Hey guys, volume still been absurdly low. Was back at the nl grind Thursday with short sessions at Wynn and V 5/10. Ran a pretty stupid bluff and ended up losing a bunch. The guy tanked river for several minutes so it can't be too horrible if he thinks that long but still not a great spot to go after.
Decided I needed to get confidence back/knock out some rust from not playing much and spent a day at 2/5 at V. Played my B game, booked a solid win.
Sunday I played the 15/30 O8 game at V. The game was pretty good and despite not having a ton of experience in that game, just by playing tight I was a decent favorite in the game. Was up a ton at first and ended up booking about a 10BB win.
Yesterday I was in one of the best 5/10 games I've ever been in and unfortunately got doomswitched. Got 800 in pre with A
Q
against 7
7
in a weird spot. Straddled pot, then UTG blind raises to 60. A player in the middle calls, I go 250 from the CO, guy who blind raised stuffs it for 800, middle player folds and I call. Flop comes J
T
8
giving me all the outs which all brick.
From there I basically lost small pots consistently just having to give up on bad turns with some value hands. Also incorrectly value owned myself in a limped pot when I flopped 2 pair and should have check/folded river instead of bet/folded. Last hand of the night I got set over set by one of the main spots at the table and that pretty much sealed it. Losing big in great games is pretty annoying, but I won the equity battle.
I also had my first coaching session this past week which I think went well. Looking forward to doing more of that in the future.
Fogo and tmckendry in town for the week so will be chillin with them and watching lots of March Madness this weekend. We went out last night, met up with Katana as well and just hung out for a while. I crushed a pushup prop bet while fairly drunk. I have no idea how it got started but basically people were arguing over how many pushups I'd be able to do without stopping and I said if someone bets I'd do it. I went to the bathroom and came back to hear that a bet had been made but I wasn't told what the over/under was or who had bet. Got to 21, crushing the over/under of 9
So yea, crazy as it may seem, I don't think I'll be playing much this week as last year I missed out on watching the tournament in favor of playing more poker and remember feeling like it wasn't worth it despite games being very good. Basically the same argument I have for taking off Saturday's during football season with the added factor of me not being super motivated to grind lately.
I've been looking more into houses around here and plan to get some addresses today and go look around tomorrow just at the outsides of some places. Also getting some administrative stuff done with my investments, after which I'll start adding to them.
Still haven't really found anything specific I'd like to pursue in terms of income production outside of poker but I've been talking to people at the table about stuff they do and brainstorming/researching on my own. I'd like to find something that offers a similarly free lifestyle as poker because really I love the lifestyle it offers, I've just lost that passion/spark. Its also not a case of just not liking it because I'm losing. I remember feeling the same way earlier this year when I was having above average results and thinking "wow, if I'm not liking poker when I'm winning, whats gonna happen when I inevitably start losing again?". Here's a shocker: it sucks. The wins never feel as good as the losses feel bad, thats just a proven fact of human psychology, but lately that effect has been much more extreme with wins feeling even less good and losses feeling even worse.
I probably come off as lazy based on my volume but the truth is I'm no stranger to hard work. My whole life I've worked my ass off in school/sports/part-time jobs and until recently, poker. I'm just the type of person that has to enjoy what I'm doing, otherwise I just won't do it. I think the poker spark will re-ingnite at some point, especially as I learn other games, but I think it will be kind of like a re-chargeable battery that lasts just a bit shorter every time it gets recharged. For that reason I need to be looking into other things as well as playing poker.
Anyways this post was sorta all over the place and probably comes off way more negative than I actually feel but I just wanted to get some thoughts down.
Last edited by cushlash; 03-18-2014 at 08:33 PM.