Got a few requests from home to keep this thing updated as I go along so I'm gonna try..... I already can't remember things that good, gotten absolutely hammered.
I know the shoe pics are status quo here but I'm a t-shirt guy. This trip's swag






I have never been a worrier, never experienced anxiety before. The last 3 months of the crypto market has been awful and I needed this trip bad. Haven't been good and drunk in 2 months. The recent crypto rally has me feeling better and ready to throw down. I got out of hand financially last trip, had my buddy that works at the bank take away access to an account or two so I can't get drunk, transfer money like last time. You da man bro ( he reads these) A few others were supposed to come but had to cancel, I'm not canceling nothing. I have been really blessed with a ton of friends out here and I almost prefer to go solo. Staying at Aria 3 nights, then PH a while. Plan is to calm down the black jack this trip (again) see Mike Tyson t- shirt above... alcohol is probably gonna punch that plan in the mouth, take a few teeth with it.




Always flattered by the love. Got hammered soon as I got there, kinda blackout drunk as usual. I wish I had taken more pics because I don't remember much at all. I know I didn't do well gambling at all. My alcohol tolerance is way down, lord have mercy I got drunk. Woke up in an Aria room around 6pm the next day. I didn't take my milk thistle the night before and was hurting. Didn't drink Friday night, met up with a friend at Javier's, been craving the guac since last trip. That place is the bomb.







The Derek Jeter golf tourney is this weekend. I have been here for this and when it was Michael Jordan doing it for about 5 years. Have several friends in it I look forward to seeing, always a good time but had to take it easy Friday night. I wasn't doing well gambling, down pretty bad.

A few female friends wanted to get together, do something like go to the pool on Saturday. Been friends with em a while, I was really flattered they wanted to make a point to all get together while I was in town. I will say that many down here make me feel welcome as an outhouse breeze. Thankful for all the great friends down here, to me thats my favorite aspect of Vegas, not all the "sin". Host at PH hooked up a cabana and a bottle. We were going through that first bottle quick and they were 250 a pop.

Now this is when I got real proud of myself for being crafty. I went down to the store close by, poured a bottle of vodka into a water bottle, put in the bottom of my bag. They searched it coming back in but not good. Ended up doing this twice. Sounds pretty stupid considering how much I'm blowing in black jack this trip, but I had so much fun doing it







The girls are really awesome and fun to hang out with. We all click really well, had a great time. Its Friday now when I'm writing this and I believe thats the most fun I've had so far.



I don't think they care If I post pics but got this dark one just in case.



I can't believe I'm writing this but since these things are kind of a life journal for me screw it.... I have never done an illegal drug other than maybe an unprescribed adderall in my life. Never smoked dope, never been high. I have had my arm twisted so many times to do it by so many friends, always refused. I had promised many I would if the Broncos won the s bowl in 16 but even backed out of that. I guess I was just so drunk and thought, oh, its legal here, screw it. I was told I hit it (some kind of pen device) 3 times, once pretty good and appeared to be high. I really don't know. Oh well, had a lot of fun regardless. We all got crazy drunk. One girl fell off the couch, hit her head. It was a bad thump. Thought we were about to have to call the ambulance, but she popped right up like a trooper. One of the girls had to leave The others and I ventured off to Bellagio, I think one girl said she had never been so of course I had to give the tour of that place. Played a little b jack, did well.





Went to Lago for the first time, they have the fountain view outside but wouldnt let me sit outside because I was in a tank top (but probably cause I was too drunk) It was good though





Snuck outside for a sec, its beautiful out there









From pics in my phone looks like we went to Cosmo, Aria and I played some. I started the day with about 400 in my wallet, wound up with 3k



We went back to Aria and passed completely out. I woke after 1am. Saturday was a big night for the Jeter tourney with everyone hanging at the bar. I was looking forward to seeing many friends, some agents, celebrity friends. As I am walking in I see Derek Jeter on his way out an everything kinda died out after that.



