I agree a lot with your thoughts on working but then I'm only 18, it's good to see that your not completely based around drugs and that you do have plans children wise and could do everything necessary to be there for him/her when the time comes. You say when your next clean, do you think you need time to prepare for that or will just go for it when you feel the time is right? Do you think you'll work when you do have a child? Is there a story behind being in a cell for 3 weeks?

How do you feel now?

I am next week in Maastricht. Coffee shop you recomend? What would you buy there?

Two questions I already asked. But I think I have to rephrase:

If you would ever get off drugs completely. Do you think you would develop an addiction for something else? Like gambling, sex, watching TV, playing poker 24/7. Do you think you have an "addictive" personality? Do you think something like that exists?

Do you ever fear ending like a "real" junkie. I mean like the ones I see on the streets of Berlin and Hamburg. Homeless, braindead, deteriorated health, dying off an overdose? Or do you think you will go on like you lived the last 8 years.

Time to prepare is always a good thing, Since it can take a while, But since im on a methadone program Ill probably just cut out any other drug use and then drop the methadone down, Yeah if I cant find anything I could do for myself to make money with id defo work a ****** job to make ends meet, but then im still not working for a boss, im working for my kid.

Story just basically goes like this, . If you get caught for something that they think you done, but dont have much proof off, they'll hold you as long as they can sometimes without bringing you to court, hoping that your sickness/scared will make you admit to what you done so you can leave , once they know your guilty they let you go, since all you have to do then is go to court for sentencing,. what was I arressted for, too many thing sadly.

Feel relaxed, at ease. Could sit here silent and not get bored type feeling.

Yes, as soon as my girlfriend is pregent I start making moves to get off for good. Before I was on heroin I was a extremly randy kid, couldnt not try and **** a girl if she got close, even if it was my gf best friend type thing, so who knows,. But I think id always be addicted, just not a practicing addict, once you figure out your drug of choice it sorta sticks with you,. I regularly turn down pipes full with coke cause its just not my thing.

I think you can defo be prone to having more addiction problems, if you have lots of addicts / alcho's in your family it can make it all seem less dangerous, or more normal to do. I think though there's different levels of how true that is, Cause it knows no difference between a poor black person, educated white person, smart of stupid, if you take it enough you will get hooked eventually, but in short yes I think people can have a depostion to being an over user of a substance.

I personally think that "real junkie" type people are the ones that accept what society says and how they treat you,. plus a healthy dose of low intelligence helps imo,. Not saying im smarter then the rest, but luckier for sure, that I have had influences that thought me to think that its not impossible to be a drug addict and have most if not all your **** together. But if I ever see my self seriously getting that bad, or my girlfriend turns around and says whats happening to you, look at you. Im signing into a detox right quick lol... Ive seen the same type of junkies, ive had friends ive started out with looking exactly like them already, so no, Ill do what ever I can to keep a certain level of normallity.

had a pic, decided against it.

if I was able to take it down later Id post one, but once its up its stuck there isnt it?

lol, Im sure the IRA will be glad to hear they have the support of people like you!

In what way do you support the IRA? I can understand people having sympathy for the Irish people who want a united Ireland but supporting those that plant bombs to kill men women and children that have nothing to do with the conflict! Use whats left of your junkie brain and rethink that 1. You can be pissed off at british military activities across the world and think of them as acts of terror but for the same reasons you should not support the terrorist activities of the IRA when then kill non combatants.

Do you believe the more recent activities of the continuity IRA and dissident republicans are for a good cause? Or do your thoughts on the issue mirror that of the mainstream IRA/Sinn Fein turning to political solutions and away from violence?

The fact is that in todays Northern Ireland people would be no better off in a united ireland. The only difference would be a worse economic situation. And potentially a return to the violent days if loyalist paramilitaries began a campaign of terror against the irish government.

Do you think that heroin has had an affect on your thoughts about the IRA?

No , I aggree that I made a far too broad statement in my reply, The first part about supporting terroists was supposed to be about how I support taliban everytime I buy heroin,. Second part about being an avid I.R.A supporter was also a tad bit too strong, I support the ideal's of people sticking together and fighting together as a unpaid, under financed army to protect its homeland,. I should of even made a more honest statement and say I dont support much at all of the I.R.A as is today,. I think both sides, political and dissident are pushing there own agenda's through, be it public or not. , its just another criminal gang hiding under the northern Ireland problem. Do I support the original Idea's of why IRA and simular people took up arms. Yes, I have already made it perfectly clear that I dont agree with any bombs being dropped by either side, especially when it is your own people and non armed forces that are being killed, I support political ways of ending troubles other then picking up arms, all I really meant with my broad statement was , Supporting Terroists comes in many ways and many faces. I say IRA, He says UDA, Another says Corporations,.

