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Old 12-04-2010, 06:10 PM   #176
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To answer your questions OP:

Yeah I had a script for Ambien, which is supposed to be a really good sleeping pill, when I was on a two month kick last year and it didn't help for ****. I took four at a time after being clean for almost two months and still could only sleep for 3 hours. I woke up feeling really groggy/****ed up. I've tried Melatonin and other sleeping pills but none of them worked. Xanax would definitely help me sleep and curb the withdrawal somewhat, but I do not recommend that cause that can be highly addicting and abusive as well. You can die from Xanax withdrawal.

snorting oxy (never smoked it) is very similar to snorting H. Not exactly the same but they don't call it synthetic heroin for nothing.

I still drink alcohol and smoke herb, so I'm not living a sober life, but I'm done with the Heroin/speedballs/crack as far as I'm concerned. I'm stuck living with my parents with a mountain of debt, making **** money living in the town I grew up in (moved from the city where I was living the last 11 years doing dope for the last 7 or so) and I only have a few friends in this town. But no matter how ****** my life is now, it's no where as near as bad as it was so I'm fine with that.

I was so against going to rehab, but the court forced me. I'm really glad I did though cause it gave me more time of sobriety and insight into myself and what I was doing. You would think the ODing, the stroke, and losing really good friends would have been enough, but with getting into legal trouble too, I think that was the pushing point. It sucked going through their whole routine every day being dope sick, but in the end it was for the best. Ok, off to my ****** job!
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Old 12-05-2010, 05:54 AM   #177
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To answer your questions OP:

Yeah I had a script for Ambien, which is supposed to be a really good sleeping pill, when I was on a two month kick last year and it didn't help for ****. I took four at a time after being clean for almost two months and still could only sleep for 3 hours. I woke up feeling really groggy/****ed up. I've tried Melatonin and other sleeping pills but none of them worked. Xanax would definitely help me sleep and curb the withdrawal somewhat, but I do not recommend that cause that can be highly addicting and abusive as well. You can die from Xanax withdrawal.

snorting oxy (never smoked it) is very similar to snorting H. Not exactly the same but they don't call it synthetic heroin for nothing.

I still drink alcohol and smoke herb, so I'm not living a sober life, but I'm done with the Heroin/speedballs/crack as far as I'm concerned. I'm stuck living with my parents with a mountain of debt, making **** money living in the town I grew up in (moved from the city where I was living the last 11 years doing dope for the last 7 or so) and I only have a few friends in this town. But no matter how ****** my life is now, it's no where as near as bad as it was so I'm fine with that.

I was so against going to rehab, but the court forced me. I'm really glad I did though cause it gave me more time of sobriety and insight into myself and what I was doing. You would think the ODing, the stroke, and losing really good friends would have been enough, but with getting into legal trouble too, I think that was the pushing point. It sucked going through their whole routine every day being dope sick, but in the end it was for the best. Ok, off to my ****** job!
Crazy how benzo's and alchohol can straight up kill you if you stop taking it, always confuses the **** out of me, Remember drinking when we were 11/12 lads ending up in hospital,..

Glad to hear your having an easy time with not falling back into the old patteren, Where ya living these days,? Nice and remote is it,... First time I got clean and stayed clean was the same ****, moved country , helped amazingly well , till i got connections plus boredom here,..

Can you still do the whole look at someone know instantly if he is on / off / user?
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Old 12-05-2010, 03:47 PM   #178
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Did you ever sink into the floor with Lou Reed playing in the background? Cause that **** looks cool.
i like this post lol

would post a question/something more constructive but don't have time to read the whole thread now

actually, are you ever going to try to "make things right" for muggings, etc? or do you not feel the need/will to do so? (probably already been asked)
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Old 12-05-2010, 04:49 PM   #179
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If u had to suicide, what method would u use? heroin?

