots.... which was successful til the last morning.
While I'm packing this movie was on ha!
Didn't arrive til midnight on a Thurs. Host comped the panoramic suite (expensive) so I didn't get a room the first night since I was gonna be up anyways. Played some sucker games a bit, sat with this guy who let me try on his world series ring. He was a scout or something.
Started drinking but didn't get too bad. Played some poker, left my chips there a while, came back to this
"Some guy at table games thinks you're cute"
I have always been a little "sticious" done like a lot of people and find a "lady luck" or whatever to help the run good. It's not so much about finding a pretty girl, but a good natured, honest person is what helps I convinced myself. Guy, girl, whatever, just a good person. A long time ago I discovered the G.O.A.T. of good luck. "The Shawna Streak" has been like nothing I have even heard of. Gonna give a quick review of it since not much to write about this trip and win or lose I wanted to call it quits on the streak. Was hoping to go out like Peyton with it this trip.
I've never met someone who has a more positive, friendly energy. Often I see people that have just met her and people that have known her for years comment about it. She is genuinely nice, respected by everyone and not the least bit fake (very rare in Vegas). As far as my "good person" criteria, she meets it better than anyone. Not really sure when the streak first started, she told me one day she walked by and I gave her a $5 chip cause seemed like I won whenever she was around. Down the road I started getting her to cut the cards and the luck that came from it has been miraculous. Within the past couple trips she cut a two deck shoe which I won every hand (no shiit), 2 other times in the past 2 trips she cut, I won 8 in a row and quit. (I am not mistaken on that) I usually get her to cut the last shoe of the trip. Last 4 trips she did ended on big wins
Several trips ago, I was doing very bad, had only about 1k left on the last day. She cut, ran it up big. I asked her to do it one more time, she said only if you play one hand then quit. This happened and it was awesome
One day I had a b.s. bonus online with bovada. I had ran it up to over 5k but couldn't cash it out because I had so much rollover left. Lost it all to $330 and just quit out of disgust.
She texted out of the blue shortly after and I said why not, took it as a sign and played right then. Wasn't long before I got to this
By the time I quit I was almost at 30k that day. 330 to 30k is a run of a lifetime by itself. Way more has happened, the odds of it all happening again has to be like hitting the Powerball. It has been unbelievable. Never, not even once have I lost when she cut. I broke even on the last trip after she cut, ironic that it was the trip I got too blackout drunk the whole time and acted like a azzhole a lot. Only people that have witnessed some of it believe it. Some call it b.s. Several times dealers have convinced me to cut the cards myself when I couldn't find her, said it didn't matter, then I proceed to lose my azz. I know the odds don't change but this whole thing has been crazy to say the least and its been a lot... a whole lot of fun
She was there the first night of the trip, was doing good
I remember I wound up at craps. 6 was the point, I went big on hard 6. Shawna walks by and I told the guy rolling a story from last trip... we needed a hard 8. Said I had told the guy rolling then to look at her and roll a hard 8 and he did the next roll. I told this guy to look at her and roll a hard 6. He sarcastically said, yeah whatever. Next roll, no shiit hard 6. I looked like Sheldon Cooper when he received the autographed napkin with Spock's DNA, got to say I told you so also haha. The odds of hitting two hardways in a row, first try on each over 1000-1. On demand like that is even crazier. I swear I don't make this stuff up, wouldn't risk my karma to lie on a blog I'm not getting paid for anyways. Cashed out at that moment, was up pretty good after the first night.
Had a big weekend planned to eat good at G Ramsay, Prime or somewhere good, not just get drunk and waste the weekend away. However, I had stayed up all night, didnt go to bed til about 2pm that next morning. Next pic was at 4:30 am, so much for a productive day. Another person gets introduced to the Willy Wonka door, I'm pathetic I know
Didn't do anything crazy that night but got out of hand with the B Jack. Shawna wasn't there and it feels just like the movie The Cooler, lost my azz when she's not around, lost bad. (The Cooler is my favorite Vegas movie, highly recommended) The losses put me in the dirt, was supposed to go eat at my favorite sushi place that afternoon, then to a good dinner Saturday but couldn't get out of bed. Had plans to watch football Sunday so just crashed. Wasted a Saturday night, but didn't lose anymore
Had a crowd meeting at Beer Park for football. Apparently one girl had a reputation with her coworkers for flaking. She was late, wagers were being offered that she would show up. I said I'll give you 5-1 odds she does by halftime, money on the table
The money on the table drew interest, other got in, even the waitress. If she doesn't show up I'm gonna lose big
The deal was she had to sit down in a seat at the table before 2 minutes left in halftime. The clock must have been around 4:30 when she showed up. The people that bet against her all just paraded her with hugs and conversation trying to stall her. I had to regulate and get her to sit in that seat, she made it. I was happy
Not a Steelers fan but they were playing the Patriots so I bet big on the Steelers and pulled with some friends. I guess I was drunker than I thought or just blackout sometimes with a buzz now because about a week after I got home my buddy that has access to my online account says do you remember asking me to live bet the Steelers for 1k after the Pats scored the first TD? They won and it was great. We had a big crowd and a good time
"Goofy" was happy
The weather was perfect, Beer Park has to have the best view of any sports bar in the world, great place to watch a game
However, it ain't cheap
With the losses at the tables I knew the room charges would get comped so it was fine. Had a great time and it was the highlight of the trip.... which is not saying much this time but it was a lot of fun
Looks like I didn't do much that night other than Eggslut. Sausage and bacon fairfax style. Besides the long azz line, Eggslut is like a sore pecker.... tough to beat
The next night we started late but I was pulling an all nighter, started throwin em back at the bar. I love the sportsbar at PH like Sheldon loves "his spot"
I had addied up, went to Aria. Met these girls who were apparently very wealthy. I think they considered me to be skinny and malnourished, gave me a lobster and some of their dessert that I still remember was great. The best meal of the trip ended up being a handout.
Went back to PH, flight was that afternoon so it was time for my "last stand" at B jack. Wasn't gonna do it without Shawna. I had around 1500-2k left at the most and was down big this trip. Going for even was gonna take some magic. Shawna has definitely earned a Disney moniker herself. Mickey is taken but I can't think of one that has magical powers that is not evil, so let's cheat a little and go with Mickey as The Sorcerer's Apprentice.... Sorcerer Shawna?
She cut the cards, while she was in the process I didn't wanna do anything to alter the time based continuum. I remember sitting like a stone, she took a sec, cut and sat for a few hands. She said until a trip or two ago she didn't believe all this Shawna streak stuff until she saw some of the magic herself. I was gonna go all out so went 500 a hand, if I lose a few.... thats it. Won the first 3 hands while she watched. She left and I dropped to 100, lost the next 3. (I'm sticious about the things happen in 3 rule) I usually don't remember drunken times good but I had addied up, recall it well. Went on a run after that
Needed this double down bad, got it
The shoe was coming to an end. I had told Shawna I was only gonna ask for one cut (I worry the piss out of her) I decided to go big, bet 2,300. Get pocket 4s vs dealer 6. Split of course, I vividly remember saying we know the first card is going to be a 6 or 7. It was, doubled down and now most of my roll for the trip was on the line. This was do or die, I screamed for Shawna to come. The cards were determined but I often say I like friends to be there for the good time if it wins, but more so for immediate consolation if it loses. Also I have just always won when she was there. She came and watched, I got dealt crap. If the dealer doesn't bust the magical streak is over and I'm broke. I am good with it either way but man would it be cool if I got that bust. Odds of a dealer bust with 6 showing is 42%. Here goes
I usually don't get nervous or giddy no matter how big the hand but hearing myself, I think I definitely was. A hand like that to end the trip is sexy
Called it quits, cashed out. You would think that woulda put me up big but it made me break right at even, maybe up a little
I wanna do a disclaimer here... these pics and stories of wins are cool but overall gambling at a degenerate level sucks. People will often speak of the wins but not the losses. A wise man from home often says "A gambler's money is never his own" and that is all too true. He also says "money is hard to earn, easy to spend and every sum bich in the world is after it" Gambling heavy can take so much energy from your life, as it has mine.... don't do it. For my degen self, not losing money is better than winning it. This miraculous run kept me from losing, man was I relieved. The Shawna streak was still alive and was retired...... well at the time it was. The G.O.A.T. of good luck needed to be retired into the hall of fame, this crazy story should end and end on a good note. Shawna is around 25-0-1 all time now. Mayweather may be 50-0 or whatever but many of his wins were boring while Shawna's have been Mike Tyson like knockouts.
