When I was your age, all I had access to was the occasional Playboy I'd have to "borrow" from my Uncle's secret drawer. Once a year, I might get my hands on a Penthouse.
Of course, this was the 70s, so whether it was Playboy or Penthouse, all I could see below the belt was bush. I actually had no idea what a vagina looked like until I had sex for the first time.
I never saw an adult film until I was almost out of college. No porn at all.
Today, with what you jokers have available to you, I'm seeing a definite lack of interest from you in "real" girls. You're quite happy with your poker, your video games, your porn...and you don't seem all that interested in real girls. In fact, dare I say...you almost seem scared of them.
Nothing wrong with that...I was mystified by them when I was young. But they were a wonderful mystery, and sex was, well....sexy. Alluring. Special. Nowadays, when 14 year-olds have access to Facial Cum Dumpsters 7 on the interwebs, I'm wondering if you actually expect all sex to be that mechanical.
Next time you actually have sex? Look in her eyes, will ya? Have sex with a real person. not just some hole. realize you're sharing something with a vulnerable, interesting girl who you might actually get to like if you thought of her as more than an object to have sex with. Dare to show the girl respect and love!
Let me just add that as a woman, I'd rather bed a real man than some dude who treated me like a sex robot. There's just nothing erotic about that action to a woman.
Im not as old aparently (33) but I can remember I was 14 when I first discovered the fap. JC Penny catalog bra and panty section was tha bomb, had zero access to nude pictures of any kind to fap