Do you think an addict who say that he doesn't want to stop consuming is really free to consume?
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Old 12-05-2010, 04:59 PM   #180
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Most of the stuff in this thread would give me no grounds to be judgemental, but robbing/beating people up, sorry bro, you're scum. Couldn't you just ****ing sell drugs to get the money you need?
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Old 12-05-2010, 05:24 PM   #181
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Would you go cold turkey for a year if someone offered you like 50 grand?
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Old 12-05-2010, 05:24 PM   #182
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Crazy how benzo's and alchohol can straight up kill you if you stop taking it, always confuses the **** out of me, Remember drinking when we were 11/12 lads ending up in hospital,..

Glad to hear your having an easy time with not falling back into the old patteren, Where ya living these days,? Nice and remote is it,... First time I got clean and stayed clean was the same ****, moved country , helped amazingly well , till i got connections plus boredom here,..

Can you still do the whole look at someone know instantly if he is on / off / user?

Yeah I moved back to my hometown, small little north Wisconsin town. about 7 hours north of Chicago. (I find most Europeans don't know where Wisconsin is but have an idea where Chicago is)

But yeah boredom, and definitely stress are the worst relapse triggers for me, but I don't really get the urges I used to. Don't get me wrong I think about it all the time, but I've learned to keep it in check.

And yeah, I'm a pro at knowing if someone is using H or other strong opiates. It's amazing how most people don't even realize the signs, like thinking someone is just really tired or drunk, but once you do it is pretty obvious. The pupils don't lie for one. I know there is even dope in my small town and I know old friends who do oxy's or suboxone but I stay away from them.
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Old 12-05-2010, 06:06 PM   #183
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i had to take oxy for like two weeks prior to neck surgery. the first day without it I felt like I was going to have to tear my skin off. can't imagine what detox is like for heroin.

why is that some people can live fairly normal life using heroin, but other's can't?
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Old 12-05-2010, 07:00 PM   #184
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I love it, not just because I smoke alot of it, but because I think it helps people think and learn about themselves and the world they live in, but I have to say I think lsd/shrooms are the way to go in that regard, weed is a good everyday drug to leave it at.
addicts are so fun.

i get the vibe u feel taking drugs is an active choice you've made and that it's an OK lifestyle. Am I wrong, if not, or if yes; please elaborate.

Also; plans on growing up/creating an OK life? or does it feel hopeless(no education etc maybe?)

gl with the robbing ppl part(not really)
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Old 12-06-2010, 12:06 AM   #185
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I don't care about the interests of the world at large.

But saying to a Londoner "I am an avid supporter of the IRA" is very bad for your health. (well if you wasn't on an internet forum).
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Yeah whatever, thing is when you have lived in a city bombed by terrorists and known people who have been killed by said terrorist it kind of makes you blood boil when someone says he's an avid supporter of said group.
Sorry Pooter, but between you and the OP you are the one showing the most ignorance by being unable to recognize that OP has backed WAY off of your continued repetition of an avid supporter of the IRA.

First, he clarified himself, second, he clarified himself, third again he clarified himself, and fourth, just in case that wasn't enough, he even said his wording was incorrect.

Also, the Brits have killed more innocent babies with their efforts in Iraq and Afghanistan in the last 8 years than the IRA, so quit being a hypocrite...

BTW, I am not supporting OP in any way. I hope all muggers run into the wrong person and are left on the street to bleed out.
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Old 12-06-2010, 12:19 AM   #186
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i once smoked an ounce of opium in about a week when i was 20. is that more than anyone you know.
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Old 12-06-2010, 12:24 AM   #187
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Sorry Pooter, but between you and the OP you are the one showing the most ignorance by being unable to recognize that OP has backed WAY off of your continued repetition of an avid supporter of the IRA.
no sorry greg but you dont question pooter. he is not accountable to you. if he calls someone a nazi they hang for war crimes imo. NEVER AGAIN!
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Old 12-06-2010, 04:06 AM   #188
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I won't read the entire thread so I'll just ask my questions. I'm a heroin user(?) myself for some time.

For how long have you been using daily? How can you have sufficient funds to not start using needles? It doesn't make sense to not start using needles unless you have alot of money if you truly are an addict. Here in Sweden it's very common to combine opiates with benzos, are you guys doing it where you live? If not, how come? It greatly improves the high to combine opiates with GABA-drugs, although it's fatal.

