exactly, if it felt like cutting my arm off im pretty sure there wouldnt be a problem to begin with.

who knows , we could all be self medication depression/whatever problems,.
Who knows.

Just noticed the alcho name with a gold watch avatar, .. classy, , Self worth directly tied to who much money someone has?

For sure, theres some pills you can get from the doctor that have way worse side effects and withdrawls then heroin,.. There's loads of people who end up in the same boat,. Hope it all goes easy enough for you, with a success story at the end

Its a subject close to heart that I understand, but are countries justified in doing whatever they want,?
its not just about london, or 9/11 or ireland,. Its about the BIG PICTURE, were all ****ing guilty.
and who wouldnt want world peace compared to a world like this one?

You support your troops fighting abroad? I support the "idea" of people fighting for thier own country. Even if that means there on the receiving end of invasion and doing the fighting in there own country.,

No you defo have lived, Just lived without a certain drug experience, we all have takin an headache tablet or cough stuff, We all live, just experience and try different things.


Short answer though Yes, I think it would be better for EVERYONE to try at least weed, and should try magic mushrooms.

First of all thanks for the reply, Sounds like you have got some mad stories to tell,. But I think you have misunderstood one point, The story of my addiction has a then and now. For instance you still live outdoors, drinking beer and hanging around with addicts of all shapes and sizes? since you say you knew em all, would imply past tense,. Well same thing with me robbing people and such,. Im living a pretty normal life the last 4 years or so,. Girlfriend/place/pets etc...

Questions though, Whats a UNC program?
Why bother threaten at the end of the post, its the internet?

Well played to cope on about risk before you ended up with one of those crazy american sentences, in saying that opiate charges are generally rough everywhere, but america takes the prize for scary prison sentences,.

find playing poker helps keep your mind off it?

Yeah for sure,. Im basically getting over a relapse , Its not a life long dream of mine to have to go out and score for ever,

Hey OP how long have you been taking methadone? you said you are on 30mg's a day right? do you know that methadone withdrawal can last 2 months? It can be worse than being dope sick. Do you guys have suboxone in Holland? Just curious. Suboxone really helps to curb the withdrawal and it has an opiate blocker in it too in case you ever really do want to quit. I was either on subs or dope for most of my years but I would only take the suboxone for like a week and ween off so the withdrawals wouldn't be as bad. Then I would rinse and repeat. You can get crazy withdrawals from suboxone too though with extended use.

My last kick was in jail and then strait to rehab. I was dope sick really bad for the first 2 weeks and the effects lasted for over a month. I still have Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome and it's been 8 months since my last shot. Haven't had a solid night of sleep, or had any motivation whatsoever and my memory isn't what it used to be. I still get some mild hot/cold sweats too. So yeah, needle withdrawal is so much worse. I was snorting oxy's about 200mg a day for a couple months than quit cold turkey and that withdrawal was nothing like dope/needle withdrawal, so avoid needles if you can for sure. The high is so much better, but the sick is the absolute worst.

If you ever need some advice or anything just send me a PM. I don't really know what I could tell you that you don't already know, but just sayin.

i honestly hope you can straighten your life out and put together a couple years of sobriety...wish you the best in your recovery and the fight you will be facing the rest of your life

he doesnt want to quit

Yeah I know it has me a good deal freaked out alright , worried how long the sickness from the methadone will be, I have heard numbers as high as 6 months of decent sickness,.. Yeah not sleeping always gets me so bad, . First time a quit I done cold turkey aswell, long after the pysical stuff was over I couldnt sleep either , (not 8 months) but too long for my liking anyway,. Would you ever take sleeping pills to help or would ya be too into them?,
Thats actually why I aimed at being on 30mg , was sick enough for the first while on it but evened out over time, They wont swap you over too temgesic (suboxone) if your on anymore, and since Ive only ever had good experience with it I wanted to be able too,. Its crazy , that stuff lets your brain heal itself while fighting sickness, yet methadone is the standerd, plan to swap over when im stable enough on the phy,
Have an oxy fetish lol, cant get them but seen some bloke smoking them on foil on mtv, since then been wondering what their like?
How is sober life working out for you,? and how sober is sober?

What was the rehad like there?

I do want to quit in a way, In many ways I dont, Its a strange thing, Its a feeling of wanting one thing at one time, not at others, with a backdrop of constant knowing that in the end its not a winning strategy,

Thanks a million, When I finally get there and get my head around a soberish life, I'll never be sober for im pretty sure Ill smoke weed and partake in the odd mushroom session (sex on shrooms now thats amazing). And I also have the feeling this is something I will battle for alot of my life ,. so your words are really appreciated.

Cool story bro

pooter its funny you callin someone scum when your running around asia giving every whore you can herpes while ****** old hags for money..As much as I love your stories you sir shouldn't judge.

OP. you will end up dead obviously and thats what you want deep down. There is nothing romantic about being a disgusting junkie. You starting this thread is a simple way of bragging about being a filthy criminal junkie.

BBV is really the bottom of the B

No offence, but everyone thinks this way when they're first messing around and getting high, when everything is still fun. Keep ****ing with heroin and come back in 10 years and you'll be singing a different tune.

10 years..LOL..william unless they have free wi fi in graveyards you won't be hearing from this guy in 10 years

Not to derail but……

LOL...at pointing fingers at Pooter. If you have not been in the third world you should not even talk about someone who participates in exploitation. OK….giving herpes is bad, but I have seen much worse crap happen in the third world…do you think the blinding stuff in Slumdog Millionaire was fiction?

Anyways, if you are a first world citizen and have not done anything to improve third world conditions, then shut the **** up.

Junkie **** guy, my questions are:

- Does your life have a purpose? If so, what?

- Is being a junkie cravings similar to sex/masturbation cravings? Which could you cold turkey from the longest? is it close?

Yeah whatever, thing is when you have lived in a city bombed by terrorists and known people who have been killed by said terrorist it kind of makes you blood boil when someone says he's an avid supporter of said group.

I think he would be getting a different reaction on a predominately U.S forum, if he blatantly said he avidly supports Al-Qaeda, Taliban Etc.

As you say I am a bad man, so what? I can still hate someone if I want, I don't give a ****.

First of all , I said I supported Taliban on a drug buying scale only, Whats all this about herpes , Sounds mad?

My purpose in life is still a mystery to me, I have an idea what I think its all about, but of course thats only speculation and personal opinion,. I think were all a sorta a cosmic play, different incarnations of the one true self all experiencing different view points of the universe, if you were all knowing all powerful I doubt its that intressting, however the fear and uncertain nature of our lives would make for a intressting way to experience things. Along those lines anyway,

No , Cold Turkey actually hurts and stops you sleeping, sweats , bad time in your own head, over thinking everything,.

Im hoping that when I decide to stop for good that I'll stay away from opiates alot longer then I will stay away from pussy,. In short though its easier to have a quick wank and forget about the sex, not so much for the opiates.

In an earlier post you said 15e and 20e, what's that a measurement for?

20e is nearly a half gram.