I am completely fine with only doing things that please me, instead of pretending to be interested in stupid stuff just to be a part of whatever bull**** is hip atm. I feel fine hanging around alone at home on a saturday night after a bit of sport in the evening.
It feels way better to only go out partying once a month and not visit some random idiots on every weekend. I am proud to feel better alone most of the time and enjoy to visit my few friends when i actually feel like it and am wanted to talk about something, instead of chit-chatting the same **** as yesterday. I am tested as an extroverted person, but small-talk and rinse and repeat nonsense blabla (like poker,TV, tanning, new i-phone and facebook etc.) let me tend to have a more differentiated picture of myself nowadays.
After mostly having girlfriends who where unable to be alone (sluts, yup), i felt kind of scared to some degree and unable to comprehend. Their low self-esteem seems to force them to get company all the time, simply to forget about themselves, i think.
It might be okay for girls to be like that (how should i otherwise ever get laid?), but a grown man who always wants to have company seems seriously disturbing to me, how about you?
Feeling lonely often simply means being bothered by one self, instead of a lack of friends/****s, imo.

Sounds like you have a life to me. Going out playing sports in the evenings, going to a party once a month, having some friends and hobbys; you sound like you have things going ok to me.

well i do, but i wonder about people around my age.
im mid-twenty and only have friends who are 30+, one even 50+.
i think im just getting old too soon. i mean, i always hated pop-music and hollywood-movies, but i also cant understand all the facebook, twitter and i-phones that people use to be on there all the time. what exactly is so great about zero privacy for life?
am i getting old a lot quicker than is should be? i sometimes sound like a retirment-grandpa.
maybe i should drop some acid and re-evaluate the whole situation.

I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.

-HDT

I think at a certain point adults basically say, **** it, this is what I like and I'm comfortable with that, and quit caring about what they "should" like or be doing. Congrats for getting to that point.

I've just signed up to a book club. When I used to give a toss about what people think I wouldn't have done it because society (Hollywood movies) doesn't think that a 21 yo male should be doing that but now I just do whatever makes me happy.

Yes.

Sometimes in life we get flustered because our personal experience isn't living up to popular expectations. Sometimes I feel like my life should be more like Jersey Shore--filled with drunken nights and debauchery.

I think when we are inundated with so many messages of how are lives are "supposed" to be, it makes it difficult to be happy when we actually have what we really want.

No. You are aging at the same pace as you always have, and always will.

There is nothing wrong with maturing early.

Be who you want to be.

Do you play chess OP?

I agree with you when it comes to girls, most of them even the smarter ones are unpredictable. Read the "brain of a female" it's a New York's time best seller and you may give up on them. The rational part of their brain hasn't evolved. The emotional part of their brain is so strong that for example they could be madly in love with you and just leave you one day for no reason. The funny part is, the author is a female neurologist. It seems to me OP that you are very logical and analytical in life. You will have a difficult time understanding girls and their behaviors. There is no pattern in their decision makings so don't try to understand why they do what they do. It's not that they are sluts or low self-esteemed, they are not capable to use the prefrontal cortex of the brain as well as males. The dumber you are the more fun you will have with ladies. This explains why most of the scientist never got married.

BTW in the top 100 chess players in the world, 99 are male and 1 female, go figure.

i connect with a lot of what you're saying, OP.

in my experience, and when i was younger this just came naturally, regular 'people' are boring as ****, but scumbags, while they may occasionally burn you, are way more interesting and bring the fun without you having to provide much, if any, effort. some people are just mentally unstable or sent from god or whatever, but they bring the ****in party. and if you let loose and take your (solid) not-giving-a-**** instincts to higher and higher levels, the next thing you know you're spiraling out of control doing whippits in a car with a group of highschoolers you just met and dropping them off at school monday morning.

"BYE HONEY!!!", and you're laughing hysterically? you know the kind of weekend i'm talking about.

i was reading somewhere that the smarter you are the lonelier you will be in life. i asked you if you are a chess player because most chess players and scientist are very lonely in life. i personally appreciate life more when im lonely, for some reason i become more selfless and care less about status, money, and power. i think you have stopped caring because you are in touch with your higher self when you are lonely. trust me if you had someone in your life that you truly loved you would be making some moves against your will to please that person.

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I think the prime reason why intelligent people are lonely , is because, they have low tolerance for BS and immature stuff and tell things like they are, which most people dont like. Also , I have an interesting theory about intelligent people having sexually deviant tendencies.

ppl tend to think in groups, and by and large, ppl are stupid. esp in groups.
i can relate to op, trapped in a college town +5 yrs older than the usual (dickforbrain) inhabitatns.

my outlets are music, poker, alcohol, drugs.

i feel better alone, tbh, unless i'm inebriated

Always the best thing imo