5 months ago I was on an insane heater. Before this, my biggest online cash was $2k and I did some random cash games @ PokerStars between 50-100NL and 25-50PLO. In a 3 month period I managed to cash 11k online in a MTT and after this cash I started to grind some serious 50PLO multitabling.
Within 2 months I became supernova at these stakes cus I made average grinding session of 12-16 tables for 12 hours+ (and was running F-ing hot 9bb/100)...
After taking some shots at higher levels (400-600PLO) I decide to withdrawal everything ($15K; biggest mistake in my life!?). After I did that the downswing had started...
The reason I started this post is not to brag, but I'm really freaking out. After the hot run/crush-period I started to play live 200-400NL.
Yesterday I had one of the sickest run in my life. I lost 8 deepstack BI @ the biggest donktable you could ever imagine. One of the hands:
Blinds: 2/4 w/ 8 straddle:
4 callers, SB makes it €56, hero A
€135, fold x 4, sb €125 (w/ 550-ish) behind, hero calls.
The reason I call is that the SB is down €2K+ within 1 hour so I give him some rope to hang himself on any decent flop...
Villain: insta ships €550 and hero obv snap calls w/ two overs and nut FD.
DAFUQ?! For real? Is this is F-ing joke? Ahh well at least my money went in good *sigh*
I rebuy for €800 and give it a go:
1 orbit later:
Action: call, call, same aggr fish makes it €90, hero €250, fold, fold, and villain ships his covered stack in. Hero tank call
Fish smileys and shows QJo?!?!!?!?!?
Again?! WTF IS GOING ON! IS THIS A F^&*^KING FAKE TABLE? WHERE ARE THE CANDID CAMERAS, JUST SHOW THEM AND I %^&*ING LEAVE THIS TABLE.
Obv 1 hour later my AA is getting smacked by QQ against the same aggr fish donk hot running *bleep* for a €2.4K pot.
So half hour before casino closes I am down €3.5K+ and I'm never been this tilted in my life! Not being 3K up at the biggest +EV table ever, against the biggest fish in years, whatever..
I headed my way to the roulette and dropped 2K in Euro's. Im doing €500 spin on 6 numbers, so when it comes, Im even.
... BOOM! it bumped out of my number and Im down €500.
Spin 2: SSDD such as 3 and 4.
I changed 1K in €20 chips and layed it down accrossed the table and lose again.
Now Im down almost 8K.
Previous session Im also down like 4K of extremly bad running
Maybe it's such a rhetorical question, but how do u guys act when ur in a rollercoaster like this? I just cant handle myself and when Im losing literally every hand where Im 2:3+ favor,any self-controll fades away in a snap.
*emotional rollercoaster mode on*
Whats the answer to approach poker in a 'less emotional way' (sounds odd, dont know how to say it) when ur busting in 3 months and playing ur A-game, but EVERY F-ing card that beats you, come...?
Sorry for the long post but I was/am tilted as **** and this made me feel relieved