Went and celebrated with drinks, said the heck with my no shot rule since I can't mess up but so bad with this little time left
I hadn't walked through the Bellagio conservatory yet, so ran over and did that real quick. I like Christmas, it was beautiful
Now that the good wholesome stuff is over with, went back to the bar, got hammered
The asian bartender there is hilarious. If you see him, look out for him and the rest of em, good guys. Had to run up and pack before I got too sloppy, destroyed that lobster
I was good and drunk, before I knew it I had stayed too long. Was gonna be lucky to make the flight. Host came and talked to me, took care of all the room charges and got a limo to the airport. My buddy knew I was hammered, looked out and rode with me
While at the bar, I knew in my drunken condition I had a better chance of losing my carry on bag.... the one with all the cash in it, than losing my big one so I put the carry on inside the big bag. I gave the guy at the curb a 20 and asked him to help me make this flight, checked the bags. He got me through quickly but about the time I cleared security I realized I left around 16k in a checked bag. I knew there was nothing I could do about it and still a little drunk, I didn't worry too much. When I landed, got to baggage claim and there was a very long delay. They switched the claim carousel and I'm thinking here we fckn go.... about the time the bags came out 2 dudes in front of me started arguing and it was about to escalate to blows. I guess I was still a little drunk/tired and yelled dear God please don't fckn fight right now. They both looked at me funny and cooled off. Eventually got my bags and the money was there. I'm thinking they probly took 100 or so, but I guess I owe the stupidity tax
As I write this up it seems like a good trip but the majority of it wasn't, even when breaking even was probly as good a trip as I have had financially in a while. In hindsight I think the meds I was own messed me up, I was on something less common that I got off shortly after this trip. Maybe that's just an excuse for my azzholish behavior but regardless I just didn't know how to deal with anxiety. I had never been a mean drunk my entire life, usually a happy one but during that time I was an idiot. Now its obvious I was suffering from significant depression for the first time. When I got back home I drank a lot and biched to close friends about not having millions anymore too much. Nobody wants to hear about your problems but good friends help you vent, well I had done it too much. A quote I pride myself with originating is "misery loves company but company doesn't love misery" I have never drank by myself because I have said that would be a step to alcoholism. So I went to a friends house that lives down the street a lot and threw back the vodka regularly. Not trying to defend myself but realizing your life's dream of a secure and wealthy future then watching it go down the shiitter day by day took its toll. I was a mouse click away from never having to worry about anything again and every time I heard that alarm clock in the morning it was the first thing I thought about for a long time, often still do. I thought about it nonstop. Sounds vain but it's true. Losing that much money has gotta be worse than a broken heart. You can find another love, but for a normal Joe to have millions again and moreso the time/freedom...no. Money isn't everything but the phrase "time is money" didn't come from nowhere. Having "*** you" money is also a lot of freedom I will never have now. Trading crypto took up most of my time for 3 years. I thought I was good at it, made some crazy calls that panned out well at first. The gambler's mentality is what allowed me to excel at it, then ultimately crash at it trying to get back to the peak I was at before. I really screwed up chasing with BS altcoins. My hobby, my main source of income and my passion was lost last year, wasn't easy. If I could write, I'm sure I could write a book about last year if I were to reveal all of what happened.
One Monday evening about 2 weeks after Christmas I hammered a pint of vodka straight in about 40 minutes and kept on with other alcohol. My friend, his girl and others went to eat and I acted like a drunken bafoon... blackout drunk on a Monday, in a town where noone is drunk on a Monday. I looked at the videos on my phone the next day and it made me sick to my stomach. It was obvious my friends weren't going to hang out with me anymore if I kept at it. That was the last day I drank liquor until I went back to Vegas in March. At the end of this recent March trip my friend Mickey told me I was much happier this time. She is wise beyond her years and really helps me self reflect. She said the previous 2 trips I seemed miserable. That surprised me a bit because out there I'm usually good at sucking it up and not showing it. In hindsight, somehow winding up, having to defecate in dark stairwells, being mean to 3 of my best Vegas friends and almost losing them.... yeah I had a problem. I thought about what was different now and said maybe I hit rock bottom. (that blackout Monday) When I was drinking daily, bichin to my friends about lost fortune, some would say don't worry, you'll get it back. They were trying to be optimistic and friendly but I know that it's not likely. Me and a friend who isn't much of a "charmer" and traded/researched crypto with me daily were sitting by the fire shortly after my "rock bottom" I couldn't help but talk about it because I'm now dealing with what to do with my life. I told him how people say I will get it back, he said nope, that was a once in a lifetime thing and he was right. He said the thing is now, you don't wanna be 80, looking back about how depressed you were and wasted all this time. I think my outlook changed shortly after and I was a lot better.
I always used to hear about people with anxiety/depression and said pssssh grow a pair. Well now I know firsthand it is a mother fcker and can rip your life away. I am very empathetic to anyone suffering from it now. I read a quote "we get depressed because we know we are not what we could be" that is correct and it is why we as humans get depressed but you can't let it drain your life like I did.
I know not many read this, not exactly the NY Times but I do care about what little influence what I write can have. I do not wanna glorify drinking/gambling at my levels. It can be great but it can also be fckn horrible. Dan Bilzerian said it best when he explained how he can win 2 million and be a little excited, but lose 200k and be fckn irate. The agony of losing far outweighs the joy of winning.
I got carried away and spent too much time writing about my BS. Certainly didn't imagine a year ago when I was popping bottles of expensive champagne and whatnot I would be sitting here writing crap about my personal struggles like this. Gonna have to blog my recent trip later but will soon. It was one of the best trips I ever had and the excitement thinking back on it is what has me writing now. If I do it justice, should be a good read. I guess the next time I get caffeinated I'll get on it.
Not much funny stuff in this long azz write up so here's a joke....go ahead and get the gong or the little drum ready...
Man has a piece of lettuce hanging out of his azz so he goes to the doctor. It was very busy, the Dr. asked the man what was wrong.... I have a piece of lettuce hanging out my azz says the man. Dr. says man, I got a ton of people out there waiting and you're worried about a piece of lettuce hanging out your azz??!! Man responds.. hell, that's just the tip of the iceberg.... get it ? pervert stuck a head of lettuce up his azz????
I tried
I know the gambling and stuff may be funner to read (eventually there will be plenty of that) but for myself I like to include the life experiences and time with friends out there.
Someone on here once commented they enjoyed my TRs because of the self reflection, the transparency and the degeneracy. Well there is going to be plenty of it all but first I think I'm starting with a lot of self reflection...I've had a big ass cup of coffee. Eventually I'm gonna start from my first trip and summarize everything, the celebrity run ins, crazy gambling runs and one thing I'm looking forward to blogging is the day and how I met some of my best friends out there. Lord I have been very blessed with a whole lot. A few I wanna go ahead and do now, just to reference the people with the monikers I have given them.
Through the years there have been several pretty, sweet, charming girls in all these Vegas trips who I would have fun throwing all kinds of compliments and admiration to. They were always out of my league physically and every other aspect so I was never seriously hitting on them, just had fun doing it. I never did it to anyone who wasn't nice or had an ego, she had to be a good sport about it. The very first one from one of my first trips is still one of the prettiest girls in that town. We are still good friends, text/talk often. Lord I used to have a ball getting drunk and complimenting her on everything. So many people, even guys that were crushing on her got a kick out of the crap I would come up with (I was a lot wittier back then). I enjoyed it a lot and she has always known its harmless. In 2016 I met someone who was pretty and all, but one thing way more remarkable is how you can look at her and just tell she's a good person...then talking to her with her engaging, and GENUINE personality/conversation/smile is something only a complete diip**** would not appreciate. Man did I have fun throwing the admiration to her. One time I was in Vegas while she was on vacation. I sent her a pic of myself and a friend with a sad face captioned "Coming here and not seeing you is like going to Disneyland and not seeing Mickey Mouse" boy did I think I was cute with that one. It was just something silly I came up with at the moment but eventually it became the best and most accurate analogy I have ever come up with and I love trying to come up with em. Through time it has become relevant in many ways but a few quick ones are
you can ride space mountain....... play black jack, get a hooker
you can eat good in disneyland or whatever....... Gordon Ramsay steak, Cosmo pizza
and you can do whatever else like visit epcot center....... see Hoover dam, Red Rock canyon, go see shows, etc...............
but nothing has the CHARM of seeing Mickey
You know just now as I post that video I'm thinking while there are sweet kids that make whoever is in that Mickey costume's job enjoyable.... there are a ****load of times that person has gotta hate that fckn job, dealing with kids that are mean and wanted to slap the piss out of some of those little shiits that worry the hell out of Mickey... Well "my Mickey" has certainly had a shiitload of those times herself dealing with my azz. She has to put me in check often when Im too drunk, act a fool. I must say she's the best in the business at it and has made me appreciate her loyalty tremendously
Charm is one of my favorite words and can be defined many ways
: a trait that fascinates, allures, or delights
the charm of this imaginative story
a physical grace or attraction —used in plural
her feminine charms
: compelling attractiveness
the island possessed great charm
I typed the following a while back and wanna do it again
One definition of charm- the ability to make others feel good about themselves. I have also read a quote "all charming people have something to conceal" (not genuine) like a crooked politician. Well, she has to be the most GENUINELY charming person I have ever met.
