I had the TV date tonight with Jennifer, and...wow.
So, uh, I'm not gonna hold out on you guys like Vintage. She comes over, we start watching our shows, making out during commercials, a little bit of clothing starts coming off as things get heavier and we start paying less and less attention to the TV. Then the dreaded conversation begins:
"So, what are you looking for?" (her obv)
I sigh inside. "What do you mean?"
"You know...a relationship? Just looking to date?" asdfasdfasdf
"I don't know, what are you looking for?"
"I asked you first!"
Soo now I'm trying to gauge what's going on in her head as well as figure out if I should be honest with her. I know what I want; I like this girl, and I'd probably like a relationship with her. Eventually I say **** it and say "I dunno, I hadn't thought about it too much but I suppose I'd like a relationship".
"I'm too busy for a relationship...I'm just looking to date right now. I've been dating around a little..."
"Well, I mean, I'm not set on that right now or anything."
"Okay...that's good. Because I'd like to sleep with you tonight, I just wanted to make sure we're on the same page first."
"...you can tell I'm pretty direct about things."
Soooo yeah. Obviously that sounded fine to me, and we went ahead with it...but tbh, I don't like the idea of her seeing other people, and I couldn't tell if the "dating around" thing was past tense or present tense, but the rest of the night I was definitely thinking in the back of my mind about when she's kissing me, when she puts her hands on me, if there's some other guy(s) making her feel the same way I do. Didn't like that.
I eventually walked her back to her car and said goodnight, and we're going on a date tomorrow, so I think I'm gonna have to ask her about whether she's dating anyone else and/or plans to. Being "casual" in the sense that we don't take things super seriously and don't have to hang out 5 times a week is fine for me right now, but I guess I'm selfish and don't want to share her, so that part isn't.