I didn't take as many pics of b jack like I usually do, but I know I lost quite a bit at Aria later. Did hit this on video poker, I just hate those W2s. I know you can write off the pit losses, cancel em out but I still don't like the hassle







I am gonna finish this sooner than later, promise. I will say that unless something great happens in the next few days, this TR will be very subpar to the others I have written. I started taking depression and anxiety meds several months ago, quit em when I got here so I wouldn't mix with so much alcohol. I think it has had an effect on me now that they have worn off. I have not been myself, feel like I've lost my usual humor and there are times I have been kinda mean to friends. Already down about 10 pounds too from not eating as usual. I'm gonna try and turn it around though, update soon

As someone who takes anxiety meds daily, I would HIGHLY RECOMMEND you get back on them asap. When I've gone off them is when alcohol really kicks my ass and I have CRAZY emotional swings. I drink heavily on my meds all the time and it doesnt do anything to me.

You are never suppose to quit those things cold turkey.

Anyways, so damn happy you're doing another TR.

If your meds are just an SSRI (Zoloft, Prozac, Lexapro, etc), I wouldnt worry about drinking on them too much. But if you're taking a decent dosage of benzo's (xanex, valium, ativan) daily, those are the ones I would scale back while you're drinking.

Kicking the SSRI cold turkey are the ones that can really **** you up.

The next day I couldn't sleep, walked around a bit. The sky suites check in area at Aria is very nice. I'll sit around here drinking decaf (hooker coffee as a friend calls it cause its like paying a hooker to cuddle with you) and eating the fancy freebies.












I don't think I did anything crazy Sunday night or I just cant remember. Checked into PH on Monday. Nice renovated rooms, bathrooms in the resort rooms are huge. I kinda like it better than Aria









I love the people at PH they really treat me like family. If not for this one hotel I'm not sure I would go to Vegas nearly as much.













Must have lost my milk thistle somewhere and someone was nice enough to keep it for me That stuff is worth its weight in gold



I got really drunk this morning, started gambling heavily. Im on an off sleep schedule, often I don't wake up til after midnight then start up.





Went on some nice runs here











I think I peaked out here, sure wish I had Marty Mcfly's time machine right now.



I can't remember a lot of details about a lot during the week but around 6am early Wednesday morning I thought I would just play a hand or two of black jack for just a couple minutes. In several previous TRs I talked about an employee that when she is around I just never seem to lose, especially when she cuts the cards. I NEVER think "lady luck" changes the odds or whatever, any of that crap but it has just been unheard of how I win if shes around, lose when she leaves. If you have ever seen the movie the Cooler I swear it is just like that with her. Well, she walked off and I didnt even think about it but the lady dealer had me cut the cards. I hate cutting the cards, seems like I always do badly. I ran out tried to find my friend and couldn't. I said screw it, played anyway. Must have lost every single hand. Lost exactly 27.1k in what felt like 8 minutes. Say what you want about the lady luck thing but if I had her cut, no way it does any worse than mine. This really sucked. I went to Earl after that with a good friend who always helps my anxiety, depression. Helped me shake off the loss a bit. I try my best not to let the bad losses ruin my trip... but geez, that didn't help



Not sure what I did the next night, same ole, drinking with friends I guess.



Last night, Thursday An old friend came to visit. She always helps calm me down a bit and think rationally. We always go to Gordon Ramsay, sit at the bar, get the same thing every time. I had a vegan friend talk me into cutting back the red meat, hadn't had any in a long time and I must say I think it does help you feel better but man this beef wellington sure was nice after no red for a while. That dessert is so good too.















Thought I would take it easy last night, her and I went to play poker and I knew I couldn't get into so much trouble doing that. I was sober though, people aren't use to that and seem so disappointed lol. I was just so tired from the big meal. I took some addy, started drinking, here we go. I was having a great time cutting up with friends and employees at the bar, going back to poker every now and then but for some dam reason (alcohol) I wound up at b jack again. I had lost over 12k and was hating life. I decided to make one more go at it. Bought in with 3k but this time made a point to go find my lucky friend. Once again, the odds don't change and I kinda look at it like I'm due to lose now since I have won so much in the past with her. I was playing double deck, she cut and it was unbelievable. Didn't lose a single hand after she cut, the dealers were like wow and couldn't believe it. I know that dealer well and she really pulls for me. I was up over 17k on one 2 deck shoot. We both smiled and said wow. I couldn't wait to tell my lucky friend what had happened. Then I thought, oh crap. I'm up now, gotta buy everybody sandwiches. Decided to play one more to pay for that (like a dumass). Didn't see my friend, said screw it, I'll cut. Lost, doubled wager, repeat, repeat, repeat until it was gone. Lost it all. It was so sick. That was so tough to swallow. Came back to the room, took an ambien and didn't even sleep much after that. I've really let it get me down, done nothing today.