Many say i'm in love or lust, whatever with Mickey. I have always taken tremendous pride in not being a "Herb" with all my female friends and am overly honest about it all. With Mickey, while I love talking to and learning from her, I don't aspire to get on her or anything..... but I used to joke with the old line "I wouldn't kick her out of bed....unless she wanted to do it on the floor" Sitting here in retrospect there are times in the past my "squish" with Mickey turned into a crush like any hetero male I guess but I do know the amount of respect and platonic love I have developed far surpass any desire for romance or lust. Every man would call BS (a few days ago she told me a while back her BF said "he's just an old man who wants to F*** you haha) but every man has not seen what I have seen in my screwed up life...and also while I'm not wealthy anymore I still have enough money... and not enough appreciation for it to rent a tested, disease free porn star if that was what I was after. Not saying I have done that, but just saying. I don't think there are many people in the world that could truly comprehend my friendship with her.
Annnnnnyways (big cup of coffee) that's Mickey
Don't remember when I first met Donald Duck but I do know the first time I saw her I said that's the hottest girl in this town or maybe any other. I'm obviously no prize but unfortunately I am a lot pickier than I need or can afford to be. A voluptious, physically endowed girl is definitely one I will lust over, but for me to be attracted to anywhere close to the level I am of D Duck, she has to be pretty and also just have that look of genuineness, sweetness or.... something. I have known her about as long as I have Mickey but not nearly as well. She doesn't hang out with many people and she gets hit on NONNNNNN stop, gets phone numbers thrown at her like a wishing well gets coins thrown at it. It makes no sense for her to give me time of day. Last week someone asked her why she befriended me. She looked at me and said why, it really made me smile. She is also very genuine. We're not as tight as many of my other Vegas friends but her being so friendly like pretty, and definitely one of the sweetest girls I have known, puts her up there on the Disney scale. I always very much look forward to seeing her. After I started with the Disney monikers, I called her D Duck
Goofy is a guy who is ironically from the same area as me. Can't remember the day I met him either, we actually discussed it this trip. I guess back when I met him my sense of humor was closer to the level of his and we just hit it off. (Severe anxiety has killed a lot of my non azzholish humor) Often he is a one man show, never a boring moment around him. However to be as "goofy" as he can be, he's really intelligent and a great, loyal friend. I often say Mickey and Goofy are two of the most remarkable people I know. D Duck is pretty remarkable herself. Looks aside, just with her life story and several other aspects.
I used to go on a lot of cruises and many people I met there I will always remember, have a fond memory of. People you meet on vacation can have what I now use the term "The Mickey Mouse Effect" on you. There should be a term for it on urban dictionary. Something like... When you have a special fondness for someone you meet while on vacation or a happy time in your life. Maybe when I get addied up or something I can come up with a proper definition for it. Any suggestions to do it justice on U dict. would be appreciated.
Didn't mean to go on like that but that's who they are. I'm pretty transparent on these things but I would be stupid to post pics of any of them on here. Back to the December trip.....
Here lately I've gotten out of control, azzholish when I get too drunk and blackout bad. What is the point of being around good friends, having fun if you can't remember it? This year had sucked, the worst of my life. Going to Vegas usually helps my anxiety, so I decided to go back hoping to end the year on a better note. I guess the anxiety is just permanent now or something as it was bad just before, and during the trip. Never before going on a trip did I feel like that, not much excitement but a ton of anxiety. I almost turned around and left the airport even after clearing security, then a call from "Goofy" with the plans laid out for the weekend got me looking forward to it. I wish I could get hammered and be the old me but it just doesn't happen so I wanted to calm the drinking down this trip, no shots.... which was successful til the last morning.
While I'm packing this movie was on ha!
Didn't arrive til midnight on a Thurs. Host comped the panoramic suite (expensive) so I didn't get a room the first night since I was gonna be up anyways. Played some sucker games a bit, sat with this guy who let me try on his world series ring. He was a scout or something.
Started drinking but didn't get too bad. Played some poker, left my chips there a while, came back to this
"Some guy at table games thinks you're cute"
I have always been a little "sticious" done like a lot of people and find a "lady luck" or whatever to help the run good. It's not so much about finding a pretty girl, but a good natured, honest person is what helps I convinced myself. Guy, girl, whatever, just a good person. A long time ago I discovered the G.O.A.T. of good luck. "The Shawna Streak" has been like nothing I have even heard of. Gonna give a quick review of it since not much to write about this trip and win or lose I wanted to call it quits on the streak. Was hoping to go out like Peyton with it this trip.
I've never met someone who has a more positive, friendly energy. Often I see people that have just met her and people that have known her for years comment about it. She is genuinely nice, respected by everyone and not the least bit fake (very rare in Vegas). As far as my "good person" criteria, she meets it better than anyone. Not really sure when the streak first started, she told me one day she walked by and I gave her a $5 chip cause seemed like I won whenever she was around. Down the road I started getting her to cut the cards and the luck that came from it has been miraculous. Within the past couple trips she cut a two deck shoe which I won every hand (no shiit), 2 other times in the past 2 trips she cut, I won 8 in a row and quit. (I am not mistaken on that) I usually get her to cut the last shoe of the trip. Last 4 trips she did ended on big wins
Several trips ago, I was doing very bad, had only about 1k left on the last day. She cut, ran it up big. I asked her to do it one more time, she said only if you play one hand then quit. This happened and it was awesome
One day I had a b.s. bonus online with bovada. I had ran it up to over 5k but couldn't cash it out because I had so much rollover left. Lost it all to $330 and just quit out of disgust.
She texted out of the blue shortly after and I said why not, took it as a sign and played right then. Wasn't long before I got to this
By the time I quit I was almost at 30k that day. 330 to 30k is a run of a lifetime by itself. Way more has happened, the odds of it all happening again has to be like hitting the Powerball. It has been unbelievable. Never, not even once have I lost when she cut. I broke even on the last trip after she cut, ironic that it was the trip I got too blackout drunk the whole time and acted like a azzhole a lot. Only people that have witnessed some of it believe it. Some call it b.s. Several times dealers have convinced me to cut the cards myself when I couldn't find her, said it didn't matter, then I proceed to lose my azz. I know the odds don't change but this whole thing has been crazy to say the least and its been a lot... a whole lot of fun
She was there the first night of the trip, was doing good
I remember I wound up at craps. 6 was the point, I went big on hard 6. Shawna walks by and I told the guy rolling a story from last trip... we needed a hard 8. Said I had told the guy rolling then to look at her and roll a hard 8 and he did the next roll. I told this guy to look at her and roll a hard 6. He sarcastically said, yeah whatever. Next roll, no shiit hard 6. I looked like Sheldon Cooper when he received the autographed napkin with Spock's DNA, got to say I told you so also haha. The odds of hitting two hardways in a row, first try on each over 1000-1. On demand like that is even crazier. I swear I don't make this stuff up, wouldn't risk my karma to lie on a blog I'm not getting paid for anyways. Cashed out at that moment, was up pretty good after the first night.
