I am just sitting and thinking about an ice cream......
That is exactly what I want to avoid. Not the ice cream but this obsessive thinking about it, thinking how many calories it will have, thinking if it is worth it or not. I don't really care if I weigh a kg more or less. But it is so deep in me: the f-ked up relationship with food. Food takes a lot more space in my life than I want it to have. But on the other hand I enjoy everything around food. I like to cook, I am keen when I can again go and pick some fresh strawberries myself. I like the experience of food, but somehow the whole thing got f-ked up somewhen in my youth. It is now a lot better than few years ago, but there are sometimes moments.....
Meeehhhh....... Going to eat this ice cream and so enjoy every single calorie in it.
Going to fully focus on every bite and every lick of it and will have a coffee with it to make it perfect.