Guess I should start off with the obligatory, "I've been fat my entire life" line. I'm 21, and a senior in college now. I'm not the fat friend/fat girl at the bar - I don't even go out because I've been a fly on the wall in the past and it obviously sucks.
Freshman year I used to be addicted to working out. I used to put off studying because I would be going to the gym twice a day instead. I could run 55 minutes nonstop at a 6.5mph pace (clearly I was in a different mental state during that time). The hardest part of all of this is that even though I was in great cardiovascular shape, the numbers on the scale weren't changing. Don't give me the muscle spiel either, it just would have been nice to see myself lose 10 or 15 pounds for all of the effort I was putting in. I was very into strength training back then and wanted to get into powerlifting, but was too shy to try it out in fear of bad form.
I stopped working out and progressively starting gaining weight. I didn't eat the worst food, but it certainly wasn't going to help me lose weight. Last summer/winter I was taking a lot of adderall and the pounds were melting off and I got down to about 185. I felt awesome and skinny, but I knew once I stopped the pounds were going to come back on. And they did.
Fast forward to today. I'm basically just a fat slob. I always wanted to think I was really confident, but inside I wasn't. I felt like every girl got more attention than me just because they were skinny and I wasn't. I still feel that way today. My diet is about 40% fat, 25% protein, and 35% carbohydrate.
This semester I took an exercise physiology course and found out more about my body composition in the lab portion of the class.
STATS:
Weight: 214 pounds
Body fat percentage: 41.13%
BMI: 32.5
Lean body mass: 126.26 lbs
Fat mass: 87.74
Body weight goal: 176 pounds with 27% body fat
Before pic:
threadsaverssssssssss (aka me when i decide to try to look put together)
Bottom line:
Don't thremp me, don't troll, don't tell me the obvious "eat less" BS. it's a tougher emotional battle for me

give me motivation, long term advice that works for you, your girlfriend/mother/sister/aunt/daughter/in law. talk about workout plans, etc. And lastly, i apologize if i sound attention whorey, but hearing feedback is very motivating.
Be nice.