Had a big weekend planned to eat good at G Ramsay, Prime or somewhere good, not just get drunk and waste the weekend away. However, I had stayed up all night, didnt go to bed til about 2pm that next morning. Next pic was at 4:30 am, so much for a productive day. Another person gets introduced to the Willy Wonka door, I'm pathetic I know
Didn't do anything crazy that night but got out of hand with the B Jack. Shawna wasn't there and it feels just like the movie The Cooler, lost my azz when she's not around, lost bad. (The Cooler is my favorite Vegas movie, highly recommended) The losses put me in the dirt, was supposed to go eat at my favorite sushi place that afternoon, then to a good dinner Saturday but couldn't get out of bed. Had plans to watch football Sunday so just crashed. Wasted a Saturday night, but didn't lose anymore
Had a crowd meeting at Beer Park for football. Apparently one girl had a reputation with her coworkers for flaking. She was late, wagers were being offered that she would show up. I said I'll give you 5-1 odds she does by halftime, money on the table
The money on the table drew interest, other got in, even the waitress. If she doesn't show up I'm gonna lose big
The deal was she had to sit down in a seat at the table before 2 minutes left in halftime. The clock must have been around 4:30 when she showed up. The people that bet against her all just paraded her with hugs and conversation trying to stall her. I had to regulate and get her to sit in that seat, she made it. I was happy
Not a Steelers fan but they were playing the Patriots so I bet big on the Steelers and pulled with some friends. I guess I was drunker than I thought or just blackout sometimes with a buzz now because about a week after I got home my buddy that has access to my online account says do you remember asking me to live bet the Steelers for 1k after the Pats scored the first TD? They won and it was great. We had a big crowd and a good time
"Goofy" was happy
The weather was perfect, Beer Park has to have the best view of any sports bar in the world, great place to watch a game
However, it ain't cheap
With the losses at the tables I knew the room charges would get comped so it was fine. Had a great time and it was the highlight of the trip.... which is not saying much this time but it was a lot of fun
Looks like I didn't do much that night other than Eggslut. Sausage and bacon fairfax style. Besides the long azz line, Eggslut is like a sore pecker.... tough to beat
The next night we started late but I was pulling an all nighter, started throwin em back at the bar. I love the sportsbar at PH like Sheldon loves "his spot"
I had addied up, went to Aria. Met these girls who were apparently very wealthy. I think they considered me to be skinny and malnourished, gave me a lobster and some of their dessert that I still remember was great. The best meal of the trip ended up being a handout.
Went back to PH, flight was that afternoon so it was time for my "last stand" at B jack. Wasn't gonna do it without Shawna. I had around 1500-2k left at the most and was down big this trip. Going for even was gonna take some magic. Shawna has definitely earned a Disney moniker herself. Mickey is taken but I can't think of one that has magical powers that is not evil, so let's cheat a little and go with Mickey as The Sorcerer's Apprentice.... Sorcerer Shawna?
She cut the cards, while she was in the process I didn't wanna do anything to alter the time based continuum. I remember sitting like a stone, she took a sec, cut and sat for a few hands. She said until a trip or two ago she didn't believe all this Shawna streak stuff until she saw some of the magic herself. I was gonna go all out so went 500 a hand, if I lose a few.... thats it. Won the first 3 hands while she watched. She left and I dropped to 100, lost the next 3. (I'm sticious about the things happen in 3 rule) I usually don't remember drunken times good but I had addied up, recall it well. Went on a run after that
Needed this double down bad, got it
The shoe was coming to an end. I had told Shawna I was only gonna ask for one cut (I worry the piss out of her) I decided to go big, bet 2,300. Get pocket 4s vs dealer 6. Split of course, I vividly remember saying we know the first card is going to be a 6 or 7. It was, doubled down and now most of my roll for the trip was on the line. This was do or die, I screamed for Shawna to come. The cards were determined but I often say I like friends to be there for the good time if it wins, but more so for immediate consolation if it loses. Also I have just always won when she was there. She came and watched, I got dealt crap. If the dealer doesn't bust the magical streak is over and I'm broke. I am good with it either way but man would it be cool if I got that bust. Odds of a dealer bust with 6 showing is 42%. Here goes
I usually don't get nervous or giddy no matter how big the hand but hearing myself, I think I definitely was. A hand like that to end the trip is sexy
Called it quits, cashed out. You would think that woulda put me up big but it made me break right at even, maybe up a little
I wanna do a disclaimer here... these pics and stories of wins are cool but overall gambling at a degenerate level sucks. People will often speak of the wins but not the losses. A wise man from home often says "A gambler's money is never his own" and that is all too true. He also says "money is hard to earn, easy to spend and every sum bich in the world is after it" Gambling heavy can take so much energy from your life, as it has mine.... don't do it. For my degen self, not losing money is better than winning it. This miraculous run kept me from losing, man was I relieved. The Shawna streak was still alive and was retired...... well at the time it was. The G.O.A.T. of good luck needed to be retired into the hall of fame, this crazy story should end and end on a good note. Shawna is around 25-0-1 all time now. Mayweather may be 50-0 or whatever but many of his wins were boring while Shawna's have been Mike Tyson like knockouts.
Went and celebrated with drinks, said the heck with my no shot rule since I can't mess up but so bad with this little time left
I hadn't walked through the Bellagio conservatory yet, so ran over and did that real quick. I like Christmas, it was beautiful
Now that the good wholesome stuff is over with, went back to the bar, got hammered
The asian bartender there is hilarious. If you see him, look out for him and the rest of em, good guys. Had to run up and pack before I got too sloppy, destroyed that lobster
I was good and drunk, before I knew it I had stayed too long. Was gonna be lucky to make the flight. Host came and talked to me, took care of all the room charges and got a limo to the airport. My buddy knew I was hammered, looked out and rode with me
While at the bar, I knew in my drunken condition I had a better chance of losing my carry on bag.... the one with all the cash in it, than losing my big one so I put the carry on inside the big bag. I gave the guy at the curb a 20 and asked him to help me make this flight, checked the bags. He got me through quickly but about the time I cleared security I realized I left around 16k in a checked bag. I knew there was nothing I could do about it and still a little drunk, I didn't worry too much. When I landed, got to baggage claim and there was a very long delay. They switched the claim carousel and I'm thinking here we fckn go.... about the time the bags came out 2 dudes in front of me started arguing and it was about to escalate to blows. I guess I was still a little drunk/tired and yelled dear God please don't fckn fight right now. They both looked at me funny and cooled off. Eventually got my bags and the money was there. I'm thinking they probly took 100 or so, but I guess I owe the stupidity tax
As I write this up it seems like a good trip but the majority of it wasn't, even when breaking even was probly as good a trip as I have had financially in a while. In hindsight I think the meds I was own messed me up, I was on something less common that I got off shortly after this trip. Maybe that's just an excuse for my azzholish behavior but regardless I just didn't know how to deal with anxiety. I had never been a mean drunk my entire life, usually a happy one but during that time I was an idiot. Now its obvious I was suffering from significant depression for the first time. When I got back home I drank a lot and biched to close friends about not having millions anymore too much. Nobody wants to hear about your problems but good friends help you vent, well I had done it too much. A quote I pride myself with originating is "misery loves company but company doesn't love misery" I have never drank by myself because I have said that would be a step to alcoholism. So I went to a friends house that lives down the street a lot and threw back the vodka regularly. Not trying to defend myself but realizing your life's dream of a secure and wealthy future then watching it go down the shiitter day by day took its toll. I was a mouse click away from never having to worry about anything again and every time I heard that alarm clock in the morning it was the first thing I thought about for a long time, often still do. I thought about it nonstop. Sounds vain but it's true. Losing that much money has gotta be worse than a broken heart. You can find another love, but for a normal Joe to have millions again and moreso the time/freedom...no. Money isn't everything but the phrase "time is money" didn't come from nowhere. Having "*** you" money is also a lot of freedom I will never have now. Trading crypto took up most of my time for 3 years. I thought I was good at it, made some crazy calls that panned out well at first. The gambler's mentality is what allowed me to excel at it, then ultimately crash at it trying to get back to the peak I was at before. I really screwed up chasing with BS altcoins. My hobby, my main source of income and my passion was lost last year, wasn't easy. If I could write, I'm sure I could write a book about last year if I were to reveal all of what happened.
