It happened to me ~6 times but much lower amount (~1000$) and two times out of those ~6 went well for me. Also ive probably ~20 less than 500$ casino tilt (some went well including one that went super-well, most went wrong).
Even though those losses are stupid, dumb, retarded, those amounts are amount I can afford to lose. So let's call it controlled tilt. However I stoped doing this for 18months and I've no urge to do it.
I've no secret or special tactics to stop, I just stoped when I was sick of it, sick of hating myself, of lying about it, sick of that awful feeling in your guts. Also I make less money than I used to so I can't just go around and be a retard.
Your case is quite different since you seem to have absolutly no control over yourself. I've no idea how you can go THAT far a losing that much money without backing down. How can you continue when you're down 5k ? I think I would have quit gambling/poker forever if that ever happened to me.
I know poker player never beleive that kind of thing, esp winning players but Its likely you have a gambling problem.
p.s. right now, I promised myself to win back the $10k in next 10 days.. $1k a day should do it..
That kind of thinking is bad. dont promise yourself to win it back in a super quick amount of time. Just play normal and it will come back soon or later. Again, those kind of things are a sign of gambling probem