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Originally Posted by synthetic
i like this post lol
would post a question/something more constructive but don't have time to read the whole thread now
actually, are you ever going to try to "make things right" for muggings, etc? or do you not feel the need/will to do so? (probably already been asked)
I had a difficult time with it for a good while, There was lots of things id rather not of done, Ive been mugged myself once or twice, once by knife, once from people knocking me down and covering eyes arms legs etc and they search me,
I wasnt one of those that would kick your teeth in for your money, Ya either handed over or you didnt, suprisingly though no where near as many put up resistence you would think,... But yeah I feel guilty for some of it, less for others. I feel more guilty about hurting my mother with my use, or girlfriend.
Plus its not like it was an everyday thing, I used to sell hash,weed , buy in stuff like perfume,aftershave,sell it on etc knew enough people to be able to hustle quite comfortable, Im not trying to say what Ive done is right,
(thisnt part isnt directed at you) I think alot of the people that are so hateful and full of disgust at what ive done or who I am are going to get a HUGE shock if they ever end up in prison and or in a seriously bad area. , Birds dont always sing like the Disney ones, My whole family on one side are known for violence and just basically being degenerates,. Was for a big time of my life pretty much all I knew.
The way I try to make things right I suppose, Is by treating my girlfriend with all the respect and love I can, dito for Family,. I worked free will for 4 years with animals , feeding/walking/medicine etc, 5 days a week, Sometimes buy animals from petstores and give them over to decent groups with ample space, feed the local stray cats, if it doesnt become more apparent, Ive sorta checked out for the main part with humans, I dont really have too much with people,