One Monday evening about 2 weeks after Christmas I hammered a pint of vodka straight in about 40 minutes and kept on with other alcohol. My friend, his girl and others went to eat and I acted like a drunken bafoon... blackout drunk on a Monday, in a town where noone is drunk on a Monday. I looked at the videos on my phone the next day and it made me sick to my stomach. It was obvious my friends weren't going to hang out with me anymore if I kept at it. That was the last day I drank liquor until I went back to Vegas in March. At the end of this recent March trip my friend Mickey told me I was much happier this time. She is wise beyond her years and really helps me self reflect. She said the previous 2 trips I seemed miserable. That surprised me a bit because out there I'm usually good at sucking it up and not showing it. In hindsight, somehow winding up, having to defecate in dark stairwells, being mean to 3 of my best Vegas friends and almost losing them.... yeah I had a problem. I thought about what was different now and said maybe I hit rock bottom. (that blackout Monday) When I was drinking daily, bichin to my friends about lost fortune, some would say don't worry, you'll get it back. They were trying to be optimistic and friendly but I know that it's not likely. Me and a friend who isn't much of a "charmer" and traded/researched crypto with me daily were sitting by the fire shortly after my "rock bottom" I couldn't help but talk about it because I'm now dealing with what to do with my life. I told him how people say I will get it back, he said nope, that was a once in a lifetime thing and he was right. He said the thing is now, you don't wanna be 80, looking back about how depressed you were and wasted all this time. I think my outlook changed shortly after and I was a lot better.
I always used to hear about people with anxiety/depression and said pssssh grow a pair. Well now I know firsthand it is a mother fcker and can rip your life away. I am very empathetic to anyone suffering from it now. I read a quote "we get depressed because we know we are not what we could be" that is correct and it is why we as humans get depressed but you can't let it drain your life like I did.
I know not many read this, not exactly the NY Times but I do care about what little influence what I write can have. I do not wanna glorify drinking/gambling at my levels. It can be great but it can also be fckn horrible. Dan Bilzerian said it best when he explained how he can win 2 million and be a little excited, but lose 200k and be fckn irate. The agony of losing far outweighs the joy of winning.
I got carried away and spent too much time writing about my BS. Certainly didn't imagine a year ago when I was popping bottles of expensive champagne and whatnot I would be sitting here writing crap about my personal struggles like this. Gonna have to blog my recent trip later but will soon. It was one of the best trips I ever had and the excitement thinking back on it is what has me writing now. If I do it justice, should be a good read. I guess the next time I get caffeinated I'll get on it.
Not much funny stuff in this long azz write up so here's a joke....go ahead and get the gong or the little drum ready...
Man has a piece of lettuce hanging out of his azz so he goes to the doctor. It was very busy, the Dr. asked the man what was wrong.... I have a piece of lettuce hanging out my azz says the man. Dr. says man, I got a ton of people out there waiting and you're worried about a piece of lettuce hanging out your azz??!! Man responds.. hell, that's just the tip of the iceberg.... get it ? pervert stuck a head of lettuce up his azz????
I tried
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03-25-2019
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After I got home from Dec trip, the switch flips back to frugal mode, using coupons and crap. There is a guy that lives in a group hope not far from me. Long story how I know him but he's hilarious. He helped me out once so I go pick him up every now and then. He calls me every day without fail asking for me to pick him up or just wanting to talk because the place he lives at sucks. The food is shiit where he is at so about once a week or so I will take him to Mcdonalds, get him some food using coupons. Brought his friend this time.
I have taken those guys a lot of old clothes and stuff I don't use. They are very appreciative, I'd much rather do personal stuff like that than give to a charity.... where the CEO gets most of the donations. The counselors talk to him and can't figure me out. They first suspected we were doing drug deals or something, then asked if I was gay. He thinks I'm trying to film a reality show or something. I'm not exactly philanthropic but I do like helping folks out. However I have to admit hearing his daily story makes me feel better about my situation and appreciative of a lot of things. Hanging out with him helped the depression I believe.
I go to Vegas every year for the super bowl, a friend gets me and others into what has to be the best Super bowl party on Earth. Criteria for getting in is blowing 100k a trip on avg. This year I just couldn't do it, the anxiety was still too bad and I wasn't going out there in that frame of mind again. Super bowl weekend they ran a good promo on the online sportsbook I play with. I haven't played online B jack in a very long time. They reeled me in, I lost, chased, kept chasing. Before I knew it I lost 20k sitting in my bed. I looked at the clock and thought how I would have been on a flight to Vegas during that time. *** me....
They comped back 1k the next week. I got a little drunk at the restaurant friends and I frequent. Sitting at the table I ran the 1k to 25k. Friends that watched it couldn't believe it and said I need to do the Twitch thing, people would pay to see it. I say I'm never playing online again so no point... yet I always do. With me playing online and live I guess it would be entertaining, between that and a friend and I playing super tecmo bowl for 100 a game, drunk. Always resorts to him throwing and smashing things in his house. His young daughter often comes in and says "is everything ok guys?" its like a scene from step brothers. A rule of the house is no cussing... except when playing nintendo.
Anyways, I kept drinking that night, went home and ran it up to over 36k
I think I placed a 100 dollar sports bet, but had to go make that 100 back at B Jack... lost it all. This had me really wanting to stop gambling.
Had a flight voucher for 200 I needed to use by mid March. A friend joked, oh smart, a voucher for 10% of your first hand of B jack. I said no, calming it down this time.... spoiler.... didn't calm it down. Goofy, D Duck and Pluto all had birthdays within a few days of each other so I went back for that.
I was gonna play it smart this time. Flight landed around 9:30 am, a friend was getting off work at 10:00 am that morning and was not gonna be back all weekend. I was gonna give my ATM card to her, ask her not to give it back when I've been drinking. I thought I was being so responsible with my financial planning haha. I took 5k cash, planned on playing a lot of poker, no b jack.
Well she ended up not working that night. In hindsight I should have left my card in the safe or something but didn't.
Waiting at baggage claim I see this with The Sorcerer looking like he's ready lol
Had a good promo for Bellagio, 4 nights comped with a good resort credit. I was gonna stay there 2 nights then give the room to Goofy for his birthday, move to PH. He wanted a smoking room.... I walked in and it smelled way worse than I imagined, awful. It was dirty too, you could just feel the stained in sin on the walls.
Another tourist friend was in town so I walked over to PH to say hey. Had not planned on drinking until that night and no shots again this trip. When I met him he had a shot of jagermeister waiting on me. I don't like jager, hadn't had it in many years but took it. That shot would end up having a big impact on the entire trip. Saw a dealer I know well so sat and talked to her a bit. I don't know many of the staff during the day but knew the one waitress that walked up. I don't like switching from dark liquor to white so I had another jager or 3.
Left there and went to the bar, knew the bartender so cut up with him and kept drinking jager. Before long I must have been 15 shots in and trashed. Played poker, lost quickly, chased losses at B jack. Earlier in this thread I promised degeneracy, well here it comes... I wanted to win one hand and be done....spoiler.... didn't happen. Shawna wasn't there, I cut the cards myself. I fckn hate cutting em myself but figured I was due.
Had about 800 on me and it was gone like the wind in no time. Had my Atm card, here we go.
My bank will let you withdraw as much as you have if you call and get it approved. Through the years there have been some interesting conversations with me and the bank call center. They often don't do it right or hear me slurring my words, wanting to increase my daily limit by 3k for the 10th time in a day before. Not many ATMs let you withdraw 3k at a time, between that and my obvious drunken behavior, they are often skeptical. It was still business hours at home so I called my buddy at his branch. He increased it to 10k and it worked. I was hoping 10k wouldnt be necessary but spoiler.... it was
Max withdrawal at 1:48, then lost it on a hand or two probly, max withdrawal again at 1:53 lol. So much for calming it down this trip... Roy Orbison could have seen it coming though. Made my last withdrawal for 2k. I had been cutting the cards myself the whole time. Sorcerer Shawna was not working, but I needed some magic, if I lose this 2k it's gonna be a bad week. Checking call history I called her a couple minutes after I made the withdrawal. I just wanted to talk to her while I cut. She was talking softly saying she was with her mother watching a movie or something. I said my bad and got off the phone. She has passed on many words of wisdom to me from her mother. Never met her mom but have a great admiration hearing the GOAT of good luck talk about her. I felt bad interrupting them and thought maybe its a sign to stop. spoiler.... didn't happen
I cut the cards and when I did, I said out loud... "Moms" (her mom fits my good person criteria even though I don't know her) went all in 2k on a hand, it won, then get dealt this
All in again to double it down. When they ask face up or face down, often I say I like em face down.... like my women. I'm obviously always joking when I say it but sometimes my jokes are not received well. A dealer once refused to deal to me after I said it.