Now that I read this, what a depressing report this is. This may be the worst ever, I hope maybe it makes someone feel better if they think they've had a crappy day haha. I was supposed to go to eat this afternoon with probably the prettiest girl in this town and I just couldn't bring myself to do that.

So far this is definitely a Goliath kicks the crap out of David story but I've still got a few days. I'm not even worried about the gambling, I just wanna have a fun trip. Hopefully things will turn around. If it doesn't screw it, I have a lot to be thankful for.

Thanks man, I guess thats what happened and explains a lot. I have been told I have been irritable at times this trip and thats not me, especially not on vacation. Maybe I need to go smoke some more dope hahaha

DO NOT drink and take benzos. Ever. I do not judge anyone; that will make you feel worse than you ever thought possible.

you should just smoke dope man....from a recovering....the drinking will catch up with you

Thanks for posting Slim. I hope you feel better, and can catch a heater in blackjack!

thanks for sharing Slim; sorry to hear about the bad losses; i hope you can rally and win some back; glgl

Yeah, thanks for sharing. Thought about you at work today which is weird since you are just a name on an internet forum but I can relate to some things you're dealing with. Hope you're having rungood jammed down your throat right now. GLGLGLGLGL

Man i usually love your TR's but this one has me somewhat sad/depressed which is weird.

Add me to the dont drink and take xanax group, complete blackout.

Bach, we're getting older. Chill out man.
Go Vegas in slight a different gear next time.

Enjoy your days left!

Thanks, I sincerely appreciate it

I agree, at that point, it was depressing AF. Here's a link to one year ago, much better read. It's what I was expecting this trip to be like.

https://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/1...ts-ph-1663736/

I appreciate it but I'm not downshifting gears til I'm in convalescent care lol. I've never been all screwed up in the head like that. I'm now convinced coming off the zoloft parlayed with some bad losses messed me up bad. The overall trip and moreso my mindset got a whole lot better. I will try to get around to an update this weekend.

Good trip report. If you don’t lose that $27.1k you would probably have a totally different opinion of the trip so far. Same with people commenting on the topic.

You do you and be happy

Enjoy your TRs.
Don't **** with the benzos and alcohol or painkillers. Known as the Heath Ledger.

Let's say that for me, my previous best Vegas win is $5000.

I buy in for $5K, and suddenly after a great run I have $27K in front of me, and I'm up $22K for the trip. Is there a possibility that I say "I'm putting $20K in my pocket, I'm going to gamble up the $2K, and see how it goes. If I lose it, I'm still up $20K for the trip and it will be an epic memory. or the same scenario but I lock up $15K profit.

On the other hand, I guess there are so many stories about going up big and giving it all away, that my scenario doesn't happen with certain personality types.

A person doesn't buy in for 5k thinking 27k is an "epic win"

Lol what? I mean your mileage isn’t the same as others. Drugs affect people in different ways

The thinking like that will make sure you never get to 27k without some slot jackpot

This

Head up Slim. I love the drive man. Downshift when you’re dead

Let me clarify. $5k total for the trip. The main point being if your previous best win is $5K, and you get to >$20K, then it's a new milestone and you should book it.

I dunno man, a 4x score would be pretty epic in my book. Viewing it from the perspective of total trip or session bankroll, of course. Every time I stick 2k into a VP machine and net 8k, I'm stoked. And I literally have never had a 4x winning trip (eg, bring 10k, leave with 50k).

Lol you're the poster boy for not quitting when you get there!

I went out with $1k in food and gambling budget and had 3x $1k+ scores at bj, a $4k score on VP and a $1.5k score on WoF. Had to take out $300 the last morning from my card haha On the other hand, hey it´s Vegas and that´s what we are there for!

History has shown that it’s hard to quit when one is ahead, even or behind.

Beech,

Up 27k in that spot, you know next trip you’re gonna come back with your budget of 2k or 5k or whatever gambling budget. So this is your one chance to run it up to 50k, 100k, hell who knows! That’s why you don’t book the medium big win.