I find cheese delicious.

Log? Of chèvre ?

Grunching through thread.. Fitbit can be really accurate. You can walk a mile and adjust your stride length accordingly (based on how many steps you took to walk that mile) and makes it a really good measure.

If you use the default setting without measuring your stride that way its an estimate, but not as accurate.

Dislike cheese and beer.
Love chocolate.

Confirmed eunuch

Dislike cheese and chocolate. Hate beer except for Amstel Light.

Love Kentucky bourbons, Johnny Walker Black and Nathan's hot dogs.

Confirmed worst taste in the history of mankind.

Lolz that she hasn't posted itt in two weeks and it's still on the front page

So I haven't posted in awhile because I've been... crazy? Don't know how else to put it. Very stressed out and being sort of irrational and obsessed with food was only making it worse.

The truth is that I have a horrible relationship with food. I don't eat when I'm hungry, I'm always giving in to cravings for sugar, and I don't know how to change these habits.
So I stopped logging for a bit, to see if I could get myself to calm down a little. I'm not sure if it worked, I think food and diet will always be an additional stressor in my life.
I'm going to start seeing a school counselor (might as well, since this is the last year until I have my degree). I need to deal with things related to my mom, family, work, etc. I also need to get to the point where thinking about food doesn't result in panic.

So, if anyone has any useful advice, I would appreciate hearing it. Otherwise, the log is on a hiatus for a bit.

Useful advice about what? I'm not sure what exactly your current goals are, if the log probably is on hiatus I'm guessing it's not about food logging/calorie counting/weight loss? As for awful life stuff that needs dealing with, I don't have much advice of use to offer. Seeing a counselor sounds like a very good step, good luck.

I really believe that one day things will just click for you. A moment of mental clarity. You'll be like, wow, what am I doing to myself? And then you'll actively try to change the path you're going in. It's a lifestyle change though. And it's never easy. My initial weight loss was slow because I was still commuting to school (one hour each way) and it's really easy to just hit the drive through in the morning. But then I started to make small changes. I started making ham and cheese sandwiches in the morning and bringing granola bars. I don't eat those things now (you'll evolve), but it was light years better than a BEC on a bagel. I added in time on the treadmill after school. I set small fitness goals for myself: run 10 minutes without stopping... 15... run a 5k... until I could run for an hour without stopping.

But you've got to be in it mentally or else you're never going to succeed. Each time you slip up, you probably have an excuse for it. But you shouldn't. Just admit to it. **** it. You make mistakes, you're not ever going to be perfect and you don't have to spend all of your time trying to be perfect. I was in a denial for a very long time. The last few logs I've read... I see it too, because I used to be the same way.

And remember that once you get back into fitness, you'll find that things aren't as hard/emotional/stressful as they once were.

edit: Also remember that you have a great fiance who seems to be overwhelming supportive and in love with you. You're on the path to a great career with financial security. AND YOU HAD THE BODY OF A TEN BEFORE. you've had it before, you can do it again. EZ!

I don't really have a diet goal (which makes this thread pointless, atm). I have a goal of not being so stressed and changing the way I think about food.

http://www.bodyrecomposition.com/a-g...exible-dieting

Read this while you are on your hiatus. It's only like 90 pages and its really great stuff that you can apply in your every day normal diet instead of formally having to deal with the stress of a "diet."

There's a whole part of the book about taking "full diet breaks" which it seems like you need to do right now. Good luck and don't feel bad about this. I posted the George Harrison image not to insult, but because it was hilarious to me.

Have you heard of EMDR or any similar techniques that can help reprogram one's sub-conscious? Afaik I'd assume there are other somewhat similar options (at least EMDR which I have no direct experience with and NLP, which I have a bit of) that can help you realign the way you think and feel about food to something more "reasonable" or "manageable".

I guess I should add a qualification that the eye-movement and inherent linguistic properties of these techniques seem bogus to me but I still think there is value in terms of the mapping of ingrained subroutines onto new subroutines through associating your mental images and memories toward or away from different feelings.

Well, here comes jdock100 again with his contrarian position. Same old same old.

Anyways, from reading this conversation if I didn't know the backstory I would think Gizmo was addicted to heroin, the way everyone is going on. What is she, 20 pounds overweight? And even that is questionable depending on whether you believe the entertainment, cosmetic, diet etc. industries have conspired to make normal women feel like they have a disease so they will go out and spend money on whatever they are pushing.

Like the rest of us normal people, Gizmo is addicted to food because she has 5 billion years of evolutionary programming telling you to eat food when it is there, cause you don't know when the next meal is gonna come around. IMO people with the willpower to starve themselves into a size 0 are the ones who have something wrong going on upstairs.

Maybe you just have to accept you are not mentally built to be one of those crazy housewives we all see at the gym who exercises several hours a day, starves themselves, takes copious amounts of drugs, and goes under the knife so they can have the body they had when they were 16, and accept that and move on with life.

I've been thinking about this thread a lot lately. I'm around 175 or so and said to myself I'd change a few things and see if I could drop a few, I dropped 7 lbs by eating grilled chicken breast and steamed vegetables for a few days (5 days, to be exact). Had some egg whites as snacks, a turkey hoagie on 2 days, but mostly chicken and vegetables. Wasn't exactly fun, but I didn't mind it too much. I felt much better going through a few days of eating super-healthy, and was surprised I was down in the 160s. That being said, my calorie intake was really low so I felt a little tired.

The mental aspect of approaching food is the hardest part. If you're not ready mentally, it simply isn't going to happen. I've never had problems with sugar, so I'm not familiar with the cravings, but I would suggest substitutes that you can live with and that are better alternatives.

The issue with threads like these are there is so many different opinions and approaches that people get confused and stressed and just say "f it". That's why I was so concerned about how you felt about everything earlier in the thread (it can be overwhelming).

It's ok. Reset mentally and when you are ready, try again.

Fairly sure AB suggested a book about the mental aspect of dieting earlier ITT. If not, ask him/kidcolin in the LC thread. They both lauded it as a very good book. I assume you'd be willing to read a well-recommended book (AB is the nuts, seriously) on dieting - I'd def prioritize that.