This hand won't necessarily make the trip, but it could definitely break the trip. I may be eating ramen noodles, potted meat with soda crackers the rest of the week if it loses.
The dealer hits for 20. I stand up and am ready to take a depressing walk back to Bellagio
I just say please be a dam 10, please. flips over a Queen, I'm in business
The people that usually deal with me are on graveyard. This day shift crowd wasn't used to me and I don't think they cared for my behavior, all the "texting"
By this point I think they had about enough. As I look at these videos I can't blame em. I'm kinda ashamed of my behavior but will I keep doing it????? probly.
Got an 11 vs 5. Dealer hits for 20 again
Running great, eventually got up big and cashed out, but I was extremely drunk.
I usually don't take or post pics of cash, I think it's bad luck sometimes, but it's kinda relevant to the story so screw it. I didn't credit it to my account like I should have, I just drunkenly took it all cash
In hindsight this was the drunkest I had been on the trip. I tried to play poker but I think they said I was too drunk. Too drunk to play poker at PH??? Thats a first
A girl there I didn't know well had genuine concern for my well being. She called a mutual friend of ours at home, told him what was going on. He called me up, cussed me like a dog and screamed til I walked out of there. I had all that cash in a big envelope in my back pocket. A guy got killed a few days later trying to rob the Bellagio for what was probly less than I had in my back pocket stumbling across the street. Its a wonder I didn't sit down at a table at Bellagio, maybe they were too crowded, but miraculously the money made it through the day. For what was supposed to be a trip where I calmed down the gambling, this was an eventful first few hours. Long, 9 day trip but hopefully I'll finish this soon
I have taken those guys a lot of old clothes and stuff I don't use. They are very appreciative, I'd much rather do personal stuff like that than give to a charity.... where the CEO gets most of the donations. The counselors talk to him and can't figure me out. They first suspected we were doing drug deals or something, then asked if I was gay. He thinks I'm trying to film a reality show or something. I'm not exactly philanthropic but I do like helping folks out. However I have to admit hearing his daily story makes me feel better about my situation and appreciative of a lot of things. Hanging out with him helped the depression I believe.
I go to Vegas every year for the super bowl, a friend gets me and others into what has to be the best Super bowl party on Earth. Criteria for getting in is blowing 100k a trip on avg. This year I just couldn't do it, the anxiety was still too bad and I wasn't going out there in that frame of mind again. Super bowl weekend they ran a good promo on the online sportsbook I play with. I haven't played online B jack in a very long time. They reeled me in, I lost, chased, kept chasing. Before I knew it I lost 20k sitting in my bed. I looked at the clock and thought how I would have been on a flight to Vegas during that time. *** me....
They comped back 1k the next week. I got a little drunk at the restaurant friends and I frequent. Sitting at the table I ran the 1k to 25k. Friends that watched it couldn't believe it and said I need to do the Twitch thing, people would pay to see it. I say I'm never playing online again so no point... yet I always do. With me playing online and live I guess it would be entertaining, between that and a friend and I playing super tecmo bowl for 100 a game, drunk. Always resorts to him throwing and smashing things in his house. His young daughter often comes in and says "is everything ok guys?" its like a scene from step brothers. A rule of the house is no cussing... except when playing nintendo.
Anyways, I kept drinking that night, went home and ran it up to over 36k
I think I placed a 100 dollar sports bet, but had to go make that 100 back at B Jack... lost it all. This had me really wanting to stop gambling.
Had a flight voucher for 200 I needed to use by mid March. A friend joked, oh smart, a voucher for 10% of your first hand of B jack. I said no, calming it down this time.... spoiler.... didn't calm it down. Goofy, D Duck and Pluto all had birthdays within a few days of each other so I went back for that.
I was gonna play it smart this time. Flight landed around 9:30 am, a friend was getting off work at 10:00 am that morning and was not gonna be back all weekend. I was gonna give my ATM card to her, ask her not to give it back when I've been drinking. I thought I was being so responsible with my financial planning haha. I took 5k cash, planned on playing a lot of poker, no b jack.
Well she ended up not working that night. In hindsight I should have left my card in the safe or something but didn't.
Waiting at baggage claim I see this with The Sorcerer looking like he's ready lol
Had a good promo for Bellagio, 4 nights comped with a good resort credit. I was gonna stay there 2 nights then give the room to Goofy for his birthday, move to PH. He wanted a smoking room.... I walked in and it smelled way worse than I imagined, awful. It was dirty too, you could just feel the stained in sin on the walls.
Another tourist friend was in town so I walked over to PH to say hey. Had not planned on drinking until that night and no shots again this trip. When I met him he had a shot of jagermeister waiting on me. I don't like jager, hadn't had it in many years but took it. That shot would end up having a big impact on the entire trip. Saw a dealer I know well so sat and talked to her a bit. I don't know many of the staff during the day but knew the one waitress that walked up. I don't like switching from dark liquor to white so I had another jager or 3.
Left there and went to the bar, knew the bartender so cut up with him and kept drinking jager. Before long I must have been 15 shots in and trashed. Played poker, lost quickly, chased losses at B jack. Earlier in this thread I promised degeneracy, well here it comes... I wanted to win one hand and be done....spoiler.... didn't happen. Shawna wasn't there, I cut the cards myself. I fckn hate cutting em myself but figured I was due.
Had about 800 on me and it was gone like the wind in no time. Had my Atm card, here we go.
My bank will let you withdraw as much as you have if you call and get it approved. Through the years there have been some interesting conversations with me and the bank call center. They often don't do it right or hear me slurring my words, wanting to increase my daily limit by 3k for the 10th time in a day before. Not many ATMs let you withdraw 3k at a time, between that and my obvious drunken behavior, they are often skeptical. It was still business hours at home so I called my buddy at his branch. He increased it to 10k and it worked. I was hoping 10k wouldnt be necessary but spoiler.... it was
Max withdrawal at 1:48, then lost it on a hand or two probly, max withdrawal again at 1:53 lol. So much for calming it down this trip... Roy Orbison could have seen it coming though. Made my last withdrawal for 2k. I had been cutting the cards myself the whole time. Sorcerer Shawna was not working, but I needed some magic, if I lose this 2k it's gonna be a bad week. Checking call history I called her a couple minutes after I made the withdrawal. I just wanted to talk to her while I cut. She was talking softly saying she was with her mother watching a movie or something. I said my bad and got off the phone. She has passed on many words of wisdom to me from her mother. Never met her mom but have a great admiration hearing the GOAT of good luck talk about her. I felt bad interrupting them and thought maybe its a sign to stop. spoiler.... didn't happen
I cut the cards and when I did, I said out loud... "Moms" (her mom fits my good person criteria even though I don't know her) went all in 2k on a hand, it won, then get dealt this
All in again to double it down. When they ask face up or face down, often I say I like em face down.... like my women. I'm obviously always joking when I say it but sometimes my jokes are not received well. A dealer once refused to deal to me after I said it.
This hand won't necessarily make the trip, but it could definitely break the trip. I may be eating ramen noodles, potted meat with soda crackers the rest of the week if it loses.
The dealer hits for 20. I stand up and am ready to take a depressing walk back to Bellagio
I just say please be a dam 10, please. flips over a Queen, I'm in business
The people that usually deal with me are on graveyard. This day shift crowd wasn't used to me and I don't think they cared for my behavior, all the "texting"
By this point I think they had about enough. As I look at these videos I can't blame em. I'm kinda ashamed of my behavior but will I keep doing it????? probly.
Got an 11 vs 5. Dealer hits for 20 again
Running great, eventually got up big and cashed out, but I was extremely drunk.
I usually don't take or post pics of cash, I think it's bad luck sometimes, but it's kinda relevant to the story so screw it. I didn't credit it to my account like I should have, I just drunkenly took it all cash
In hindsight this was the drunkest I had been on the trip. I tried to play poker but I think they said I was too drunk. Too drunk to play poker at PH??? Thats a first
A girl there I didn't know well had genuine concern for my well being. She called a mutual friend of ours at home, told him what was going on. He called me up, cussed me like a dog and screamed til I walked out of there. I had all that cash in a big envelope in my back pocket. A guy got killed a few days later trying to rob the Bellagio for what was probly less than I had in my back pocket stumbling across the street. Its a wonder I didn't sit down at a table at Bellagio, maybe they were too crowded, but miraculously the money made it through the day. For what was supposed to be a trip where I calmed down the gambling, this was an eventful first few hours. Long, 9 day trip but hopefully I'll finish this soon
03-31-2019
, 12:13 PM
04-02-2019
, 01:05 AM
04-07-2019
, 05:21 PM
Now that I'm up a good bit, the degen gambling hasn't got a chance in hades of slowing down.... unless I slow down the drinking which doesn't have much of a chance either. Technically the Shawna streak is still retired and her mom started a new one.... a one hit wonder cause I'm not gonna worry her again haha.