And to add some of my own input to the thread. Heroin isn't as good as it's described in the popular culture. It just isn't, period. To ever experience the ultimate feeling of heroin you need to be an addict and have heavy withdrawal symptoms and then shoot it up. Going from being very sick to feeling very good is what the ultimate opiate high is about.

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Old 12-06-2010, 04:37 AM   #189
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I won't read the entire thread so I'll just ask my questions. I'm a heroin user(?) myself for some time.

For how long have you been using daily? How can you have sufficient funds to not start using needles? It doesn't make sense to not start using needles unless you have alot of money if you truly are an addict. Here in Sweden it's very common to combine opiates with benzos, are you guys doing it where you live? If not, how come? It greatly improves the high to combine opiates with GABA-drugs, although it's fatal.

And to add some of my own input to the thread. Heroin isn't as good as it's described in the popular culture. It just isn't, period. To ever experience the ultimate feeling of heroin you need to be an addict and have heavy withdrawal symptoms and then shoot it up. Going from being very sick to feeling very good is what the ultimate opiate high is about.
ummmm okay. When you are shooting heroin everyday all day for years, of course it isn't as good. More maintenance than anything. Yes getting high when you are totally dope sick feels great and all, but doesn't compare to the early stages of shooting imo as far as the high itself. I think it's more of the relief of not being sick mixed with the high. Most long term users complain about not getting high other then the rush you get right after you shoot. That's why I moved to speedballs in my later years of shooting. Being on ecstasy and shooting speedballs is the best damn feeling I've ever had, ainec.

But, with that being said, I wouldn't wish heroin use on my worst enemy. I'm so glad I'm not using anymore for realz.

And using needles is cheaper at first, but I disagree with it being way cheaper in the long run. You build up way more tolerance faster with needles and the sick comes quicker. Than again I had lots of drug money to spend so my opinion is prolly skewed. **** heroin yo

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Old 12-06-2010, 04:54 AM   #190
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ummmm okay. When you are shooting heroin everyday all day for years, of course it isn't as good. More maintenance than anything. Yes getting high when you are totally dope sick feels great and all, but doesn't compare to the early stages of shooting imo as far as the high itself. I think it's more of the relief of not being sick mixed with the high. Most long term users complain about not getting high other then the rush you get right after you shoot. That's why I moved to speedballs in my later years of shooting. Being on ecstasy and shooting speedballs is the best damn feeling I've ever had, ainec.

But, with that being said, I wouldn't wish heroin use on my worst enemy. I'm so glad I'm not using anymore for realz.

And using needles is cheaper at first, but I disagree with it being way cheaper in the long run. You build up way more tolerance faster with needles and the sick comes quicker. Than again I had lots of drug money to spend so my opinion is prolly skewed. **** heroin yo
Yeah, you got to combine heroin with benzo's to get high enough if you are an addict. Is it true that this isn't as popular as it is in Sweden? I think we have the highest fatality amongst heroinists in the world here in Sweden, and thats because of the combination? Well, yes, I agree that the high might not be as good, but as you said that going from -1000 to +500 gives a better feeling imo. My favorite combination is heroin, xtc and benzos. The euphoria from the xtc and still having the perfect body-feeling/temperature from heroin is just purely awesome.
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Old 12-06-2010, 06:06 AM   #191
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just want to say that it`s been pretty nice seeing pooter take a break from spreading herpes to hopeless, poor as dirt thai women, long enough to climb up on a high horse.

if only one thai hooker is saved a lifetime of herpes pain while pooter playes internet tough guy, this thread will have been a sucess.
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Old 12-06-2010, 06:40 AM   #192
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Yeah, you got to combine heroin with benzo's to get high enough if you are an addict. Is it true that this isn't as popular as it is in Sweden? I think we have the highest fatality amongst heroinists in the world here in Sweden, and thats because of the combination? Well, yes, I agree that the high might not be as good, but as you said that going from -1000 to +500 gives a better feeling imo. My favorite combination is heroin, xtc and benzos. The euphoria from the xtc and still having the perfect body-feeling/temperature from heroin is just purely awesome.
Sorry, forgot to mention the benzos. Yeah, every junkie I hung out with always had their stash of benzos, including me. I didn't mix them as much as others cause they would make me blackout for some reason when mixing with dope. I used them when I was coming down or sick or whatever. Actually I used them most after shooting coke/smoking crack all night if I didn't have anymore dope to fall asleep. Mixing heroin with coke was my holy grail.

