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Originally Posted by cowpig
What's life all about? Like, what is your life philosophy/why do you do the things you do? Do you feel a sense of purpose or drive? Are you happy? I'd like to hear you ramble a bit... gogo stream of consciousness/ideas
Being a nosebleed NL/PLO player doesn't really qualify me to answer this, but I'll give it my best shot.
I go back and forth on what life is about, but I've realized that thinking about that doesn't make me happy. So maybe that's what I think life is about... being happy.
Since I don't think it's super likely that something else is going to happen after this life, it seems like life should be about your own happiness and perhaps the happiness of other people, present and future.
I think I'm happier than most, though definitely not happier than I was before poker. Life since poker has gotten much more stressful and busy, though that might just be a product of me getting older and having more responsibilities.
I don't really feel a sense of purpose. I am driven in poker by my competitive nature, though I'm not sure if that's what you were asking. I don't see poker being a large part of my life in the long term. Just a means to an end. I do love the game though.
I have strong morals, but I don't know where they come from. I try to be kind and respectful to everyone, and help people that I care about. I think that might be what's important in life, relationships with other people. It's something that poker has taken away from me a bit. I used to spend much more time with friends and family. You'd think a job like this, where you make your own hours and make more money than you should need, would lead to a lot of free time, but it's been just the opposite for me.
I'm very obsessive about making sure I don't miss good games. I often will turn down plans with friends because I think there's a chance some good games will start. I also have a lot of trouble since I weigh my decisions against my hourly. If there are good games, I could go out with friends or make $50k. Makes it tough to go out, and even tougher to enjoy yourself when you do.
I hope that one day soon I'll make enough money in poker that I'll be able to semi-retire. I'll still play because I love the game and the challenge, but I won't have to play. As far as what I'll do then and purpose, I'm not sure. I feel like getting to the point where you can do whatever you want is the hard part, so I'm working on that. I can figure out what it is I want to do later.
If I make a NY resolution this year, it should be to skip games, or restrict myself from playing at certain times so that I can spend more time with people who are important to me.
That was a bit more of a diary entry than a meaning of life answer, but you said stream of consciousness.