If I stick to premium vodka with soda water, take milk thistle, electrolytes and other vitamins, I never get hangovers, hardly ever. Well that dam jager made me feel like I was getting kicked in the head repeatedly. Don't have another pic in my phone til 4am, looks like I started back up.
Can't remember all that happened that night but several employees wanted Eggslut around 9am so we went on a quest, stopped by the Willy Wonka door. They must be really sick of me in there but I usually play a few hands, always tip the bar staff well and one time a wealthy friend tipped very well so I guess they tolerate it. Pathetic how much that door entertains a drunken me.
Wandered around, had issues with Bellagio, no hot water and other crap. Went to check in lounge and this guy sat there for 30 seconds and is out. I would give a pinkie to be able to sleep like that
The sunrise always seems to attract drunken pics
Only had one 4 of a kind playing for 25 last trip, did it 7 or 8 times this trip, running well
The dealers know what happens when I cut the cards and they know all about the Shawna Streak haha. I used to say I was just stitious, but now I think I'm superstitious
No pics of sandwiches in phone so might have lost this session but probly not much, or might have just said forget it if I had to cut cards myself
Headed over to Bellagio. In contrast to the Shawna streak, one of my best and first Vegas friends refuses to deal to me because I always lose with her. I have kept saying we are due, but I still always lose. Went to talk to her a bit, when she went on break, I played
Dealer 19, figured I'm screwed
running well even at Bellagio
Saturday night went to a friends birthday party at Palms. I get a little nervous when I leave "The Village" - perimeter of PH, Bellagio, Paris, Cosmo, Aria. "Bad things happen when you leave the village" It was a lot of fun though, actually nice to do something different
Outside as we were leaving, some guys at the party were smoking weed. I had said I was never smoking again, only done it twice and that was in the last year. Didn't feel anything either time and wondered why people did it. Somehow I wound up smoking. Earlier, several guys were quoting lines from the movie Training Day. I smoked, coughed a bit, said "virgin lungs" I think they got a trip out of my old azz struggling like a 12 year old with it. I liked this weed better than the other I had tried though. They said it was special or something. I felt pretty good afterwards and could see what the hype was about. Got hungry, went to get a pizza at Bellagio. I didn't say anything to these unfriendly looking girls in front of me. One started holding her nose and told me I smelled like weed. I have never been told that it my life and I guess I got a kick out of it. I don't think those girls liked me, they spoke to me negatively first, but yes I know I'm being azzholish... baby steps
Could have knocked out from the weed after that but I fought it, kept drinking, wound up at B jack
Not a single 10 out there, I went against the grain and held on 15, thinking a 10 was coming.... that's what I get for thinking. $2,400 swing to the bad
Enter the chase mode and possibly the meltdown. Went to high limit. Got a 9 vs trash, doubled face down, dealer hits forever, then wound up with 18.
8k swing, lose if she flips over anything other than an ace or 10 on my hand
Escaped with that one but then probly ran bad a bit, lost a bunch in a row and went all in with everything 5,075. Of course its a double down
An old local friend I haven't seen in a while had walked up on that and was like holy shiit. He's pretty solid, stocky guy. I said man, walk with me to the safe please, I was a little paranoid. I was the only one playing and asked if I could run to the safe. He asked if I was staying here. I paused and said yeah. I was staying at PH but my money was in the safe at Bellagio. Walked across the street and the guy staying in that room was sleeping, flipped out when he woke up, saw me in the safe. Half asleep, was reaching for a gun that wasn't there haha. I grabbed 10k in case I needed chasing funds, this had the potential to be very bad.
Either gonna have $20,150 or nothing. One of the biggest swings I've had on the flip of a card ever maybe
Played a few more to pay for the sandwiches (excuse from a degen to keep going) Cashed out
Sandwich time
Timestamp on last pic was around 7am. Supposed to go to a nice dinner Sunday so crashed.
A year ago I ate at Prime at Bellagio for the first time. I ended up going 3 times that week with 4 of my favorite people. I always said it was the 3 best dining experiences I ever had. Had a dinner comp, Goofy wanted to go but I didn't want to ruin my great memories of the place. D Duck and I had went a year ago, sat outside for about 4 hours and it was great. I told Goofy we can go only if she does too. I got too blackout drunk when I was with her a while back. She still talked to me but was hesitant to do anything socially ever since. A few days earlier she caught me on a sober moment and agreed to go, but said you don't drink haha. The Diamond card has a whole lot of benefits I use a lot and I never even go to the lounge. The equivalent platinum card at MGM doesn't do crap, hasn't been good for anything but this time it got us some good seating. It was cold so didn't wanna sit outside. Got the table in the corner by the window with a great view of the fountains, noone else around us, nice and quiet. Dear lord it was good
It was their birthdays, they gave me a congratulations token like I was in AA for being 12 hours sober I guess
The food was great, the view/atmosphere was great, the company was great. We had a phenomenal time. We all had the permagrin on us. It was so nice and quiet, great conversations, it kinda made me feel squishy in the stomach or something lol. This was probably the highlight of the trip, definitely the best time I had without alcohol. Hung out at Bellagio a bit, then went to Rio. D duck went home and we went to Cosmo. A friend had given me some fancy cigars from Cuba so we went to Willy Wonka's house to smoke em for his birthday
Wound up downstairs to play low limit B jack table 6/5. Started playing small but of course started playing big. Some of the people were tripping out with the amount I was betting on that sucker table. Almost lost a bunch but wound up ok. I think I was all in here
Sitting at home looking at this crap, it is insane. I feel stupid, need to quit the nonsense.... however if I was betting on it I would take the under against myself.... step 1 of the 12 step program (admitting) has never been an issue. Every other step has been a bich though
Stopped by bar at PH, got trashed, Goofy was blackout drunk, didnt remember anything from then on. I was drunk too but not sloppy. Walked him back to Bellagio, of course played some more, ran well though
Went back to PH, guess I wound up at a B jack table.... what a surprise
Little late with the "text" there but looks like an all in D down hand. I have been getting lucky for sure. Don't think I have ever ran this well to this point
Must have been really drunk because I doubled down a 9 vs dealer 7
Sometimes stupid gets rewarded
I'm just now going through some of these pics/videos. Can't believe how good I was running
You would think I woulda quit by now, but I guess not
Doubling down a 4k hand
Bust goals.... not talking about boobies
For some reason.... I kept on going, must have lost a few cause I played a hand for $7,175 looks like. Double down of course. 28,600 swing on a card flip. gotta be the most I have ever had on a hand
Didn't get a video but it lost. After that I was convinced it's bad luck not to video the big ones I guess. In meltdown mode now. Left for a few minutes, came back and the cards needed cutting. Shawna wasn't there but one of her besties was so I got her to do it. Put everything I had on me, 5,200 on a hand and I think I was chasing what I lost on that big hand. Needed a magical Shawna like cut. If it goes bad here, good chance I'm going broke...
Won the first two, get this
Won one of em, but both woulda been nice.... so of course I played one more... it won
4 in a row after the cut from Shawna's temporary fill in at least 17-1 odds on winning 4 in a row at B jack. I tipped her for cutting and she said omg, thanks, said something about diaper money and its a reminder that this money is real, not these colorful little chips. Had gotten out of control and needed to chill after that. Was very lucky to dodge a meltdown.
Went to the bar for a sec and was gonna call it a night, then all these guys show up celebrating Pluto's birthday.
Here we go again. We drank a while, then ended up pooling our money between about 6 of us, played in high limit. Did well, hit and run pretty quick. They got there around 10am and I must have stayed out til after 2pm. Started at Prime the night before at 7pm. Had one of the best dinners of my life, ran great on the gambling and had lots of fun with many friends. If I were to pick a day out of my life to "Groundhog Day" this would be up there.
