Parents split when I was young, I grew up with my mother, She has had/has her own addiction problem (alcho). Done her best and all that, Love her to bits etc, dont hold it against her .
Father is a mad mixture of charm and aggression,
A mixture of stupidty and bravado I think. But Ive always was into drugs, remember when i was a kid wanting to smoke hash so I stole me mothers,. Couldnt roll so put it in a smoke, just the lump at the top, dug in lol

I only know a select few who have had opium, I would LOVE to get my hands on some, id much rather something natural then what Im using , Have an opium fetish basically lol always what ya cant have

Op you mention about you wanting a baby with your gf and you will quit the **** why not quit now for her?

And do you not think it's a bad idea bring a kid in the world with a junkie for a dad? if my dad was a junkie i wouldn't want anything to do with him i know you got back on it when your grandma died and it's a crap time for anyone to lose someone close to them but what if you quit again lose someone else and get back on it with a baby in your life?

Good luck with what path you take in life but you really need to sort your **** out mate

jusqu'ici tout va bien eh? ('tot hier gaat alles goed' aldus de man die onderweg naar het asfalt naar de ervaring werd gevraagd nadat ie van een flat naar beneden sprong)

you sound only halfway down to the gutter but definitely on your way with everybody sane realising this but you. Check back on this thread in 5-10 years, and see how utterly naive your stances towards the opiates were. your semi-cool quotes aboutthe usage of opiates won't hold up by that time..

the only thing i feel for is what seems like a rotten childhood. Things might have turned out differently for you if that wasn't the case, and that's always a shame

for the rest you don't seem like the brightest one in class...

Fact, Its possible to live a life while on drugs,.
Fact, Ive buried more friends that I care to offer,
Fact, Life is better last 5 years then ever before.
Fact, Your still right in a way, lol

Topic is called Ask me about being an Opiate addict,
not Give advice and push own personal believes on OP, I know alot of them are meant well, but I didnt come to BB4L to learn how to live my life.

Fact, someday u will die, regardless of heroin usage.

How long u think u'll live? How do u see urself meeting death?

Have you ever seen "Requiem for a Dream"?

if so, isn't that movie fn awesome?

I reckon Ill make it too over another 25 at least,

Probably health problems or bad karma , either way pretty comfortable with the idea

Was a great film, end of story,..

Mad film though

I can relate with this for sure. When I was posting in the OOT forum in Layzie's thread about heroin I was making some really silly posts when I was high. Like the pic I put up with me being wacked out and one of me holding about 3/4 ounce rock of heroin. I used my Iphone which I didn't realize you could trace to where the pic was taken--from the pic's stored info. luckily the mods took it down reasonable fast for me. But I am pretty embarrassed about some of my other posts, but It's actually good to see now helps remind me how stupid I was now that I am off the ****. just my two cents yo

Hi Benny,

i followed the thread with layzie and you with great interest at the time. I think almost all contributors to the thread were feeling a great deal of pride towards the both of you in how you guys were 'coming to terms' with your lives and making the necessary steps. There was a lot if visual 'growth' in there when reading from the first post to the last. nothing but for you both

ik hoop voor je dat je aan het einde van de rit een leven voor jezelf vind met rust, balans en voldoening. dat je dat niet in heroine gaat vinden durf ik je wel op een briefje te geven, maar misschien moet een mens daar zelf op de pijnlijke manier achter komen. We zijn vreemd genoeg allen lemmingen op onze eigen manier met onze eigen demonen. Of het fysiek mogelijk is een leven lang met drugs te leven is eigenlijk in die zin niet echt interessant. Het gaat om de kwaliteit van je leven, en wat je zelf al aan geeft: je hebt niet bepaald een winnende strategie voor de lange termijn in handen. Alle succes, hoe dan ook,

link to thread??

Nee, Ik snap ook wat je bedoel, En ik zeg niet dat ik ben 100% blij met wat ik doe of heb gedaan, Maar ik voel ook niet dat Ik mag geen goede tijden hebben, moet ook sorry voor mijn nederlands zeggen als ik heb nooit cursus of school gedaan hier, alles ik kan praten of typen komt van paar jaar tv kijken, dus je snap ook dat het niet perfect zou zijn,..

Ik vind het wel heel fijn om de manier je zegt wat je denk en voelt, maar op einde zeg je wel Alle Success, hoe dan ook, zegt veel over je zelf, lekker lief en rustig,

Dus bedankt voor jou mening en je hebt gelijk of veel manieren maar ik moet ook bij gooien dat meest of wat ik weet over gebruik en pijn van komt van en tijd daarvoor deze jaar,

Bedankt voor jou brief, en ik geloof echt dat deze tijd volgende jaar ben ik al tijdje vanaf,

Here's to hoping

(excuse my dutch, no schoolin, no cursus, just subtitles and memory)

no problem, everything you had to say was clear. gl man, all the best

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for OP, read up on the thread above, perhaps you find some useful insights there...if it won't help i promise it will not hurt you either

read whole thread, thanks

OP how goes the Opiate addiction yo? Thought about treating yourself to a bunch of needles for christmas?

srs question, will you use on christmas day?

Whats the longest you've went without a poo?

dont do drugs, they're the illuminati's way of splitting families up

ever met kempi in eindhoven?

Sorry if these are repeated questions, but did read through the majority of the content and haven't found anything alike.

-How does methadone/heroin compares to XTC? Is it much better?
-How does it compares to morphine? (Had it 2 times, felt like heaven)

I don't despise drug usage, but I understand that very few people have the will power to don't turn themselves into junkies or start doing stupid things for a fix (I know I don't have).

Not really any questions, but just wanted to share my experience with opium. I got the opportunity to smoke real opium once (not that synthetic, redrock bull****) and that **** was incredible. Plus the taste/smell of it was amazing, like smoking some kind of incense. I's a damn good thing it's hard to find or I would inevitably be starting an "ask me what it's like to be addicted to opium" thread.

Often thought about things Like that, .. Why for instance someone is allowed to get plastic surgery for instance, extreme versions of beauty which can cause immense pain and suffereing to your body and for a sad few is also addictive is perfectly ok (just using surgery as a quick example, there a better one im sure of it) yet rolling up a joint can get you prison time in some places, and death in others.

I well believe there's been a thought out process how to keep us working like products, make sure we "make" tax, etc... So in a way I think your right

To be really honest,. XTC was hands down one of the best feelings Ive ever experienced the first time I kissed a somewhat beautiful girl while buzzing was an amazing amazing feeling,.. xtc has provided me with some of the best/ amazing nights experiences friendships Ive ever had,. Im be well quicker to tell someone who's looking for a good night/ party. to take xtc instead of anything else,.

Problem was we took the xtc and the next day would take benzo's / heroin to come down from the xtx/

I reckon I'll make it to at least 50 ,. after that i'll consider it all gravy,.

How I meet death will probably be either from bad eating habits, or violent ending