I would try to not take them every day cause I was afraid of getting seizures from extended use/withdrawal. Kind of funny thing to say now looking back at all the stupid **** I've done. But asking a junkie to be rational is silly I guess. I didn't mind dieing, falling out all the time, and having a stroke, but damn if I'll have a seizure!

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Old 12-06-2010, 06:56 AM   #193
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Would you go cold turkey for a year if someone offered you like 50 grand?
A year non stop???

Depends from what, and what level? eg, Is it doing to be like your 4/5th day without 120mg methadone after 3 years of use for the whole time, eg no.

lots of factors,.

But im sure Id make some bets in regards to what I could or wouldnt do.
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i like this post lol

would post a question/something more constructive but don't have time to read the whole thread now

actually, are you ever going to try to "make things right" for muggings, etc? or do you not feel the need/will to do so? (probably already been asked)

I had a difficult time with it for a good while, There was lots of things id rather not of done, Ive been mugged myself once or twice, once by knife, once from people knocking me down and covering eyes arms legs etc and they search me,
I wasnt one of those that would kick your teeth in for your money, Ya either handed over or you didnt, suprisingly though no where near as many put up resistence you would think,... But yeah I feel guilty for some of it, less for others. I feel more guilty about hurting my mother with my use, or girlfriend.
Plus its not like it was an everyday thing, I used to sell hash,weed , buy in stuff like perfume,aftershave,sell it on etc knew enough people to be able to hustle quite comfortable, Im not trying to say what Ive done is right,
(thisnt part isnt directed at you) I think alot of the people that are so hateful and full of disgust at what ive done or who I am are going to get a HUGE shock if they ever end up in prison and or in a seriously bad area. , Birds dont always sing like the Disney ones, My whole family on one side are known for violence and just basically being degenerates,. Was for a big time of my life pretty much all I knew.

The way I try to make things right I suppose, Is by treating my girlfriend with all the respect and love I can, dito for Family,. I worked free will for 4 years with animals , feeding/walking/medicine etc, 5 days a week, Sometimes buy animals from petstores and give them over to decent groups with ample space, feed the local stray cats, if it doesnt become more apparent, Ive sorta checked out for the main part with humans, I dont really have too much with people,
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If u had to suicide, what method would u use? heroin?

Do you think an addict who say that he doesn't want to stop consuming is really free to consume?
Yeah for sure, Id do a huge huge dose of heroin/methadone/benzos.


Not really, I still hide it from people just because I dont want what I do to hurt others even if its not done express.
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You don't feel at all bad about being scum of the earth?
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Old 12-06-2010, 12:55 PM   #197
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What's the deal with your parents?

Did you ever consider why you started to use?
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I would never condone or glorify the use of hard drugs. There are just too many lives that have been ruined by them. The overwhelming feeling of peace and tranquility that first time the needle pierces the skin is like being baptized and born again. It's a sad way to go through one's life, just counting the hours from fix to fix. The ability to feel the individual weight of each and every atom in your body creates a feeling of self awareness few people will ever experience. All your hopes, dreams and emotions coming from that tiny, beautiful vile. But for it, you would cease to exist.
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I would never condone or glorify the use of hard drugs. There are just too many lives that have been ruined by them. The overwhelming feeling of peace and tranquility that first time the needle pierces the skin is like being baptized and born again. It's a sad way to go through one's life, just counting the hours from fix to fix. The ability to feel the individual weight of each and every atom in your body creates a feeling of self awareness few people will ever experience. All your hopes, dreams and emotions coming from that tiny, beautiful vile. But for it, you would cease to exist.
Very well put, Nice wording,.. You write much?
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You don't feel at all bad about being scum of the earth?
Not in the way alot of you the people reading this would like me to be. But I do have regrets,
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