I remember my first trip to Vegas a cab driver told me he picked up a guy at the airport who was vacationing for a few days, dropped him off at the Bellagio. About 5 hours later he picks up the same guy and took him back to the airport. Driver asked wtf? He said he won 30k and that if he didn't go home right then he knew he would blow it. I was up at least that, had 5 or 6 more days and knew the smart thing would be to go home early..... well
If I stick to premium vodka with soda water, take milk thistle, electrolytes and other vitamins, I never get hangovers, hardly ever. Well that dam jager made me feel like I was getting kicked in the head repeatedly. Don't have another pic in my phone til 4am, looks like I started back up.
Can't remember all that happened that night but several employees wanted Eggslut around 9am so we went on a quest, stopped by the Willy Wonka door. They must be really sick of me in there but I usually play a few hands, always tip the bar staff well and one time a wealthy friend tipped very well so I guess they tolerate it. Pathetic how much that door entertains a drunken me.
Wandered around, had issues with Bellagio, no hot water and other crap. Went to check in lounge and this guy sat there for 30 seconds and is out. I would give a pinkie to be able to sleep like that
The sunrise always seems to attract drunken pics
Only had one 4 of a kind playing for 25 last trip, did it 7 or 8 times this trip, running well
The dealers know what happens when I cut the cards and they know all about the Shawna Streak haha. I used to say I was just stitious, but now I think I'm superstitious
No pics of sandwiches in phone so might have lost this session but probly not much, or might have just said forget it if I had to cut cards myself
Headed over to Bellagio. In contrast to the Shawna streak, one of my best and first Vegas friends refuses to deal to me because I always lose with her. I have kept saying we are due, but I still always lose. Went to talk to her a bit, when she went on break, I played
Dealer 19, figured I'm screwed
running well even at Bellagio
Saturday night went to a friends birthday party at Palms. I get a little nervous when I leave "The Village" - perimeter of PH, Bellagio, Paris, Cosmo, Aria. "Bad things happen when you leave the village" It was a lot of fun though, actually nice to do something different
Outside as we were leaving, some guys at the party were smoking weed. I had said I was never smoking again, only done it twice and that was in the last year. Didn't feel anything either time and wondered why people did it. Somehow I wound up smoking. Earlier, several guys were quoting lines from the movie Training Day. I smoked, coughed a bit, said "virgin lungs" I think they got a trip out of my old azz struggling like a 12 year old with it. I liked this weed better than the other I had tried though. They said it was special or something. I felt pretty good afterwards and could see what the hype was about. Got hungry, went to get a pizza at Bellagio. I didn't say anything to these unfriendly looking girls in front of me. One started holding her nose and told me I smelled like weed. I have never been told that it my life and I guess I got a kick out of it. I don't think those girls liked me, they spoke to me negatively first, but yes I know I'm being azzholish... baby steps
Could have knocked out from the weed after that but I fought it, kept drinking, wound up at B jack
Not a single 10 out there, I went against the grain and held on 15, thinking a 10 was coming.... that's what I get for thinking. $2,400 swing to the bad
Enter the chase mode and possibly the meltdown. Went to high limit. Got a 9 vs trash, doubled face down, dealer hits forever, then wound up with 18.
8k swing, lose if she flips over anything other than an ace or 10 on my hand
Escaped with that one but then probly ran bad a bit, lost a bunch in a row and went all in with everything 5,075. Of course its a double down
An old local friend I haven't seen in a while had walked up on that and was like holy shiit. He's pretty solid, stocky guy. I said man, walk with me to the safe please, I was a little paranoid. I was the only one playing and asked if I could run to the safe. He asked if I was staying here. I paused and said yeah. I was staying at PH but my money was in the safe at Bellagio. Walked across the street and the guy staying in that room was sleeping, flipped out when he woke up, saw me in the safe. Half asleep, was reaching for a gun that wasn't there haha. I grabbed 10k in case I needed chasing funds, this had the potential to be very bad.
Either gonna have $20,150 or nothing. One of the biggest swings I've had on the flip of a card ever maybe
Played a few more to pay for the sandwiches (excuse from a degen to keep going) Cashed out
Sandwich time
Timestamp on last pic was around 7am. Supposed to go to a nice dinner Sunday so crashed.
A year ago I ate at Prime at Bellagio for the first time. I ended up going 3 times that week with 4 of my favorite people. I always said it was the 3 best dining experiences I ever had. Had a dinner comp, Goofy wanted to go but I didn't want to ruin my great memories of the place. D Duck and I had went a year ago, sat outside for about 4 hours and it was great. I told Goofy we can go only if she does too. I got too blackout drunk when I was with her a while back. She still talked to me but was hesitant to do anything socially ever since. A few days earlier she caught me on a sober moment and agreed to go, but said you don't drink haha. The Diamond card has a whole lot of benefits I use a lot and I never even go to the lounge. The equivalent platinum card at MGM doesn't do crap, hasn't been good for anything but this time it got us some good seating. It was cold so didn't wanna sit outside. Got the table in the corner by the window with a great view of the fountains, noone else around us, nice and quiet. Dear lord it was good
It was their birthdays, they gave me a congratulations token like I was in AA for being 12 hours sober I guess
The food was great, the view/atmosphere was great, the company was great. We had a phenomenal time. We all had the permagrin on us. It was so nice and quiet, great conversations, it kinda made me feel squishy in the stomach or something lol. This was probably the highlight of the trip, definitely the best time I had without alcohol. Hung out at Bellagio a bit, then went to Rio. D duck went home and we went to Cosmo. A friend had given me some fancy cigars from Cuba so we went to Willy Wonka's house to smoke em for his birthday
Wound up downstairs to play low limit B jack table 6/5. Started playing small but of course started playing big. Some of the people were tripping out with the amount I was betting on that sucker table. Almost lost a bunch but wound up ok. I think I was all in here
Sitting at home looking at this crap, it is insane. I feel stupid, need to quit the nonsense.... however if I was betting on it I would take the under against myself.... step 1 of the 12 step program (admitting) has never been an issue. Every other step has been a bich though
Stopped by bar at PH, got trashed, Goofy was blackout drunk, didnt remember anything from then on. I was drunk too but not sloppy. Walked him back to Bellagio, of course played some more, ran well though
Went back to PH, guess I wound up at a B jack table.... what a surprise
Little late with the "text" there but looks like an all in D down hand. I have been getting lucky for sure. Don't think I have ever ran this well to this point
Must have been really drunk because I doubled down a 9 vs dealer 7
Sometimes stupid gets rewarded
I'm just now going through some of these pics/videos. Can't believe how good I was running
You would think I woulda quit by now, but I guess not
Doubling down a 4k hand
Bust goals.... not talking about boobies
For some reason.... I kept on going, must have lost a few cause I played a hand for $7,175 looks like. Double down of course. 28,600 swing on a card flip. gotta be the most I have ever had on a hand
Didn't get a video but it lost. After that I was convinced it's bad luck not to video the big ones I guess. In meltdown mode now. Left for a few minutes, came back and the cards needed cutting. Shawna wasn't there but one of her besties was so I got her to do it. Put everything I had on me, 5,200 on a hand and I think I was chasing what I lost on that big hand. Needed a magical Shawna like cut. If it goes bad here, good chance I'm going broke...
Won the first two, get this
Won one of em, but both woulda been nice.... so of course I played one more... it won
4 in a row after the cut from Shawna's temporary fill in at least 17-1 odds on winning 4 in a row at B jack. I tipped her for cutting and she said omg, thanks, said something about diaper money and its a reminder that this money is real, not these colorful little chips. Had gotten out of control and needed to chill after that. Was very lucky to dodge a meltdown.
Went to the bar for a sec and was gonna call it a night, then all these guys show up celebrating Pluto's birthday.
Here we go again. We drank a while, then ended up pooling our money between about 6 of us, played in high limit. Did well, hit and run pretty quick. They got there around 10am and I must have stayed out til after 2pm. Started at Prime the night before at 7pm. Had one of the best dinners of my life, ran great on the gambling and had lots of fun with many friends. If I were to pick a day out of my life to "Groundhog Day" this would be up there.
I remember my first trip to Vegas a cab driver told me he picked up a guy at the airport who was vacationing for a few days, dropped him off at the Bellagio. About 5 hours later he picks up the same guy and took him back to the airport. Driver asked wtf? He said he won 30k and that if he didn't go home right then he knew he would blow it. I was up at least that, had 5 or 6 more days and knew the smart thing would be to go home early..... well