As a addict I know first hand the hypocrisy that has become of alot of republicans, On one side there breaking legs of addicts and dealers, yet also of the local lads smoking hash,. While thier brother sells it, things like that, But people this type of ******** evil is on all sides. No one is right in topics like these, we all have opinions , thats it.

No heroin has had no effect on my thoughts about this..

But would like to add, thanks for a well thought out and executed reply, Its so much easier to learn and converse about a subject when someone replies like you did,. hope I have cleared it up a bit?

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I'm pretty sure some bbv4lers would even download it and add it to there "private" collection (fap fap fap). Probably rehost it somewhere else too.

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lol, never know. Just dont see the point in plastering a picture under a title like this, who knows who one day see's it when I have kids or what,

Are you aware that after 8yrs of heavy use your heart and other organs have sustained major damage and there is a good possibility of a stroke that may not kill ya but you may be a veg still in the ****ed up place you can't stand unable to do anything. Your 25 and have so much in front of ya....get to detox...move away as you have nothing where you are except bad memories. If you are in the UK any bus for 2 hour ride should be far enough...start over in sober living.

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the fact that you said two hours away would be enough to me proves you dont really know that much about the subject. I know its from a nice place that you advice this, and in all effect it actually would be the best thing for me, Sober living isnt exactly what im looking for at the moment

Well I agree you have to want to do it in order for it to work. But really man your only 25 why would you use this drug is the question?? I am by no means throwing stones as I use pot and will do a line (caine) a few times a year with friends playing cards and fortunatly don't have an addictive personality to understand what your going through. I can only speak as someone who lost 3 great friends in 1 night after they bought what they thought was caine and was instead very pure heroin and after laying out a good size line 2 of my buddies almost instantly dies from respratory issues and a 3rd made it to his bed and proceeded to survive for 2 weeks on organ pumps untill there was nothing to be saved as his organs all shut down. This is by know means ment to try and scare ya as I am sure you have seen/been apart of your own hell just a story about the bad side of addicition. I hope you can do it soon one day bro and if you ever needed a mate to chat with from far away I would be here for ya.



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Thats actually really nice, Thank you. Yeah I could imagine thats hard to handle, even worse since there all people you knew and liked, bad enough when people die as it is, . It pays to educate yourself about the stuff your using,. its literally the difference between death and life. If you want to chat sometime add me on the same name on skype

opiate addict sounds so much nicer than junkie.

dont want to derail but bloody sunday. raping innocent women in scotland, wales and ireland. Just because it happened a little more recently doesn't mean your country is golden. The IRA are a joke but so are the English. If we invaded London with America, what would you do. Nothing? Thought not. Their tactics were scum but so were the English's tactics in acquiring those countries.

I think patriotism is the biggest LOL in the world. I couldnt give a **** what happened/happens to Ireland. Love sports but just because someone is from my country doesnt mean I have to support them.

So in essence what I'm saying is you're previous governments were no different to these terror groups

How can you go 8 years without using a needle? that's crazy. You don't even know what a real heroin high is bro! But don't do it. I only lasted a couple weeks snorting the **** before I moved to needles (never shared, got a good exchange program where I lived). I've had 2 best friends, and 6 other friends die. I've died myself, but they brought me back in the hospital. I had a heroin induced stroke as well. Still can't lift my right arm above my head without a little strain.

I'm 29 and I would trade in the last 7-8 years of my life in a heartbeat for one without heroin. I've been off the dope now for 8 months and I'm seriously committed to quitting for good this time. I wish you the best, that **** is pure evil. I was spending about $100 a day for years. Now i'm clean but living at my parents house washing dishes for a living even though I have a business degree.

But you're right OP, the only way you will be able to quit is if you really want to quit.

jesus, this is why heroin scares the crap out of me. I don't think I would every try it. I really love cocaine but I don't do it very much, mostly cause I'm a busto college student without a real job.

Where did you get 100$ a day jjust for drugs?

oh and that sucks.

This thread is surprisingly boring.

If you haven't sucked a dick or taken one up the ass for your habit, you're doing it wrong.

How does it feel to face the fact that you will most likely be dead before you hit 30?

Some pretty dumb replies in here, good thread imo...

I was selling massive amounts of drugs to keep up with my habit. I gave that up to though, too much risk. So in my hay day I was prolly spending more like $200-$300 a day for dope, but I just averaged it out to $100

lol no what i meant by society was like having a job, being respected by the people that are around you, and turning your life around for the most part.

**** you **** you **** you **** you **** you

you are absolute scum listen to yourself talk, your immature irrelevant justifications make me physically sick. you are literally like a 5 year old child

because you are a coward, tough enough to take $ from another human being but not strong enough to look at yourself in the mirror.

and stop saying "you" are doing things. you dont have the right to claim you are a free willed human being. you are addiction incarnate.