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Originally Posted by katyseagull
Hi Dave!
I was wondering where you went. I missed you! Certainly can understand the need to take a break from the forum. Online forums are addictive but let's face it they really are not productive in any meaningful way. When I stopped posting I was able to complete my master's degree. So just think what you can accomplish if you get off the forum. That said, I don't want you to leave us. You've always been one of the nicest people I've met online. You have never been mean to anyone and you understand a lot about forum behavior.
Thanks for the kind words, Katy. I've always considered you the nice center of this forum. It comes across as genuine to me.
But yeah, it isn't that I haven't gained incredible insight and useful / useless knowledge from this forum. I'm really just looking to scale back my entire online presence, which admittedly isn't much. Makes one wonder where all the other posters went unannounced, huh?
I'm not sure what I will accomplish when I'm gone. I've just had a rough year and a lot of things came to a head, all for the worse as far as I can tell. I actually did something I never did in my life: stop and do absolutely nothing. It was a strange getting used to that affair, but I just sat there an let myself think and not push and push. I think I gained a lot of valuable insight into myself and life from doing exactly... nothing. Nothing at all. I didn't study, didn't play guitar, didn't talk to anyone. I went to work and that was only to pay the bills (now I'm sounding like Office Space).
Strange, it took a whopping 38 years to simply sit down and just ponder life and stuff for more than 5 minutes, and figure out where it all went sideways, figure out what I am in this world, and figure out some truths about people. I guess reflection takes more than 5 minutes of intense self-focus after all. Should definitely try it if you never had. The first week was seriously uncomfortable, but I suppose I can understand, just a little bit, why people like to sit on the beach and do nothing but stare at the horizon. Not sure if I'll ever actually do that, but it's interesting to wonder what it would be like to be capable of doing that from birth.
Some things have to come good, and I guess I've come to some odd realizations that may or may not align with reality. I'll figure that one out soon enough, I suppose!
It's all about breaking out of the comfort zone, if you get that. ugh... way over personal, I guess, but who cares, right?
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I miss you in the politics thread. It's been a good thread for the Lounge. Don't let that one poster in the US Elections thread run you off.
Eh, I didn't really care about the stupid debates I was having. I was kind of taken off guard at how different we all are based on our unique upbringings. It did show me that a universe exists that I never was able to grasp completely (a prior experience this year really awoke this feeling, but I'll not get into that here).
It gave me valuable insight into that "other land" that is so hard to fathom and understand at times. I haven't spoken much about my upbringing and background here, and that's kind of the dissonance. Experience creates a sense of magnitude in all of us, and it's kind of nice to acknowledge that magnitudes don't always have to sit on the extremes.